10 days out of a 2 year addiction

[XoxKIMBERLYoxO]

I was in an accident in 1995, when I was 15 years old.  It messed up my back.  No one has been able to tell me what is wrong.  I have had some guesses by many Dr.'s.
I drank myself to the point of suicide MANY times between 1995 and 2006.  In 2006, a neighbor introduced me to Methadone.  Instantly, I was hooked.  Amazingly enough (so I thought) the drinking pretty much ceased.  I thought that it was the answer to my prayers.
Well, a few months, and 1000's of dollars later, I knew I was in too deep.  I went to a Dr. and he kept me on Methadone until I got in with a Pain Management Dr..  He put me through the ringer.  He was awful.  For the last two years, I have been on Methadone...then Roxicodone....then Oxycontin.  
I just moved to a different state.  The PM Dr. here didn't like what he saw and started to wean me off.  Of course, the wean was too steep and I ran out.  Then the trust was lost between us.  I was blessed to have not been let go.  I assume it was only because of my extenuating circumstance.
I am now on day 10.  I weaned myself off in about 3 days.  When I moved here, I was taking about 320mg Oxycontin daily.  When I quit, I was around 30-100mg then the last 3 days were 10mg, 5mg, 2.5mg....
I feel weak.  I feel depressed.  I am irritable.  I am angry.  I am in pain.  I have a female sensitivity that won't seem to go away.  I am not sleeping well during the night.
My PA-C said that if the withdrawals didn't stop by last weekend that I should call.  I assume that he is going to want to see me tomorrow.  I really don't understand his concern, seeing as though I've read things on here that say it's at least 2 weeks.  I did the Imodium thing - that helped, but I am still nauseated.
At this point, I am living no kind of life.  I have two small children - my poor babies.  A very tolerant husband - bless his heart.
I guess my plan is to plead with the Dr. tomorrow.  I don't know if he will work with me.  I know I took it for granted before.
I am so weak....and so sad.  And, I don't know how I am supposed to move on with my life like this.

Thanks for any advice....comments....concerns.

God Bless,
Kimberly

[iwant2Bfree]

My thoughts and prayers are with you!  Your on the right track to getting your life back..Keep your eyes on the finish line...

[XoxKIMBERLYoxO]

Well, I called my Dr. to ask about the vitamins and aminos.
They sounded annoyed and said that I just needed to stick with the anti-inflammatory patch.
"Just do what we ask for a month, and don't add anything"  the nurse said.
I am thinking "yeah, you spend one day in these withdrawals and tell me how you feel".
I am a little concerned about the Dr. because they hadn't even heard about some of the withdrawal symptoms I was having.  But, I found them online in a Michigan study.  Should I be teaching my Dr?
I really do think they have my best interest at heart - I just don't appreciate them being frustrated with me after all I have been through.

What do you think about Dr experiences you have had?

Kim

[XoxKIMBERLYoxO]

Thanks again for the concern and advice!
I think I am going to give Lyrica a chance.  The Dr.'s have suggested that it is nerve pain from which I suffer.
I went to CVS and got the vitamins I could there.  I am going to head over to GNC today to get the rest of the aminos.
I am doing the Gatorade, Imodium, Epson baths, Amino's, and now Lyrica.  I think I am going to call and run this by my Dr....just to be safe.
I slept REALLY well last night!!  I took the Magnesium and the Calcium as the Protocol recommends.
I am going to jump on the trampoline for about 10 minutes today.  It gets my heart going and I know that is imperative to restoring those endorphins.
It's day 12 and I am hanging in there.  I am supposed to be starting a new job in a week, so I've got to get better.
Thanks again for all the comments.
I really am appreciative and I am trying to take all of the advice given.
Lots and lots of prayers,
Kim

[road2recovery]

You should be so proud of yourself for how far u have come...Seems like it was a fast taper, but u are hanging in there.....I know having 2 small children is not easy on you...But if u get more pills u will just have to go through this again...and it probably will be worst next time..
Lyrica is a very good med for nerve pain...Give it a try...And i so agree with the getting out and walking part....I forced myself and so glad i did...I think by doing that the natural endorphines that have been sleeping start waking and then the sweating is letting  the toxins out....Try to get out as much as u can , u won't be sorry.....
STAY STRONG
r2r

[mimi1313]

Lyrica works well for nerve pain but can be addictive as well. It also has a tendency to make you gain weight.

[XoxKIMBERLYoxO]

Anyone have any luck with Lyrica?

[XoxKIMBERLYoxO]

Jumped on the new trampoline for a few minutes today.
It's one of the few things that doesn't hurt my back.
Then I had to come inside with BAD stomach cramps.
Took some Imodium, a bath, and then a nap.

I think boredom has ALOT to do with my situation.  I just sit here and think about it all day because I don't feel like I have the energy to do anything.

[malenurse57]

Go for it ! Good luck and God bless

[XoxKIMBERLYoxO]

Thanks so much for the responses.
Just got back from the Dr..  He gave me an anti-inflammatory patch for my back.  It feels gross, but I couldn't reach to apply the gel 4 times daily.
I cried - my life is a mess - please give me the drugs to fix it.  No such luck.
Part of me knows that drugs aren't the answer, but the other part knows it will make things better.
I don't know if moving to a new state was a blessing or a curse.  I know I was out of control back home, but at least I had the drugs......hmmm, sounds pretty pathetic.
This would be alot better if I didn't have two small children to look after.

He said that the withdrawals should subside within 7-10 days....I just looked at him.

I'll do the things you recommend.

Thank you for your inspiration.

God Bless.

[Sammy1981]

Withdrawal Cure.....Do this a you will love me!

1. Drink Gatorade.
2. Put 1/2 Cup Epson Salt in bath water....Take baths as frequently as possible(Stay in the Tub at Least 1 Hour at a time).
3. Exercise(Walk a a moderate pace)....I know your bones and joints ache....I know it     hurts to sneeze. Just do it.
4. Take Benedryl 50 for sleep.(Be careful too much will make things worse)
5. Seek online support and read as many of these kinds of post as possible.

I have a unique experience with withdrawals. I was on 100 mcg Fentyl pactch, and taking 6 x 80 mg oxycontin per day. This formula is what saved my ***.

[GoingToMakeIt]

Some people drink Ensure while in w/d. It has most everything you need and is easy to digest. Gatorade can help with electrolytes. Good luck to you.

[lonelyinCA]

Hi Kimberly - thanks for sharing your story.  It sounds like you are in the tail end of the w/d's. Whatever the doc suggests, I sure hope it's not more med's.  You've come this far and don't need to use again.  The way you are feeling (low energy, depression, angry, pain) - are all side effects of you no longer supplementing with drugs. You are low on all good things your body produces and it will need a kick start to build them back to normal.  The good news is that your body is amazing and can do this more quickly if you help.  A few things to consider:

Read the Amino Acid protocal here:  http://www.medhelp.org/health_pages/Addiction/Amino-Acid-Protocol/show/15?cid=66

There's several items there that WILL help with depression, mood, and rebuilding the production & delivery of your 'feel good' levels.  

You should also drink something with electrolytes - esp. if you are not eating well. Are you well enough to take a short walk today?  You may need to force it upon yourself, but it will be well worth it.  It's like putting a desposit in the bank!

Between vitamins/supplments, good nutrition, and excersize - you will be back to your old self very soon.  Can you do this?