Don't know what to do??? Confused!!

[ukwildcat]

I have been clean since Dec 6th  but I am having alot of problems right now.  My wife and I have been arguing alot, I can't at night, and I'm in alot of pain.  The docs gave me an antidpressant and I when I do take them I take mor eof them and it is too late and  I can't wake up in the morning.  I am seeing a new pain specialist tommorrow  and have not seen one since I have been off.  Sometimes I feel like I should just go back on the painkillers because I was alot happier then.  I can't deal with be normal I guess.  What should I do I am very confused and for the first time in about 10 yrs I broke down and cried.  Please help!

[ukwildcat]

Thanks for your support and opinions.  I really don't know what I feel right now.  I just need to get off my a**  and do something.  Iam trying to go back to the gym but I strained something in the side of my back a few days ago and it still hurts, I think I over didit last time because I didn't want to look like a wuss at the gym.   I think talking to you all is better than a counselor and its free..lol.  But I just don't know, I think my wife is just getting a little fed up because she stays home with 2 kids and I'm working all day.  I'm getting out on Fri,with wife (with family not bad friends) and seeing my brother-in-laws band play.  I don't know if any of you live near Northern KY but they are playing at a place called Simmers.  They are a really good band.  Anyways thanks and so far today has been a liitle better.  I am seeing a doc at 4:30 for the first time about my back since I have been off.  But I will not ask for any pain meds I will tell him I just got off.

  Sorry I am rambling but later i will report back tonight.

[Jacqui805]

Listen, I also was on prescribed med for severe pain.  I'm talkin' sufferin' pain, not just pain.  I'm withdrawing because I just switched insurance companies and need to find a new doc.  I have a serious health problem that has gone on undiagnosed largely due to being judged for having been put on the pain meds!.  I knew that it would be hard to find a new doc while on meds because I would have to assume they'd continue the script and would have to find a way to get scripts until I found the new doc.  The point is, you mentioned you have pain (physical), that adds to the dilemna here and I can relate.  I'm going through pain from withdrawing, but I now have the severe pain that I took the meds for as well.  It's unacceptable for someone to live in pain, and largely unneccessary.  Since you have a doc, continue until you find what you need.  If however, you find you are taking meds just because of the emotional pain, that's a different story, as you well know.  Antidepressants are often prescribed when you have pain not because of depression necessarily, but for the FACT that some classifications of them have been found to treat chronic pain.  So, ask yourself the reason the doc prescribed them in the first place.  If it's a trycyclic antidep., that's most likely why.  If it's not the reason, and it's for dep and it's not working,...they only tend to help most when the dep is endogenous (from inside without a reason), not exogenous (because of a circumstance).  For that, it's usually best to try to resolve, or cope with the situation. ..and talk to someone.

[dove3053]

I know how hard it is to get off pills and have other pressures. Fighting with a spouse is hard enough. Being clean since Dec 6 is great. Taking pills does not solve the problems of life. I'm sorry your in pain. I think crying is a good thing. God made us so we could do it so I believe we should do it when needed.

Dove

[StumblingSober]

i have been dealing with alot of the same things u mentioned...tonight my fiance' started reeming me out for something i had no control over. its like i am so busy trying to make everything and everyone alright i feel neglected and unapprechiated.(but thats not the point, i am starting to just ramble now...trying to vent.)

i just feel overwhelmed and the psych meds i am suposed to take are gone and don't help anyways. i am not a big crybaby...but tonight i just broke down and cried until i did not have a tear left. i have been on and off some type of pill or drug my entire life. it has consumed me for the most part. it seems easier to take a pill...but i know deep down that it only starts this process all over again...i am on day 49 and that is after relapsing 2 months after i achieved 1 year. i have pain...emotional, physical, and many days spiritual and it helps me to know that i am not alone...so thank you for posting this...thanx being here just to listen to me try and make sense of the choas for myself. we can survive..these are only fleeting thoughts. every time we defeat them they loose that much power!

take care

[avisg]

you dont need a psych you need a counselor ,you are right psych most prescribe meds.
Get into someone to talk to ,it will help :)

[ukwildcat]

I don't know what to do, I just want to be happy again.  I have been to a psych twice and they just push pills too.

[avisg]

It really sounds like you need some counseling ,to deal with your addiction and other problems ,taking a pill will not take care of your problems it just shoves them under the rug so they can fester and get much worse before you deal with them.You have almost 60 days clean .it would be a shame for you to use again now , so do what you can to make it threw this :)
avis