Day nine

[Lainemoss]

I'm nine days out now and I think the physical is subsiding a bit. I posted last night about throwing out all medicines in my cabinet that weren't for my family. None for me. I still feel really good about that. I slept till 5:30 this morning, again. Although I want my sleep to be normal now, I am taking it a day at a time and cherishing what I have. I go to my second meeting today at 11. I'm so excited. I wish it was time to go now. But it's only 8:15 so I've got a bit. I want, no need, to talk to people face to face about this. I need to hear stories and get that hug just for showing up. I need an addict who has been clean for years to walk up to me and say congrats for taking that step. I crave it more than the drug.

[Real180]

Now that's awesome -- and you answered my question that you are doing a program --- I will start this week... Congrats on 9 and keep posting!!

[katmandu516]

I'm with everyone else on this!  So proud of you on day 9, getting out to meetings!!  I was still crying on my couch at 9 days..lol You are rockin' this, Keep going to your meetings, pretty soon you will feel the need to get up and say something!  Totally awesome job!!

[clean_in_ks]

You are WINNING!!!  And I just love reading your posts!!

Your attitude, your honesty, your willingness, your hunger for other's in recovery....you are rockin this.....what a delight you are~

[toothfairie]

Love the positive energy and attitude!  that will take you far!  you will still have ups and downs, but your miracle is right around the corner!!  keep posting and letting us know how you are doing!  

[Lainemoss]

I got this!!! I know I do. I just have to stay out of my own head. This, right now, is amazing to me. This site, with all of you, are amazing to me. I am in awe of my children, of my husband and his love for me. I am in awe of how common this horrible thing is, and that I am not fighting it alone. But, maybe fighting isn't the right word right now. I don't feel like I am fighting, I feel like I am WINNING! I know it's early, but I am so ready for 14 days! Only five more to go! As a step in my recovery, I ordered home drug tests for my husband to give me random tests when he feels unsure of my progress. They weren't that expensive and I think it will help him to feel more confident in my progress. I will do ANYTHING to gain his trust back. It's liberating I itself not to lie, to sneak, to be angry. You all have shown me that I can do this, and do it well.

[selfinduced]

WOW Laine, Your energy is so apparent in your post. I just saw your post on reals thread and it seems you both are wading thru this recovery thing and killing it. For me day nine is when my world started uprighting itself. Getting to day 30 was my immediate goal. After that it was all mental. Stay close to your meetings or support group. I know you've read it countless times, but living clean and NEVER having to be in the chains of addiction is the best feeling ever. Much luck to you.

[ROSYouralright]

You really are doing great! Your attitude is just amazing. I for one LOVE IT!! Meetings will be great for you! Its exactly where you will get the face to face you crave :D