Detoxing, dealing with setbacks...........help!!!!

[OxyDout]

Hey guys, I had a minor set back over the holidays, I took 40mg of oxycontin last night, the good news is, I felt awful(mentally), I was so upset at myself.  I was with my girlfriend and I was so mad that I I felt like I needed to get fu... up to be there.  I completely regret it, It was just another sign that I know I'm done with these things.  It was weird, it was like I was an addict all over again, like I had to depend on going to get some before I saw her, WHAT AN AWFUL FEELING, I can't tell you guys how incredible it is to be able to do what you want whenever you want  Anyway, I have restless leg today and I have to work, but I can make it through, I know I can, my question is, how long do you think I will feel this restless leg?? I don't know if I have any other wd symptoms cause I have bronchitis and an ear infection so I'm very out of it. Well, I have to get going, but this was just a minor setback, I don't want anyone to think that I"m going back to using because I"m not!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hope all is well, keep your head up!!

gwh

[Telby]

I can't seem to get on the other board so I was just re-reading through the posts and there to my surprise was your sweet message.  I can't tell you what a delight it was to see it, definatly the nicest thing that anyone has said to me today. I have been feeling very discouraged and hopeless as I blew another detox attempt and now Im back to square one or minus one really.  This oxycontin problem has truely gotten the best of me as no other problem has, I am usually optimistic regardless of what crisis befalls me but this thing has gotten the best of me.  So thank you for your kind words, and remember knowing what to do and doing it are sometimes many miles apart.  They say we get what we need and tonight, I needed you and poof there you were.  Thank you, love, Telby

[littleguy]

I wanted to tell you, that there are several things that you wrote recently that I have printed out and hung on my bulletin board, so that I could read and re-read them every time I want to use.  Your words have helped me gather the courage to do the right thing.  

littleguy

[Captain Codone]

Hello everyone, this is my first time on this site, and I am glad there are places like this for people to go, and be with people that don't judge them. My first comment is to Kerryfine. there is always temptation, it is how you deal with it that makes or breaks the situation. It sounds like your making it; good luck, and best wishes. My next comment is for the skipper. Man do I feel your pain. The lack of not being able to sleep is what kills me. I have the RLS or (Restless Legs Syndrom), and boy is it fun. When I try to go to bed, my legs start to do the cha-cha, and the Waltz, all by themselves. I never noticed my legs so much, until I started this de-tox. I am on my forth day; cold turkey, which is the only way I can do it. I cant taper down; its all or nothing. Usually all!!! To your answer about the sleeping, it is different for each individual person, based on how much you were taking, body fat, etc.... But know one thing, it doesnt last forever, and that is all that matters. It does go away and the sun does shine again. I wish all who read this a blessed new year; drug free I hope.

[skipper]

Hey!:
forgot to tell ya, i shaved for the first time since my last dose
of oxy. even without the beard i think i could send a shiver up
the spine of some god-fearing,pig's ass kisser of a paramacist out
there this morning...anybody up for fun at the poision shop today!

need all of you so
keep an angel on your shoulder
kip

[skipper]

hey people:
day-5 oxy-free!        painlevel +7
slept some last night without taking anything. My wife had gotten
some kavva kavva and valerin root to try out last night. fell a-
sleep before taking any! the bard part is i awoke at 2;30 am. have
been up and banging around the house waiting for daylight so i can
walk dog. i'm sure glad wife is out of town as she can't sleep when
i can't. anyhow i tried the valerian and kava kava. not much has
happened. so...drank 3 cups real strong coffee. why not i go see my regular md today...between day 5 stuff and all that coffee i should have my bp up enough to keep him entertained-any how this detox stuff isn't his business at this point. HEY WITCHY WOMAN when does sleep return to normal? i seem to remember you having this problem last summer.
can't (or shouldn't) take HTP5 as i take wellbutron. the first 3
nights i've been goofballing myself asleep with klonipam. kloniam
is supposed to be the safest of the benzo's...i'm not so sure of
that...the sooner a person shakes off the benzo's the beter.

know what? i don't think i've wished everyone a year of painless
growth, or at least growth and movement...clean or on the nod...
eyes bright or cancelled out like some old street peddler selling
brooms, talking honest or talking faster than an md...
best of the year and
keep an angel on your shoulder
kip

[Telby]

Amazing how I get what I need.  I was just thinking that I post too much.  I'm not fishing for a compliment but I wonder if I'm not on the boards too much.  I wonder if I sound like "little ms knowitall"   I just really love the process of give and take and after not communicating with anyone for so long it feels really good to have something to say and to feel what others are saying. I guess I'm still pretty insecure because I worry alot that I have said something badly or that I put myself in everybody's face too much.  Anyway, that was where my head was at and then I see this really sweet post from Skipper (truely my idol) and I again felt that great conection.  So I POSTED AGAIN! Skipper, thank you for always knowing just the right thing to say. love, Telby