Day 12

[Sydnie]

Hey ya'll, I am on day 12 off hydros, last Friday was the day I couldve gotten the script refilled. (The main reason I quit when I did is because I was out a couple of weeks before it was time to refil). I am doing ok, Not happy actually pretty sad 80 percent of the time but ok considering. I took trazadone to help me sleep for the first week but other than that I am not taking anything. It is really depressing because I have realized that I am sad w/o using but it would be worse if I use. I kinda just want to cry all the time.  I can't really get out and do things because I take care of my elderly mom and I can't leave her alone.  I don't have anyone to talk to about it because no knows. I did tell my mom that I don't think she needs any more of the strong pain pills because I've heard that people can get addicted to them. ( I know I am such a coward) I also asked her dr for some thing for her for pain that was non-narcotic, he told me he would give her ultracet, but then when he was writing out her other meds he apparently forgot to write that one and I didn't say anything. I have heard about ultracet from being here. No thank, you sir!!!!!  So here I am, I really thought it would be down hill by now. I knew I wouldn't be anywhere near out of the woods but dang, I just feel crappy right now. Also yesterday I was nauseous all day, what is that about? Anyway, just wanted to keep posting. Thanks
S.

[10356]

Hi Sydnie.. This is a old name.. On my mothers side it was hers and my grandfathers and so on.. It brings back fond memories.. I'm very sorry to read that your mom needs pain meds.. also very sorry that you are dealing with being deceitful with her for your true intentions.. Please take no offense.. I was a care giver for my Mother in Law in for Cancer.. I used her pain meds and even manipulated a little :( This is the story of a Drug Addict.. I'm sure I'm not alone with having to accept I done these things to feed my addiction.. I was not upfront with her. but she caught on as addiction does not lie to the obverses.. My suggestion would be to be honest with your mother or a least with someone that can hold you accountable.. a lock box if your mom can take her own meds would be ideal.. Please to do not be to harsh on yourself as addiction brings out the worst in all of us.. but use this opportunity of awareness to change the situation.. being honest with mom or posting on the forum.. reach out for support. for when all is said and done.. We do have to live with ourselves.. I wish you well on your journey.. lesa

[worried878]

congrtats on 12 days clean..that is great...glad u r feeling so well and hang tight...it gets better and better...dont know bout others but I do know i feel nauseated when i am anxious..i had nausea after quitting as well..course my tummy was messed up and it is pretty much the norm to have stomach issues...keep posting