Day 5- from 200 mg hydrocodone a day to 0 ?

[mrT]

Just wondering when you start to feel any better ?  I have had a bad headache for about 3 days, that seems to be clearing up now. I have extreme body aches, sneezing, runny nose, even blurred vision ?  I have gotten some meds from my addiction doc to help with withdrawls.  They make me feel a little better - help me sleep anyway.  Phenobarbital, robaxin, stomach medicine, and oxazepam.  Don't worry - he only gave me 20 of each and will not refill unless absolutely necessary.  I have only posted here once or twice, but I read all the time.  This seems to be a good place for support.  I have been addicted to opiates for over 10 years - the SUBUTEX is almost available, and I may switch to that since it seems that I can never quite for good.  I have only quite for a few months at a time before.  I am 44, have a good job, 17 year marriage, and a 5 year old boy.  I don't have much to loose, do I ?  I am also pending charges on possession of a controlled substance - testosterone.  I like to body build, but being an addict I tried the easy way and got caught.  I hope if there are spiritual people on this site you pray for me.  I really need to get out of my legal troubles and addiction.

With love,
Tim

[athena]

I just now noticed your post.As far as flushing the pills,I would have never done it on my own.It was not something that i could have done on my own.When I knew that goldenbear was in the same predicament as I was,I just felt like I had to be strong.i have come to really care about the people here and I felt like I couldn't let them down.not that it would have,but I wanted to prove something to myself also.You are a lot stronger than you think.When the time is right,you'll just know it.in the meantime,were all here pulling for you.

pixi

P.S
GB flushed first!lol

[AlanW]

I'm on day one of hydros!  I spent a couple of weeks moving and tapering off and today is the first day.  I kind of feel good, but definitely in a cold sweat all the time.  Thansk to all on the board.  I know it will be hit or miss and now that I've moved I don't have my docs anymore.  Let's see if I can make it.

Take care

[DIRTBAG]

How can anyone flush pills, I am astounded that two people have built up such a trust and friendship in each other on this web site to pull off such a thing.  I congradulate both of you but somehow it makes me feel like even more of a failure, how selfish is that.  The truth is I'm here talking about it but I think sometimes I will always take pills because reality and the life I've created sucks and I care so much but I'm such a phony that I can never recover, is it a pitty party or just fact as the story unfolds

[smiley77]

hi, this is my first time. I am a bit scared I'm currently taking loritab 10mg, about 5-6 per day. I'm noticing that I have become a different person, when I start coming off the medication, I get crumpy and tired. It feels thats the only way I could make it through the day. I deal with pain from the waist down, and have alot of tension headaches. I have been revolving my life around these pills. I dont want to die from taking these pills, I pray that some one can tell me how I can get away from these. I know I have to stop, because in a month I take up to 180 pills, then my doctor just gives me refills when I ask for them. If anyone can tell me a way that can get me away from taking these, please let me know. I have 4 wonderful children, and I want to be around for then when they grow up. I feel like I'm a drug addict. I pray every day to get the strength to stop, but I just dont have the power.

                    sincerely,
                    smiley77

[Goldenbear]

I dumped them at 1pm and darted out the door to work out and watch my 5 year old in Tae Kwon Do. I hope you did the same. I felt so much better after I hammered my body in the gym and thought about what I did. I felt as good flushing the greenies as I did on my 5th day when I knew I had the addiction under control. Wew as addicts have to test ourselves differently than having possesion of our poisen.
When I told my wife she cried in front of 30 people in the class my son was in... Afterwards she put both hands on my face and said "welcome back sweetheart, now I know your done with those things" Way too emotional for me... I am incapable of processing how I feel... Happy, but still uncomfortable. Too weird.
I hope you are doing well. Keep posting.
Goldenbear

[bmac]

I wasn't that kind of busy lastnight.lol I was out playing and didn't get back home until 3 this morning.God knows these college kids should find something else to do but drink and party all night long.Oh well,I rememeber those days myself.
I'll be pulling for the vols today.We don't play until next
week,then it's you all.
                          go vols
                           bmac