How are you doing now? I have no experience with diazepam, but I too am an addict and have been one for 15 years.
The only thing that I can tell you is worrying and stressing over detox is worse than the process itself. Really. I did the same; I focused on going into withdrawal. The worry, anxiety, panic, fear, sleepless nights - what a waste of time. When I did start the detox it was hell, only lasted for a few days, but really not as bad as my imagination had made it. That is just part of the addict's mind defending the use; it doesn't want to give up the meds.
I'm pushing 9 months clean and I can promise you, life is wonderful without meds. Keep posting.
Thanks for your helpful post. It is much appreciated
You are not Bad! I just finished detoxing of benzo's also. My psych gave me Vistaril, an antihistamine to help with the withdrawals. No nausea or vomiting, made me sleepy. Also was Given Lunesta, a sleeping pill, 1/2 pill as needed at sleep. It's not pain free but it's do-able. Got great info and support from this wonderful site.