Day 5- from 200 mg hydrocodone a day to 0 ?

[mrT]

Just wondering when you start to feel any better ?  I have had a bad headache for about 3 days, that seems to be clearing up now. I have extreme body aches, sneezing, runny nose, even blurred vision ?  I have gotten some meds from my addiction doc to help with withdrawls.  They make me feel a little better - help me sleep anyway.  Phenobarbital, robaxin, stomach medicine, and oxazepam.  Don't worry - he only gave me 20 of each and will not refill unless absolutely necessary.  I have only posted here once or twice, but I read all the time.  This seems to be a good place for support.  I have been addicted to opiates for over 10 years - the SUBUTEX is almost available, and I may switch to that since it seems that I can never quite for good.  I have only quite for a few months at a time before.  I am 44, have a good job, 17 year marriage, and a 5 year old boy.  I don't have much to loose, do I ?  I am also pending charges on possession of a controlled substance - testosterone.  I like to body build, but being an addict I tried the easy way and got caught.  I hope if there are spiritual people on this site you pray for me.  I really need to get out of my legal troubles and addiction.

With love,
Tim

[Goldenbear]

Good Morning,
Pixi
I Had an OK day yesterday. Very grumpy.... lonely. Not looking forward to giving up my space and time alone to keep myself on point to stay clean.
At the beginning of my sobriety I asked my wife to flush 40 Lorcet 10/650s. Two days ago I found that she just put them away in case I really relapsed badly. So I have kept them in a floor safe in my office since I found out they were still in the house. I am not doing well knowing how close they actually are. In order to get them I must go through alot to get them. It will require premeditation... 15 days clean, 15 days.
Ok  Ok  Ok. I know I should flush them but,.... I'm destined to failure having them in my possession. Pixi we have gone through the worst in the last 2 weeks. If you have Hydro in your posession you must be feeling extreme pressure like me... What should we do???? We both know the answer to this question?
Let me know what your head is telling you. I'm curious.

Cincee, Whats up with you? Post a thread.

Goldenbear

[oldtimer]

Good Morning Everyone
I have posted a few times but I don't know where they are going or why there were deleted..anyways, I think my last post that did get through was misunderstood, Iam not on 10 days clean, right now I'm trying to taper until my next prescription..what I meant was that I have tried many many times to get off oxycontin but I can not, I truly can not, I have gone 11 days only to get worse as each day go by, I know I have alot of phsyical issues, but the stomach pain I have just can not be from w/d alone, it just can not be,I literaly can lose almost 10 pounds when I try, I know I have stomach ailments (ulcers ect) but the pain is unbearable when I don't have pain meds, I have been addicted to pain meds longer than I can remember (i'm 46 now)I have been on oxycontin for 3yrs straight now, I'm only prescriped 80 mil 2xday
but I do much more than that, hubby is prescriped his own for severe back pain, he has had surgery, nuts,bolts, wires holding his spine together, so we are in this nightmare together, my tolerance to pain meds is very high now, thomas, I have been reading about your 'recipe' for a few yrs now, but am afraid to try it due to all the other meds i'm on for my heart, and my severe PVD, I really don't know what I'm asking, maybe I just want someone to tell this nightmare to. if I could only just take my meds as directed things would not get out of control, and that is one of my problems, not having self control! though I truly can not go through cold turkey again, (I believe one of these times I will not make it through)so I do use some control when I screw up and have to taper till next script, I can say that I truly stay on the taper and not do what I have done in the past and say 'screw it, I'll make it through 7, 5 or whatever amount of days till next script,because I know that I can not handle cold turkey anymore, I just can't, but I still suffer somewhat when I screw up and have to taper..with all this media hype about oxycontin I can't even talk to my doc about this and maybe raising the mil, because I'm afraid he'll take me off, this really sucks, I wish that I never ever put a pill in my mouth all those yrs ago! sorry if this sounds crazy I'm just having a bad morning..thanks for letting me vent, hope everyone has at least a decent day today
Dee
PS thomas, ww, whatever happened to that wonderful woman who use to come here not for herself, she had a daughter that was a heroin addict? I can't remember her name, but she was a wonderful wonderful lady..do you remember who I'm talking about??

[athena]

Not a stuid question at all.I called my doc the other day and asked for flexeril.She called in hydro,and I didn't know it untill after the pharmacy delivered them.The addict in me will not let me flush them.Stupid huh?Anyway,I did get the flexeril yesterday so I can do without the hydro.Back to you though.The recipe will really help your energy level and put back the vitamins you really need.Do you take lithium for the bipolar?That does make the w/d thing a lot harder when we have other problems.You will get lots of encouragement around here.It's kinda slow on the weekends though.

pixi

[mrT]

Stupid question, but why do you have the hydros around ?  If it is for pain, check into geting on buprenex.  I was on it for 11 months and it works wonders.  The DEA told my doc he could not prescribe it for addicts, but SUBUTEX has been approved (oral burprenex and no it does not have naltrexone in it - the other one does).

Tim

[mrT]

Thanks for the post.  I really appreicate it.  I am kinda of on a roller coster of emontion as well.  Either pissed off or depressed.  I am also bipolar, so that really helps alot.  Any way, thanks again for the vote of encouragement. (I do take Depakote, put it does not seem to be working very well this week).  I think the worst part of this is the lethargy.  I can barely get up.  Doc gave me some providgil, but it does not seem to help for tiredness either.  I'll check up on the receipe.

tim

[athena]

Good morning to all.I hope you all had a good night.Im in over my head today with putting my place back together after being painted.I really want to take a hydro for energy.I wish they weren't here.Please keep me in your thoughts today.I am soooo weak.Day 15,I refuse to screw this up.

pixi