Disappointed

[gg636]

I have tapered for a week now.  However, I feel disappointed and ashamed that I have not taperd more.  Today is day 7.  I am going to start tapering down again this week.. I feel like my body is not stablized- I still have withdrawal 's... But I need to do it anyway.

[gg636]

Thanks Cindy

I will stay close even after I slay this demon.

xoxo

[cinders64]

I am in Australia so it was panadiene forte, 30mg of codiene plus panadol.  I was on it for 8 years.  It has now been 8 days since I cut out my last dose. I took the last dose on a sunday and Monday felt like so much weight had been lifted off my shoulders, the relief of knowing I didn't have to plan my day around where I was getting my tablets from was incrediable.  It was also so scary to think thats it, no more pain killers, no more feeling the europhia from the tablets and having to deal with just dealing with stuff again instead of hiding behind the tablets.

Tapering was probably the hardest thing I have ever had to do, but the reward of knowing you have a goal and there is a end eventually gives you hope.  I think it also allowed my body and mind to adjust to not having the codiene.  

Stay in touch with this forum, and stay strong.  You can beat this with the support of your family and a belief in yourself.

Cindy

[gg636]

Thanks Cindy,

That is encourageing.  What kind of med were you on??

[cinders64]

I tapered down from 384mg to 15mg of codiene then stopped, but it took me 2 months.  You need to take it slowly and be patient with yourself and if it takes longer than you thought then thats ok too.  

I must admit there were days when I just didn't want to do it, I just wanted to give up but I kept on thinking I don't want to have to do this again and that kept me going.  

Hang in there, as long as you don't go up in use then you are winning.

Cindy

[gg636]

Cool!  Good Job on 28 days! How are you doing ?

[Kell2184]

I am at 28 days and the ringing is gone! I am not sure when it stopped but I believe it was about a week ago or so.

[all_alone1]

Thanks gg

[gg636]

@Kell184 Did the ringing ever go away??

[gg636]

Awesome~ I will never taper up.. You are succes story keep up the good work and I will jump off.  My goal is real soon!  

[Kell2184]

Oh and I had the weird ear ringing too. I wonder what causes that?

[Kell2184]

You gotta keep the faith tapering takes a lot of mental will power and I commend you for being able to do it as I was not successful when I tried. Anyways congrats for you keep going!!

[all_alone1]

For some time now...this last time about 2 months now....I have. Had to adjust here and there...but never went up...always down or stayed put

[gg636]

Wow~ How long have you taperd? You should be ready to jump soon... Please keep me posted!  (((((((HUGS)))))))

[all_alone1]

Yes it is 1/2....and up until 2 days ago I couldn't get past 15....so I don't know if it is the tea or what....and no real bad WDs

[dominosarah]

To be successful with tapering you have to do it slow and be patient.  You have a goal to be off by the 5th so just stay on track.  You can do this!

[gg636]

Wow That is relly good down to 5mg a day! That is only 1/2 a pill correct?

[all_alone1]

I am feeling a little right now a slight headache and trips to the restroom today...but I think because for the last 2 days I have taken way less...I don't know if the tea is helping with the anxiety or what but I have only taken 5mg of my 15

[gg636]

Thank you Brian for the encouraging post.  I will stay on track.. My plan is taper off and then Feb 5th jump completly off.  Who know it may be sooner.  :0

[gg636]

Im trying to feel good I just would like to futher along....Angie do you still feel the detox sytems?

[bmdad]

In my opinion the best way to taper is to have a schedule and plan place. Get a notebook and put that plan on paper. As you know, so much of this is mental so we tend to get upset with ourself quite easily. When I tapered in the past I was always wanting to go faster and would get upset and discouraged if I felt like I wasn't going fast enough. If you get a set plan in place and stick to it you won't have to play that guessing game on whether or not you're going fast enough. If one day you end up taking one less, that's great. What really matters is that you never take more than what your planned called for.

Another thing you want in that plan is a final quit day. That quit day depends on how long your taper plan is and how low you plan on going. A taper plan has more of a chance of failing if you go on the "fly".

If you feel you have to adjust your taper plan, no big deal. If you kept notes each day on when you took one less than what the plan called for and how you have felt each day it will be easier to revise the plan. If you do revise your plan be sure to draw up a new one in your notebook.

Tapering is tough and especially mentally. We have to be completely honest with ourselves when tapering and we can't get down in the dumps if we don't feel it is moving along as good as what we think it should be. Tapering can be a long process and you have to be patient. As long as you aren't taking more than what your taper calls for then don't worry.

I'm not urging you by any means but many people end up going cold turkey because they feel like their body is never stabilized throughout a taper. You're always going to feel some withdrawals. They just won't be as intense as cold turkey. When deciding whether to taper or go ct you have to ask yourself if you'd rather feel uncomfortable for a month or two or feel horrible for about a week. It's a personal choice. It's kind of like having to do some sort of job or task that you hate doing. Some people hate a task so much they will just do a little bit each day over the course of a week. Then there are others who'd assume hit it hard and get it all done right away so they don't have to worry about. Once again, it's a personal choice.

Just keep pushing forward and don't beat yourself up. We are very vulnerable during all of this so you have to do your best to stay positive.

Best of luck to you. We are here for you if you need anything.




Brian

[all_alone1]

Please don't feel ashamed.....you have come this far....and that is an acomplishment...you whill get to your goal

[gg636]

My ear!! gosh they want quit ringing