Day 16 free !! - Song for All

[T2112]

Today is day 16 free from pills. I feel I owe so many of you on this site for posting your experiences, which helped me understand and for talking me through a low point that stole my all my creativity these past 2 years. Writing and playing music is everything to me. It's what got me through 20 tough years of life from 14 to 33 y/o. Unfortunately at 34 (15 years ago) I discovered pain meds and they slowly took over to the point that I didn't wanted to play guitar at all these past 2 years. If I tried it just didn't work. I was like I lost 5+ years of ability and all of my creativity. It wasn't until day 12 free of pain meds that the musical cravings started coming back and today I am starting to feel creative again.  On day 2, I committed to writing a song and posting it.  (credit): The title comes from a post by ang_811 which included the phrase "Stronger than Yesterday".  Here goes;

Woke up cold and thought of something
Life doesn’t have to be like this
It’s kinda rough when thinking of jumping
Surrender – and scream my wish

I shout, I’m hoping --- To make it through another day
I’m hoping --- Tomorrow's not too far away
Here’s hoping --- I’m Stronger than Yesterday

Started thinking and it made me wonder
About days and months and years gone by
Riding high in a cloud of thunder
Can’t hang on – and touch the sky

I shout, I’m hoping --- To make it through another day
I’m hoping --- Tomorrow's not too far away
Here’s hoping --- I’m Stronger than Yesterday

Contemplated my hearts true questions
Of who and where, but mostly why
Of Selfishness and Obligations
Gotta let go – before I die

I shout, I’m hoping --- To make it through another day
I’m hoping --- Tomorrow's not too far away
Here’s hoping ---
I’m Stronger than Yesterday

[T2112]

Thank You. It has been a strange ride. From feeling pretty low to extreme happiness to finally somewhat leveling out. I am looking forward to each day. I appreciate you letting me bounce these lyrics off each of you.

[FourJays]

Wow - that is really beautiful; really powerful words.  It looks like you found it again for sure!  Congratulations on 16 days . . .keep it up :)

[toothfairie]

congrats on 16 days!  and beautiful song! you are a very talented writer! keep it up....it's so worth it and you have alot to offer!  

[EvolverU]

A big Hi - Five on your 16!! days clean,

              You're through the worst of it. I hear you about losing your creativity. It will come back to you - especially if you actively pursue it.  Glad you have that outlet as it's a good direction to channel your mind and energy towards. Each day under your belt will help your self-confidence. Every temptation you pass up will solidify your resolve and break down the old patterns. It can, absolutely, be done and you're doing it right now!. Thanks for posting Ang_811's poem (?) Keep up the great work - so glad you're here.

[needhelp144]

Keep on truckin bro congrats