Quitting Norco and Anxiety getting in trouble

[needoffthisnorco]

I have used Pain Meds for few years, and got off them one time. Am on them again, have a large beautiful family, successful and 3 children. I need and want to be off them so badly, i'm weaning and then jumping ship in a few days. My biggest fear and I can't sleep thinking about this, is getting red flagged, if I haven't already. I am so nervous, I want to up and move and hide, once clean. My children, health and getting in trouble is why I am stopping. I don't want to deal with this anymore. I have fibro, chronic back, etc. Blah blah. I did start with 1 and ended up with 15 a day and a couple different dr.'s. I am going to stop have all of the thomas recipe ready to go. Should I go to rehab, will telling the pharmacy help me or should I not in case of a case? red flag or jail time. How do you know if you have been flagged. I am so scared. Making myself sick over this. I think once i'm off, how will I cope with being in fear of this?

[Norcodude39]

How many drs have you been seeing and many different scripts have you had? Are you going to the same pharmacy for each script each time or different pharmacys each month? Do you want to continue this lifestyle and are U willing to do whatever it takes to stop?

[ImDONENoMore]

I'm confused by your posts.  Do you want to quit?  Or are you just worried  you're going to get caught?

[needoffthisnorco]

So I haven't quit yet. What am I doing ? I went to pick up script, nice lady said she always pulls a CURES report and looks like I've had the same med in different doses. She said to go to one dr. Not so many. Omg. Scared, but she didn't do anything to my knowledge except refer me to a dr. Scared !

[needoffthisnorco]

Oh and first time took 6 days to feel decent and like music again. Felt great until I caved :( what a loser I am! Omg. I never have taken an Advil to say the least . Ridic!

[needoffthisnorco]

Has anyone worked through this ? Next question ??

[needoffthisnorco]

Thank you both so very much. To answer the first few questions. I was at about 16 yellows. 2 days ago went down to 13. Then today 10. Still sounds a lot but I've had mild bathroom issues, anxiety, rage, edgy , and back pain. I wake up in night with RLS. Bout hylands. hasn't helped. Tummy issues worst . I know I'm withdrawing slowly. My kids are motivators. I feel guilt. I'm not sure about red flag, but this last script I picked up they called to verify . She kept looking at me strange. I had a gut feeling I was in system. Have used 3 or 4 pharmacies in 2 years. Just scared that I stop and get caught . My kids need a mom with feelings and not moodiness. I am tired and don't work out. Nothing. Just how am I going to get next round and frankly do tired of it. I'm jumping ship Friday . I know still gonna b rough. But I'll be out. My count is exactly till Friday around 5 last dose. Its wicked, I agree I should jump now, but must work for 2 days and I know this will put me down for 4 days. So scared. Stomach issues worst and back ache. So it was bearable with clonidine? Can I call to see if the will give ?

[Sonrissa]

At this point I don't think that there is any reason to worry about the Red Flag thing! The anxiety and worrying will make this whole process worse! Try to relax and not to anticipate anything! Continue with your plan, and stick with it step by step! Follow the Thomas Recipe for withdrawal symptoms! Post anytime with questions or if you need support! You can do this, and take control  over your life! Take care!

[overopiates]

Ok so u havent been flagged or caught.I know its hard to do but u r fine on that amd I wouldnt worry about it.I read thia and thought something had happened.U need to not c either of the drs again.Cancel appointments and tell them u wont be back.I would definely suggest rehab.They will give u all the tools u need to quit stay sober and set u up with an aftercare plan which is essential to not relapsing.I jumped from15a day and it sucked big time but I was feeling a lot better after day4.Also because u do have the option of calling or going to see one of the doctors and saying u r quitting.They can prescribe u some things that will help tremendously.Clonidine is a blood pressure med that helps with a lot of the symptoms of opiate w/d.Also a small script of a long acting benzo will help w/that severe anxiety and also help w/sleep.Immodium name brand not generic.I took double the dose it also helps a ton(the name brand helps as it does what opiates do and binds u up and helps with other symptoms).FYI u r in full blown w/d right now and u dnt realize it.When u feel that severe anxiety thats part of the w/d.How much r taking?R u tapering fast?I am gonna be honest  Im surprised u can taper because very few can(its great when u can cause if done slowly and properly helps a lot)but u were dr shopping and abusing big time so will power doesnt seem to be strong(not insulting u I could NEVER taper thats why I did c/t).If u go to rehab they will give u the meds u need so like I said id thats an option please do it.Im curious how much ur taking because i u explain to a dr that u r quitting amd get the meds to help which they will easily give u and drs r usually thrilled.Often if u explain ur abusing them they will make u an efficent taper plan and u can take the meds to help during the process.With a proper taper u shouldnt be going through the w/d u r.I would say if u r under more than a handful a day just get those meds and jump.U will feel bad for a few days worst being day3-4then by day5its really eases up.this is what I did and what I took from a large dose I went c/t.Clonidine,a benzo for the1st week or two in the smallest amount u need to b a little more comfortable,excedrin for headaches,otc sleep aid&immodium.I quit before this taking less but  couldnt the last time the combo of the meds&hot baths made it so much less severe.I could still function(not great but ok)..Please keep posting and tell us what ur plan is.ask as many questions as u need to.were here for u.Please realize ur anxiety is through the roof&its totally normal but u r being smart and quittong before u get in trouble.this is the best thong for not getting n trouble so dnt worry about that and NO DNT CALL PHARMACISTS about this.that WILL get u n trouble.Dnt tell drs no way.thats asking for trouble.U could call ur pharmacy and tell them u no longer want them to fill opiates for u.A lot of us did this n the begining so even if were tempted we cant do anything about it.Sounds scary but it really helps

[needoffthisnorco]

Yes, i'm afraid of what can happen to me once I am good and clean. Maybe because i'm weaning these thoughts are occuring now. I am terrified that getting al these scripts from Dr.'s will catch up to me and I will be red flagged. That is my biggest fear, so much so, i can't sleep. I am prepared for withdrawls. Shouldn't be as bad as first time, becaue i'm actually weaning this time. Last time was off of 20 cold turkey, HORRIBLE. But my brain told me I need 1. and that has turned into this again, 1 year later. I am scared that in the future, once i'm clean, this will all catch up to me. And I am scared of what will happen to my family, carerr, home, etc. Sorry for typos. Thank you for responding. Very kind.

[Sonrissa]

Hi and welcome!  Why are you concerned about getting red flagged? Have you done something? Or, are you talking about red flagging yourself? Sorry, I am a bit confused! If you are weaning or tapering off and have all the Thomas Recipe items, it sounds like you are ready to go!

Best of luck. Keep yourself hydrated, down the Immodium, and keep yourself moving about! Keep posting with any questions, or if you need some support! Take care!!

[needoffthisnorco]

Hello, anyone? I need help in so many ways. OMG.
Scared out of my mind.  Please see post above. i'm weaning. but what if i get caught in future.