Detoxing from Oxycontin

[OxyDout]

Hello Everyone,

Today is my first "real" day of detoxing, I refuse to give up this time, I'm much stronger mentally now then I ever have been before.  I have been taking about 80-120 mg of oxycontin a day for the last year or so.  Today, I took 20 mg, 10 at a time.  I don't plan on taking any more today, and I will continue to do this for the next 2 or 3 days in hope that it will help me through this, what do yo uthink?  Does anyone have any advice.  You can also just write to give me support, I NEED IT.  Thank you all so much for all that you have done, this forum is my best friend right now.  Thanks again,

GWH

[J.B. to Brian and Vicky]

It's great to see that you all are still dispensing such heartfelt advise here! I feel like I've gone full cycle with this addiction process in my life and am a hypocrite for even posting here. Ironically, I was addicted to morphine and heroine years ago, got clean for many years and am now back on the stuff legitimately. It's like having an angel on one shoulder and the devil on the other most of the time...and always arguing as my head swings back and forth between the two. Do we really get to pay for all of our indiscetions in this life? It surely feels that way to me!

I just wanted to say hello to all my friends here.  You all sound like you are going to be just fine! Like Skipper says, it's all doable. Skip, if nothing else, I will remember that saying of yours!

Take care, my friends, and Merry Christmas!

J.B.

[Telby]

GWH, don't you dare give up on yourself and life.  I had a bad day yesterday, and I woke up really ashamed of myself.  I binged on 3 40mg. oxycontins and had to be around people. I think I must of looked impaired and to top it off I couldn't wake up to get my daughter to school.  So today is another DAY ONE, I will keep trying and so must you.  There is no happy ending other then getting to the other side of this and being drug free - at least for me.  I refuse to throw in the towel and believe I can't do this.  Skipper is right - it is doable.  I always think of my sick Junkie brothers and sisters who are living outside or as Skipper said, in jail with no choice but to come off of drugs. Your brother see's who you really are so don't listen to yourself for awhile, listen to him.  Keep in touch, Telby

[SHOTSY]

Hey, I understand how you feel. I initially came to this forum to do research on my father. He indavertently went into withdrawal which landed him in the hospital. None of us knew what was happening until the dr. figured it out. Much to our surprise how potent some of these meds can be. On trying to assimulate how this happened to him. I found I also maybe suffering from similar circumstances. Although to a much lessor degree. I have been taking a small amount of pain killer for years due to pain, somewhat. I would constanly have these bouts of not feeling well. Running around checking my temp, thinking I had a bug. Never really comfirming that. And this has been happening for years. Finally from the information gleened from here. I found my body had developed an addiction or habitation. See I thought because I took so little I wasn't addicted. I think some where in my gut I knew. But the forum made me realize that the way I'd been feeling was a physical withdrawal. Now I've gone down half of what I was taking when I started here. Ever so slowly for me. I'm sort of a wimp although I try to put up a good front. I really have no excuse to still be where I am. For I've found there are others that have a very real battle compared to me. But my heart has just been totally taken over for them. And I want to let them all know how much I care for them. Big or small I beleive it is tough.And the most I can do is offer comfort. So that's my extension to you- is to offer my support and caring. ANd I will do my best to give you the postive energy we all need.  Truly,Shoty

[skipper]

GWH:
sorry things didn't go well yesterday. try to remember that an
addict doesn't go in a straight line from point a to point b
(hey shlub i stole that from you!). Also tell yourself that the
only thing new in the world of drugs is what happens when you get
off them!

keep an angel on yur shoulder
kip

[Telby]

Skipper, I am very inspired by your posting. I so badly want to see my detox all the way through from oxy's.  I get painfully to about day three and I cave in.  Of course this leaves me discouraged and I think the sickness is harder the next time.  I did four 40's today which I am very ashamed of.  It is alot for me when I am trying to lower my tolerance and it made me feel like ****.  I have been taking Thomas's detox and would really like tomorrow to be day one for real. How do you manage your detox?  I am very impressed.  I am so sick of it I do want out but the drug has me feeling so vulnerable and depressed that I never seem to make it. Your thoughts will be most welcome. love, Telby

[OxyDout]

Hi guys, yesterday didn't go as well as planned, I have no more Oxycontin and I'm looking at just ending it, I get more and more depressed and upset everytime I fail, my brother has helped me today by pretty much being with me all the time, he refuses to let me give in and I'm feeling the same way, so please, if you read this, write me back and let me know how good it will be once  this is over, thanks again for all the support, I will keep you posted.  Good luck to all of you.  

GWH