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[OcdKid227]

     Hi ev1,I was supposed to be in the hospital already but I went yesterday and found the facility lacking in so many ways that I was in no way staying there the night.I am very lucky my sister is a great advocate and got me out of there.Now I am waiting to get into 1 of the top 5 hospitals in the USA.

     My problem is now with the 2 days in between I am starting to get cold feet about going.I have bipolar disorder and I am OCD(DUH)lol.I think I have a perc addiction.I am not sure but I think so.I take 120 5mgs in a week so Im thinking yeah.lol.I know once I go in its going to be a loooong process to get back on my Meds for my mental illnes and to try to figure out a way to deal with my chronic pain(I have diabetic neurapathy)in a better way.I know I have heart,I know I have a brain but maybe I can still go to the wizard for some courage.lol.Any thoughts from you good folks would be greatly appreciated.Thanks.

[sadinmichigan]

Hey there.. Like everyone is saying...The Lion  already found his courage!!! I also agree..alot of places I wouldn't take my dog either.God gave you "instinct" so you gotta listen. i am major OCD and my dr thinks I am polar too. But....I don't know. I am definately ocd. I vacuume about 20 x's a day.(not kidding) and a few other things. I have always been like that. I didn't know there was something wrong...until now LOL. I have taken many different things in the anti-depre arena, but I always get such bad side affects that I always stop. We all got your backs!!! I will pray you find the right place that is up to standards!  And it definately sounds like you need a new DR. You should be able to talk without being judged (if their a good doc) I know that many have told me pain meds can worsen things like depression and bi-polar disorder. Good Luck to you! Hugs  Lisa...I will be praying for you!

[mimi1313]

I have taken Lyrica for atypical neuralgia. It can be addictive but it is specifically for diabetic neuropathy and shingles pain. It really does help with nerve pain. So it might be really good for you.

Finding a new doctor may be a good idea, good luck with that and keep us posted.

[OcdKid227]

Hey bro,thanks for the love.U have no idea man what words like U sent me mean to me right now and Yeah your right I think I do have it within me to do what I have to do and knowing I have brothers and sisters in the struggle who have my back makes me feel like I am going to make it,it won't be easy but I WILL make it!!Thank U My Brother.

[OcdKid227]

Thank U so much for your support.As for Lyrica;I have only used it when given to me by friends and it has helped immensly.I have always been hesitant to ask my Dr for it because I didnt want to rock the apple cart.He was after all feeding my perc addiction.I do take gabapentin which does help some in concert with percs.I am also in the process of looking for a new Dr.,someone I can be honest with and get the help I really need.Thank U once again MiMi.WoW U guys are great!!

[newmanagment]

hey bro, was busy but just got back home. i have left a treatment because of the facilities, and i wouldnt stay in it either. like olyaddict said, there are good places out there,a nd sounds like you are heading in the right direction. you dont need the wizards help man, just dig inside and you ll   find all the courage you need, cuz it in there. if it wasnt you wouldnt be here, or out looking to fix your problem. best of luck n much love...

[mimi1313]

Did you try Lyrica for the diabetic neuropathy?

And you have a lot of courage. What you're doing is not easy. You know you have tons of support on here so stay strong and keep posting.

[OcdKid227]

Thank U so much for the kind words.My prayers are also with You and Your husband.I don't think I am going to need much luck with friends like U guys.

[nurseaddict]

good luck.  my husband is an addict and bipolar.  it is hard...i know...  good luck and my prayers are with you.  

[OcdKid227]

I agree,every person on this forum does have courage.i have tried to read just about every post on here today and for them to open up and share whats going on takes immense courage.I am sorry I am not able to help much right now as I am a bit of a mess.lol.But rest assured I am with U in your struggle and once I am better or at least as good as I am going to get.lol.I will help all of U in anyway I can.

Tox,WoW!!Man that comment made me want to eaze on down the road.lol.Thank U SO much!!U dont have any idea what this kind of encouragement means to someone like me who has basically isolated from the world.THANK U SO MUCH!!!!

[toxictome]

COURAGE???? you've already got courage...you are taking a big step to get the help you deserve..now that takes courage, my friend!!!

I think EVERY persom on this forum is courageous...whether they feel like they are or not!!!    Keep us updated!!!!

[OcdKid227]

Thank U My friend.You backing up my play like this means alot.Yeah to be honest that place yesterday scared the heck out of me and I dont scare easy.Thanks again My friend.

[Olyaddict]

I am here to tell you there is no replacement for GOOD professional help. There are many Md's and facilities out there that I wouldn’t take my neighbor’s dog to, And I hate that dog. I just got back from my Dr's appt today for my 1 week check, and his encouragement and support made me feel twice as good as when I went in. Good for you for sticking up for yourself and making the choice to get help. OlyAddict

[OcdKid227]

Thanks for the comment worried.I am going to follow up my hospital stay with a day program that entails going 5 days a week,6hrs. a day.I have been in it before about 7 yrs ago and OMG it saved my life to be with folks alot like me.U are right about the 1 thing at a time because when I look at the big picture I am like AHHHHHH.lol.Thanks again.

[worried878]

keep looking for the right place and the right people to help you...you will find them...Have you talked with some others who have the bipolar/OCD/similar probs...my daughter is ocd and there are support groups for this...many have addiction problems as well as self medicating is common to escape the mental pain....work on one thing at a time...you will find the help you need

[confused456]

Hi. Glad you are back. Glad to hear youre gonna get into a great hospital and you know it is for the best. You need to do it. Hang in there. I am routing for you!!!