Day 5...especially for those who are scared to quit

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So here it is day 5 and guess what? I feel like a person again. A tired person without a whole lot of energy, but a person at any rate. Yesterday was a huge day for me. I (gasp) left the house, picked my kids up from school and actually felt good getting out of here. I went out last night and had a great time. Sleep wasn't good, but I woke up early and a bit of the cloud has lifted. Was out and about for a few hours and crossed a few "to-do's" off my list. Got put on hold for 45 minutes with a utility company and took out some of my anger on them! It's ok, they deserved it. Now I am taking it easy. Maybe tonight I will catch up on a ton of ignored emails. I know I am not "over this" yet, but I see the light at the end of the tunnel. For those of you just starting out...READ THIS...it has only been 5 days for me and the worst is over I think. I am a functioning person again. I feel good. And I am so damned proud of myself for taking control of this situation before it got worse that I don't have words for it. And if I can do it, so can YOU!

Addict63 · Answer

That's fantastic!!!!!!!! I can ID with you! Day 5 clean was my turning point also. I felt like I had emerged from a nightmare, waking up to everything being all right. That evening I went to an NA meeting and took a surrender chip, as they call it. It was a finality or promise to myself that I never want to go through what I had just gone through again. Determination and willingness, just like you have taperme, frees me from the bondage of my highly addictive drug. Aftercare and communicating with others in the same boat keeps me free.

taperme · Answer

I think I figured it out.....it's the opposite of the Nike slogan. "Just DON'T do it"! Not even once.

LeaAnn807 · Answer

WHOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOO!  Way to go!  See?  We did it!  Now we just have to not ever do it again...somehow!

taperme · Answer

Thanks! And yes...I can't stand calling the utility/telephone people. Especially the phone co. They are the worst. Sort of glad they were there for me to take some anxiety out on yesterday though. Believe me, they deserve it!  That is so funny that Bell Canada calls the machine Emily!

taperme · Answer

I had been on oxy 80s 2 x/day and 10 norco/day for several years. All prescribed for legitimate issues. I decided I wanted off the meds. Dropped the oxy's in december pretty quickly and easily. Then did a very quick taper of the Norco. About 2 1/2 week taper. If I had it to do again (and I promise you I won't ) I would have done cold turkey since by doing it so quickly I was basically in withdrawal for 3+ weeks. Today is day 6 for me and the worst of it is definitely over. Still tired. Still anxious. And honestly I think the biggest reason for that is the lack of sleep. I hope once my sleep gets on track that the rest will follow. But...take the plunge. And think about this....is 4 or 5 REALLY crappy days worth the rest of your life? Because to me, it seems like a fairly small amount of time to pay in order for the rest of my life to be better. Good luck and if you need help let me know.

pharma9 · Answer

Good for you sticking to it .And it will get even better.
Don't you just love talking to utility or telephone people...They always put you on hold or transfer you to another department.
Whenever we call Bell Canada we have to talk to a machine called Emily...I HATE her.

freedom75 · Answer

Thanks for posting that and congrats. I'm taking the plunge tommorow and yes, I'm scared but I know I need to do this for me and for my family. How much and of what were you doing when you quit?