Drink and weed

[stilltrying1965]

I'm using  lots of weed and alcohol.im scared that I will lose all respect for myself.And my family will probably disown me for using again.They think weed is the same as coke or heroin.Drugs are drugs to them.Kim is not happy with me she won't go down with me.Kim says she has come to far to lose now.I wish I was as strong as Kim.I need to start going back to my meetings and get some more support from my drug councilor.do .im ruining all the hard work iv done for the last three and a bit years.i know I have to stop drinking and smoking weed NOW......James

[stilltrying1965]

I'm craving a drink so bad iv got the shakes. But iv 16 days sober and will keep fighting.  I never thought something legal could make me feel this bad . But I'll keep the support I got in place. So I can save myself

[dominosarah]

15 days is HUGE!!!  As Lesa said we have been thru alot here and WE will get thru this too~

[10356]

Congratulations on your 15 days James !! I'm Proud of you and relived to read this. We have been thru a lot in our time here you and I. I know you can do this James I know your heart has been broken but not your Spirit.. We were not meant to crumble and die we are here as Warriors.. Let your Spirit shine and your heart heal James.. I send my love, letakos

[VICourageous]

15 days is a BIG Step toward the right direction.

Plz keep working at it, one minute, one hour, just for Today!

We ALL are here for YOU! Very Proud of You!
Cheering you on all the way.
Bless
Vickie

[stilltrying1965]

I no Sara. Iv not had a drink for 15days.I know it's not long but I'm proud of that. Thanks to all you guys James

[dominosarah]

It is time to stand and deal James......No more running from your emotional pain~

[10356]

This post still holds true James.. One day at a time One moment at a time The symptoms will abate. Go to meetings. Please James I do not want to have to read another eulogy of a forum member.. Only You have the Power to stop Please use it.. letakos

[10356]

Sending prayers that you sober up James and start to put your life back together.. Get well James You may not have another chance....

[10356]

Hi James. are you still using the weed and alcohol ? Did you step up meetings ? Have you tried a Grief Support ? I ask these questions because I can not help but to think this is partly a reason for you and Kim no longer being together. You do know only you can stop all of this. The Booze is bad very very bad It will kill you and everything you love very fast especially with emotions that are not dealt with They all come up behind the booze and they do not come out well... I'm worried for you I hope you are worried enough to have done something about this.. warm hugs James You can get back to where you were You know you can.. letakos

[jugglin]

James, you know that anything mind altering is gonna be a problem.  I agree with Sara, Kim is loving herself and loving you for standing her ground.  Go to a meeting my friend.  Call your sponsor.  Life has thrown you many curve balls, so to speak,  Awful, crappy, curve balls. Don't let those curve balls take you back down that dark path.  If you keep doing what you are doing there is no good outcome.
Peace and prayers to you!

[onthefence]

hi James, there is so many problems hat drinking causes for us addicts, the one thing that stands out for me is it is a depressant!, all my life ive been around ppl who drink and then get miserable, and relive there hardest emotional painful times , again and again, its such a hard cycle to break , because alcohol is cunning and baffling, it seems like it will sooth the feeling at first but does just the opposite, and i know for me if i start i hit it hard and i could see my self using whatever is around because after i drink i dont like it so i want to manipulate my feeling to something else and cuz im drunk i dont care about nothing so i do whatever, .
weed just kinda opens the door for me, to alcohol cuz whats a beer w/pout a hit, and so on and so on,
.its all the same alcoholism encompasses all addiction IMO , what reward are we looking for by how we act.I think sometimes its knowing i can get to that sad place by using alcohol, is that the reward?
your right on about the meetings , they help, the thing is i know ppl that dont use or drink but are misareable and certainly arent what i call sober thinking ppl, but they are abstinent.
we all have the ability to grow spiritually, barriers to ones spiritual growth are self centerdness,and a materialistic focus on worldly things.
hang in there bud, im here for u day or night, pm me we can talk over skype or phone if that would help, whatever it takes,.
ive been learning alot from reading this little book , a little at a time called daily reflections , if you cant get one i could send each days little writing in a note, just let me know.
Trev

[Jade59]

James, I have to agree with Sara's tough love.  You know what you're doing is wrong, and will only make things much, much worse.  My heart goes out to you, my Friend.  Please get yourself to either a meeting or see your counselor TODAY.  

Hugs...

[dominosarah]

James, you got a get a grip on life here.  Using is not going to help deal with the emotional pain you are feeling right now.  It is doing the exact opposite.  Your family has every right to be upset with you.  I am proud of kim for standing her ground.  You are strong but right now you choose not to be.  Dont use that as your excuse.  Get yourself back into counseling today.