Well Guys you will be happy to know I said Eff you to the Suboxone Idea, I already went down that route and now that I am down to 40mg, I am just going to stick with the taper and do what ever it takes to get my life back, things are getting better now iI am actually going out with my friends again and my personality is starting to be a little better and I am not such a hermit but I have a long ways to go and I need to stick to my support system and battle everyday to keep those addictive thoughts out of my damn brain. But It feels good, life is good, thanks guys peace