thanks so much for all the support you guys have given me it means more then you could imagine right now!
it was exactly the same with me, i thought, if i could get my mum to talk about it with me, to acknowledge it or even be sorry , but no. she "conveniently" forgot or to bear any responsibility, my counselor told me to write a letter to my mother, asking what i needed to , etc, and explain how i felt, so i did, but all hell broke loose, she said aome awful things about me ,atc i am sure you can imagine, my counselor said "you have to let go now" leave it behind, your not going to get what you want/need. so i broke all ties with her, and i did feel a release, i stopped banging my head on a brick wall, and found i felt a lot freer , and it was not so important anymore, well, sorry to have rabbited on there, i havent said all that before ,so you have helped me! take good care of yourself, best wishes, sudie
3 whole weeks. wow! Congrats..So good!!.sorry about all the other issues right now-- but you are right "it is what it is" we can't change the past but we have the power to change the future. you are changing your future for the better by kicking that methadone. Stay STRONG girl! TEENA
thanks so much. I know I dont want to think about it b/c it brings me alot of uneasy feelings against my Mom and talking to her about it so that I can move on from it just isnt a option. I have tried to talk to her about it and she just tells me to shutup. All I can say is that I think her reasoning for doing that is so that she doesnt have to deal with it but one day she will have to face the music. I cant blame her totally b/c my dad was a big factor in it but he had a lot of issues with Vietnam so to be he had a reason to act the way that he did but she didnt. I dont know its just a lot to process and I am having a hard time dealing with it. I have talked to my dad about it a little now that he has gotten sober but I dont want to send him in a downward spiral so I dont talk with him about it much.
i just wanted to say a huge well done to you! congratulations on day 21, i do know how you feel when you have to think of the past, i know thats always been a big part of my addiction problems, i also had counseling but i still know theres things i have hidden in my head. maybe ive learnt to live with them, as you so rightly say, we cant change the past, so we must just move on from it, and not let it ruin the future, i wish you well in your recovery, take care and god bless,