Detoxing from Oxycontin

[OxyDout]

Hello Everyone,

Today is my first "real" day of detoxing, I refuse to give up this time, I'm much stronger mentally now then I ever have been before.  I have been taking about 80-120 mg of oxycontin a day for the last year or so.  Today, I took 20 mg, 10 at a time.  I don't plan on taking any more today, and I will continue to do this for the next 2 or 3 days in hope that it will help me through this, what do yo uthink?  Does anyone have any advice.  You can also just write to give me support, I NEED IT.  Thank you all so much for all that you have done, this forum is my best friend right now.  Thanks again,

GWH

[OxyDout]

Thank you so much Telby, you are such an inspiration to me!! I"m gonna try to keep things under control, I took about 30 mg this morning, I don't plan on taking anything else today, so hopefully it works, I think I will do the same tomorrow and maybe the next day, depends on how i feel, but then I will go down to 10-15mg the last day and I will hopefully be done!!!! I hope this works.  The weekends are always tough, you know?? but I will just have to stay busy.  I can't tell you how much your posts have meant to me!!

Lea, I didn't see that 48 hours, however, my dealer and other friends take up to 480mg a day, about 5 80's a day.  I have seen some people snort up to 160mg at once, its very scary.  I thank god I haven't done that and that I hopefully never will.  Well, i'm at work, gotta go, but I will be sure to check back in.  Thanks again everyone, TELBY!! I really appreciate it, I won't let myself down and I won't let you down.  

Keep an angel on your shoulder

GWH

[OxyDout]

well, I have made i through today with taking around 40mg, 20mg in the morning, and 20mg in the midafternoon, around 1:30 or so, but I have taken nothing more, and I don't plan to, I feel so great, I'm really starting to understand how much better off I will be.  I hope I can stick this out, i never want to go through this again.  For anyone that is reading this and is having trouble stopping, just think about this for a second.  

Everyone around including yourself and your other friends that abuse narcotics all know it needs to stop............You especially know it needs to stop but you always say "next time"  well I got news for you, there is always going to be a next time to take something, but there won't always be a next time to stop.  Just think about how bad withdrawal is, do you really want to have to go bouncing back and forth through withdrawal all your life?!?!  Thats what I thought, so really give it a hard thought and give it that extra effort.  I know its hard TRUST ME, as a matter of fact I watched the movie 28 days the other day and  a quote stuck out in my head.  It was when the head counselor said, "if they had any idea how wrong it felt to be sober, they would never even think of asking us to quit"  how is that for a great description of how we feel.......  Its awful, it really is and I know that if I can somehow make it through this, or atleast make it this far, then all of you can do the same.  Thats it for my motivational speech.  I hope all of you are well and that I hear from you soon.  Have a great night and keep the posts coming.  

GWH

[J.B. to Brian and Vicky]

I watched 48 Hours last night about oxy contin.  That young man was banging $300 per day IV. Whoa! Luckily, I've never had oxy contin. I am on MS Contin, presently. It can be abused as well...hell, anything out there can be abused. As for us addicts, we love that "feeling" and never want it to stop... until it destroys everything good in us. Non-addicts have a very difficult time understanding how we operate and tend to fear us. We are very threatening, indeed, and many people would love it if we all just died. It's pretty sad, isn't it?

J.B.

[goldie]

its way too easy to be hard on yourself after hearing all this stuff about oxycontin and the evil it is.  Frankly, while I know for a fact I am addicted to it, and was addicted to mscontin, and duragesic, and percocet, and on and on and on, I need it for pain. I do not abuse it often, I used to.  I got scared and my prescription for 120 of the 80mg tabs would last 10 days or less instead of 30 days and it scared me.  I had saved a stash of mscontin to tide me over the other 20 days until I saw the dr or I would make up some excuse about (and go in early) that I'm leaving on vacation, or pills got lost, or wife threw them out, or somthing.  Obviously that wouldn't work but once every 6 months or so, my point is this:  If you need them, take them.  Don't beat yourself or let anyone else like pharmacists, family members or anyone else.  If you abuse them like I used to, then you need to be straight with the dr so that he/she can either switch you or give you a few days at a time and require you to go in every few days for a new script.  I'm really glad that I found this forum, I've been reading it for a while and learn alot from you guys.  Hang in there all of you and if I can help you, let me know.  I'd like to find those herbal recipes too by the way.

[OxyDout]

You are awesome, thank you so much for showing how much you care.  These last few days have been hell.  I hate it.  Its funny cause when you are taking OC's you know you need to get off and you tell yourself, I'm gonna do it, but then, once your off, all bets are off and you can't stand it.  These last couple of days have been so horrifying, the physical pain, and the mental.  Everytime I come close to staying away, I think about how much I want to just take one pill, and how it won't be a big deal, that I can start tomorrow.  The thing is, there is always a reason why I want to be on them.  I took a total of 40 mg this morning, 20 and 20 and I promised myself I wouldn't take anymore, but I think I might take another 10 or 20, just enough to let me sleep but not get the same feeling.  ITS SO HARD TELBY!!!  I have 3 40's sitting in front of me, but they have to last, if they don't then I'm in trouble.  You want to hear something funny, well, not really, but I even have my dealer checking in on me to see how I"m doing.  He is the one who is trying to help me.  He tried to get me methadone but couldn't do it.  He got me some last time and it helped me out so much!!! but I was too stupid to realize that I should have stopped then.  In anycase, my point is.  Your always going to have a reason to keep taking them, I guess we need to see the future and just trust and know that it will be much better on the other side.   Ok, I hope your doing well, trust me, I'm in no better position then you.  I can't tell you how much i appreciate you being here for me, your the best, I wish i could give you a hug.  In anycase, where do you live (state only) don't need details, and if you don't mind me asking, how old are you? I'm just trying to get some type of image, sometimes it helps things out, but you don't have to tell me if you don't want to.  THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!

[Telby]

I just had another thought,  maybe you could help both of us by writting what these past days have been like for you.  Don't worry about scarring me, i have been in and out of withdrawl like a revolving door so I know.  But I would like to hear your withdrawl experience - not just for selfish reasons but it will show you how far you have come.  Just a thought. Telby