Feeding frenzy!

[bear_necessities]

Hey everyone. I come back from the store yesterday and my wife has her pill bottle laying on top of her purse in plain sight.  I know she didn't do it on purpose, but it's all I've been able to think about since.  It triggered something in my brain and all I want now is a stupid pill. It's not her fault I can't control myself but dang it's hard. Any advice on what to do?

[BearsFan1966]

Do some thing to keep yourself busy! Seeing a pill bottle is the hardest thing for us! I know how you feel and you just need to be strong and keep busy! YOU CAN DO THIS! you have come to far to go back!
Remember this 1 is too many and 100 is never enough!

[ariley13]

The reaction you had was a very normal one. I'm not sure there is an addict out there that wouldn't be triggered by something like this, especially in early recovery. First off, great job on not using. Cravings will come, that is a given. It's how we deal with them that counts. Do you think your wife would be receptive if you talked with her about maybe being a little more careful in the future? I know we have to learn to deal with triggers and stresses, but I'm sure she wants to be respectful and help you in any way that she can. In the future, if you start craving why not go to a NA meeting? And/or post right away on here? It's always good to reach out as much as we can when we are craving. Again, great job. Keep up the fight.

[ROSYouralright]

So normal! I literally have to leave immediately when I see em BC my addict brain is such a liar! Trying to talk me into just one. I hear it gets easier in time tho. Lol. Keep your head up!

[Sonrissa]

Stay strong! Focus on something else, and for Pete's sake, tell the Mrs. To keep her pill bottle out of sight! :)  try getting outside and breathe the rest air!

[bear_necessities]

Thanks guys. All good advice. Like Tupac said "you gotta keep your head".  Meetings start this week by the way.  This is now officially the longest I have been clean in the 4.5 years I have been using. One day at a time....

[bear_necessities]

Keep your head up is what he actually said. Whoops!

[tooter212]

Bear I know what you mean. my brother knew I was in pain and asked me if I wanted a vic. I said no but I could just see me being pain free for a few minutes. He is in bad shape health wise and they are just trying to keep him in less pain. I remembered what was said here, that it wouldn't help me. It would just prolong my healing. (brain) I'm so proudddddddd of you. You ought to be also!!! God Bless

[kyle505]

A couple of questions, and forgive me if you posted this on earlier threads - I officially have no memory.
What is your wife taking? Are the meds from a doctor? Does she know what you're going through? Is she supportive?
What you experienced is very normal, and very dangerous. Knowing that meds are around will only distract you; your brain will kick in and start whispering, like it already has, that "just one won't hurt", and you know that that's BS.
You can't blame your wife; you need to take control of this. Tell her how damaging her casual handling of her meds is, tell her that she needs to keep them out of sight, even hide them. And I stress TELL, especially if she knows what you're trying to accomplish. You take control; don't use this as an excuse. If you relapse because of this it will be no one's fault but your own.
K