Was just talking about you! Was starting to worry!! So GLAD to hear from you. I'm going to send you a quick Email now. :-)
Oh yea, I'm still winning...you better run fast to catch up with me. LoL! Ohhh so have to have humor or you will go INSANE! I think it's funny...sorry if no one else does. :-)
haha I am trying to catch up. I am staying home tonight, I can hear everyone partying next door. It's so hard, but I am trying to stay focused and remind myself why i'm doing this.
Ugh this is so hard, nextdoor my neighbors are partying, in here my roommates are taking diluadid. I can't seem to get away from this no matter where I go. Every second is like a test, but nobody even knows its a test for me. Taking diluadid would be like the same as taking oc right? ( i mean i think i no the answer) but just to be sure, it would just send me back to where Iwas right?
It sure would! Any opiate is going to drag things out. I'm telling you, when us addicts are in the process of getting clean someone upstairs knows and tests us to our limits! If it's not one thing it's another. All this is gonna do is make you stronger mentally knowing that you can say no. You did say no, right?!! I'm sure you did as you questioned your question. Keep going strong Cassie! Another day is just about over!
Brian
yeah i said no, but everytime it is brought up or around me i just get so much anxiety and it launches my head into thinking about it again. tonight is rough, ive been throwing up and cold and then hot then cold, my body hurts, it just *****. but im going to try to sleep, i have a little trazadone to take. I really need to sleep because i cant keep missing school, i am so behind and ive got midterms next week.