Detoxing from Oxycontin

[OxyDout]

Hello Everyone,

Today is my first "real" day of detoxing, I refuse to give up this time, I'm much stronger mentally now then I ever have been before.  I have been taking about 80-120 mg of oxycontin a day for the last year or so.  Today, I took 20 mg, 10 at a time.  I don't plan on taking any more today, and I will continue to do this for the next 2 or 3 days in hope that it will help me through this, what do yo uthink?  Does anyone have any advice.  You can also just write to give me support, I NEED IT.  Thank you all so much for all that you have done, this forum is my best friend right now.  Thanks again,

GWH

[susanlea]

did anyone watch 48 hours tonight?  Very scary, all about Oxycontin addiction.  They showed a young man who had a 240mg aday habit who went into the rapid detox clinic in California, The Wasserman detox.  Anyway he seems to be doing great 2 months later. He will be on Naltrex?  Not sure what the name is, Wiz, JB or Thomas would know.  Anyway if you can to see this, it's really informative.   Wishing you all love and my prayers.  Susanlea

[OxyDout]

Hey guys, thank you so much for everything.  Two days ago I had 120mg of oxycontin, yesterday I had about 80, maybe a little less and today I had about 50 mg.  so im slowly getting there.  Tomorrow, I'm gonna take about 30 mg and maybe the same thing the day after depending how bad I feel.  I don't know, Ill figure it out, the hard part is just following through, you know?  Anyway, thanks again for posting so often, i really do appreciate it.  i will keep you all posted.  good luck to all of you and I hope all is well.  

GWH

[Telby]

So glad WW jumped on board for you.  She is very smart and dedicated to helping people on this forum and another one.  Just one of the incredible people on line who have found peace on the other side.  It is so difficult to be open and honest about addiction and this is a great way to conect with other people and help ourselves at the same time.  I get very discouraged with myself when I try and fail, try and fail - it is tempting to turn off my computer and not share my disasters.  Then I remember that all things come for a reason and the fact that this format has been so helpful for me to the point that I think about and worry about the people on it means I must see it through.  I believe in miracles although the OC's have blocked my spiritual vision I still know the light is there even if I can't see it.  So GWH, you are part of my miracle and I will believe we have found each other and the others on line for a reason.  Faith in what I can't see with my eyes, that helps me to make it day to day and to not give up.  love, Telby

[Telby]

I rushed back to see if you had checked in, so glad you did.  I am in Ohio and I'm in my mid forties.  I think that is why I got in trouble with these so hard and so fast, my age.  The monkey caught up with me and it is definatly attached to my back.  I didn't do anything yesterday but did three 40's the day before. Tonight I did a little bit of an 80, I am trying to lower my tolerance so I can somehow ease out of this.  It has really been awful as you know, I spend more money then I have - get ripped off by jerks - and find daily living very hard.  Not that I am suicidal but just everything takes me forever to do and often I end up doing nothing.  Your dealer sounds like he has a good heart and that is important, he could be a big help or a big problem.  I find often people have radar, when I finally feel like I see the light at the end of the tunnel my phone will ring with an offer I can't refuse.  Stop beating yourself up that you started up again, it is a process not an event.  It helps me to remember even though I am down I am not as low as I have been.  Just being able to write freely on line allows me come outside of my issolation and depression.  It is good for me to know that you are out there and that you understand what I am going through. I can and will do all that I can for you, sort of do as I say not as I do.  We will get there, I have high hopes for us. love - Telby

[Witchywoman]

Skipper my friend, it is so good to see you posting again. I've missed your presence, a lot.  I know I've said it before, but I've got to say it again...you are a hell of a wonderful human being, you've helped me more than you will ever know, and I just think you deserve to know that.  

GWH, please feel free to write all you can about how the taper is going..it is so hard to taper!! I never was able to manage it. Had to do the cold turkey thing.  Oxy is harder to withdraw from I hear...my thoughts are with you, and I just want you to know that at least you've got people thinking of you, and willing to support you through this.

lots of love,
WW

[OxyDout]

Hey guys, I hope someone reads this......... You all have been incredible, I think If I can break away and not take anything tonight, then I can DO THIS, the thing is, I'm really craving mentally and physically, I NEED HELP TONIGHT, I'm going to see my girlfriend at work, but I'm gonna need some support when I get back, so the first thing I'm gonna do is check in.  I hope someone is around, if not, I still will be thinking of you all.  Thank you SOOOO much.  

Wish me luck,

GWH