Do addicts have feelings?

[Utility]

This may sound like a stupid question but do addicts have feelings of love and do they hurt after a breakup? My now ex was a 3-month heroin addict and after a brief rehab stint, she got cleaned but I discovered that while she dropped the needle and her heroin habit, she is back on another opiate (pills that she gets from a dealer that works at a drugstore). She uses the prescribed suboxone to temporarily stave off the withdrawals. I didn't end the relationship because of her drug use specifically but because she was adamant that she stopped while I have valid proofs that she still get pills from this guy.
As I am madly in love with her, I still secretely hope that someday, she'll clean up her acts, admit to everything and come back in my arms. I have reluctantly turned the page but her once a day texts to reminding me how much she loves me and misses me are making the situation alot tougher to discard and forget. (but I am hanging tough as I don't want to enable her). I have learned that the drug addict only has one love and it's the drug he/she is on. Does that mean her love you/miss you comments are another lie? While the drug may be one of her primary priorities, I know for a fact she is hoplessly in love with her baby daughter. Could anyone provide some insight on an addict's feelings for others. I do understand that I may never be back with this girl unless she magically changes but I am interested in knowing if there is any hope in the future.

[Utility]

Well, friends. This story is getting more interesting and sadder by the day. I just learned that she was arrested yesterday and immediately checked the online crime registry and she was charged with 4 offenses. Possesion of dangerous substance with intent to distribute being the most severe. Another one is possession of drug paraphenelia. You wonder why such an innocent 21-year old resort to this but we all know the answer. Now I know why she was pleading with me to be with her and why she urged me not to drop her when she needed me most. According to the website, they already set a court date for July, does that mean, she was just given a court date and let go or will they keep her till the court date? (If they give her bail, I doubt someone bailed her out).
I spent the past hour just sobbing but I am relieved as this may be (a big maybe) her way out of that lifestyle. But I am disappointed that I didn't receive a phone call. She probably thinks I wouldn't find out.

[LeaAnn807]

Even if she stops drugs, she won't need to be focusing on a relationship.  She will need to focus on detox and aftercare in order to live clean.  So rather she is on drugs or not, you need to move on and try to go on with your life!

Best Wishes to you!

TH

[cleanmom]

Yes, of all these comments I believe Sara is right. It sounds as if you have an addiction as well. You both need some help for yourselves to get well again. Get to an al-anon meeting or even see a therapist. Until each of you battle your demons neither one of you will be good for the other.

Best of luck to you.

Jacky

[ang_811]

I agree with dominosarah

[dominosarah]

You need to let go of her and move on with your life.  She is your drug~~~~~sara

[ang_811]

Hi I remember ur story very well my heart wen out to u and ur situation... U need to take car of urself...she isn't going to get better until she wants to or until she hits rck bottom.... Ur doing the right thing by staying away for now... Just keep staying strong!!!! If u need someone to talk to Or just to vent u have this site... U will be surprised how much it helps....and how better u will feel afterwards... Good luck with everything...