Wow. The only thing I can say is that you seem hell bent on killing yourself. A pill for this, a pill for that, not eating, not working. What's going on with you sir? You know I'm no expert, but I think there is an underlying problem that you are ignoring and not seeking help for. Swallowing any pill you can get your paws on is a symptom of a deeper problem. You need help figuring out what drives you to such self destruction.
i dont do anything at all like work for a living i wanna do productive stuff you wont even believe my age so have all the day to think and do nothing anyhow thanks for the input right now i am just trying to be busy all day i have a college degree but i really dont want to work i know at some point i might have to.You know i am one of those guys who literally go to work and do stuff for there significant other since there is none.Even if i have money what am i to spend on ? lol
thanks for the input
I read your story and all i can say is exactly what you said not to say....You need to get real honest with yourself first and foremost. Then you need to talk honestly with your doctor and tell him/her what is going on. We all know the games to play when our addiction is raging. We are masters at manipulating to get our way. You are on a very dangerous ride right now. Have you thought about some form of aftercare? You are battling alot of demons and until you put them to rest this will continue.