Well got class today and I feel like my head is pretty clear today, I may actually feel like I am there today mentally. The last two Wednesdays I was there physically, but sure not in any other kind of way. I just want to say to anyone out there that are just beginning or are struggling and really want to end the vicious cycle of chasing after a pill. YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!!! It all starts with you. No one else can make you do anything. Shoot if I wanted a pill when I was in my addiction it wouldn't matter I would walk 10 miles uphill to get that thing. Not really but everyone knows what I mean, as in we will work our butt off to get a pill. Let's turn it around and put that much energy into fighting for our sobriety and truly our life!!!!!!! We can do this together. It's not easy, but what is. They say if it comes easy it's not worth it. Fight fight fight fight. We ALL have it in us. All of this I am saying is to encourage others, but also it's almost like I am sitting here typing to myself, because the choice is ours each and every day. Love everyone. Stay strong. Let's defeat this demon and this time chop his head off. Don't just knock him down, but let's kill this son of a gun. I don't know about you, but in am tired of him destroying my life.