Feeling Needy

[pasquisha]

I've been weaning since Saturday. So this is day 6. Felt anxious,  had cold sweats, shaky, insomnia... The worst of it was the first 3 days. It has now been 30 hours since I have taken anything,  and that was just a half. I was feeling great yesterday but woke up in middle of the night feeling restless. I just want to be done with this. I want to not feel wd symptoms. I want to not crave the meds. Ugh.... When will this end? How can I sanely get through the thick of it?

Would love some ongoing support....feeling very needy right now and like nobody gets it. :(

[Jinx_777]

you got to pay to play.  withdrawals are going to happen no matter how bad you don't want them.
that was a pretty fast taper so you will probably just feel the usual wd symptoms anyway.
that will be the easy part.  after the wd's then you have to stay clean.  
it is easy to forget the pain of wd's and give into the cravings.
aftercare really helps many people.  99% of people need aftercare to stay clean.  plus the meetings will help you pass the time and not sit and think about how crappy you feel.  
i have no idea how much or how long you have used, but generally speaking na or aa will help you gain life coping skills.

[pasquisha]

I was taking 60-80mg of norco or perc every day for about 2 yrs.

[pasquisha]

I just want to curl up in a ball and cry.

[StayingClean25]

i feel your pain  im on day 2 of percocet w/d and its hard, i just woke up and im also going throgh caffine w/d  we gotta tough it out

[EvolverU]

Good Morning & Congrats again on day two pasquisha! :)

Nice to see you posting a 'clean' thread. :)

Believe me, we all 'get it' -- You're NOT alone, here. :) You're on an emotional roller coaster right now which is COMPLETELY 'normal' during detox. These Ups & downs should level out in the next several weeks.

I'm not sure how old you are or if you had previous opiate habits to the Norcos & percs but the good news is that you used the for a relatively short amt. of time and had a mild to moderate habit. So, you have every chance of healing well, after the 'acutes' are over. (Btw, this is in no way meant to minimize what you're going through!) Detox is detox & there's no real way around it. Here are some things that might help:

Hydrate, hydrate, hydrate & continue to hydrate going forward. It's necessary in order to flush that cr*p from your system & for healing :) (that'd be 2 to 3 liters of plain water per day). If you have gut issues, use Imodium as per instructions (It'll be your best friend;). Try to stay away from Caffeine, energy drinks/soda, sugar, alcohol & processed/junk foods. Eat small healthy meals when you can. Exercise! I know that it's hard but even if it's a slow short walk in the sun & fresh air it will help. The sun & air will help w/ mood & also aid you in 'redirecting' your heart & mind. The hot salt baths & Cal/Mag/zinc that Jinx mentioned will both help to sooth you. The baths will help with detox & aches. The Cal/Mag w/ RLS & it also has a slightly sedative effect. (Don't overdue it though, as it will worsen the runs!) Funny movies (i.e. laughter) & your favorite music w/ earbuds will help to fire those old endorphins, lift you up & distract your heart & mind. Post here as much as you like in the next several days -- vent, ask questions, journal, reach out to folks, laugh, cry -- whatever you need. This is YOUR place!

Keep up the Good work! You'll get through this.

We're here & we're pulling for you.:)

[AmIMakingTheRightMoves]

i was living in your shoes just a short week ago... please hang in there... my whole process began in early july... and tapered rather quickly as well...
quite similar to you... you caught a lot of good advice just a few posts ago... keep busy... its my biggest strength and as times my biggest weakness.. so KEEP BUSY with something you enjoy... and realize you are making the best decision of your life... peace be with you pasquisha...

[glassguy]

I to went ct from Norco and yes the 1st week or two was not the easiest but can be done. You need to look up the thomas recipe it can make things alittle bit easier. Good luck!!! :-) :-) :-)

[pasquisha]

You guys just gave me a good cry. I can't thank you all enough.

[pasquisha]

Went for a walk with the kids, read books with them, watched movies....windows are open cuz the weather is beautiful.... feeling a little less anxious.

I think I can I think I can..... ;)

[AmIMakingTheRightMoves]

everyone knows you can...
try writing a kids book... brainstorm some ideas that make them smile... then find ways to write a few lines that will catch their attention...
i wrote a book called "the runaway teapot"... it kept my mind rolling for hours...

[Lazyann]

Hang in there. You are doing great. You have given me the courage to go down the same road as you tomorrow. I am totally addicted to codeine. I am starting on day 1 in the morning so we can go down this road together. I know I need suppose badly

[PurrfectlyKrazy]

You've already gotten some terrific advice so I can't really add anything except to say you CAN and will do it.  It isn't easy...but nothing good in life ever is.  If you have a regular doc you might want to call and see if you can get a scrip for clonidine...it helps with a lot withdrawal symptoms including craving :-)

[pasquisha]

Ugh my body aches like nobody's business. :( :( :(

[devisatedandscared]

I'm right here with you...i took my last pill Monday am, no taper..long story but I haven't slept since. My legs are so restless its driving me nuts...i did notice today my skin isn't tingling anymore..ive been taking alot of baths, taking Tylenol Pm, and vitamins...but I can't eat a thing...hang in there. Your not alone :) we will get thru this and god willing never have to go thru anything quite as painful ever again. Hugs

[jifmoc]

Pasquisha- we ALL understand!!! My fave saying of late: This Too Shall pass.

Each day, you'll feel an ounce better. These feelings are temporary!!! Can you remember why you are doing this? Go back to the reasons. Write em down.

And watch movies, keep your mind off your thoughts (our thoughts drive us crazy!!)

Good job!!

[Amandag78]

Hang in there, i think we all loose our sanity in detox and recovery, for a while at least anyway !!!
Well done and keep fighting : )

[pasquisha]

Am I stupid for considering taking half a pill just to feel somewhat human for a bit? Would that set me way back? Aaagh I want to cry right now. I've never been more miserable in my life. What a drag.

Help. What do I do? Stick it out? Take half? Take a quarter? I feel like anything to take away this immense ache would be worth it?

[EvolverU]

Hi Pasquisha :)

Nice to see you!

The party line to your question? Yes, you're stupid. The reality -- of  course not!!! Your body/mind is in a state of trauma right now & it's only natural to feel this way. Please, please bear in mind that what you're experiencing right now is totally 'neural' in nature. It's chemical. If detox were easy, there wouldn't be so many addicts out there.

You CAN do this. When that black dog whispers in your ear, try your Darndest to redircet! (Whatever that means for you) Talk with us here, journal what you're going through (if you're not sure how to do that, we can help). Talk on the phone w/ supportive non-judgemental people, watch movies, listen to something inspirational on yt, make a list of the reasons you're doing this or webcam a journal -- a blow-by-blow document of what you're experiencing & why you're doing it! Make a list of what you'd like to do when you get through this that you couldn't do before. Stay on track, my friend & keep your eye on that prize.

So, yeah....1/2 a pill, 1, 2, 2,000....it's all a bad idea. (Btw. as I'm sure you already know, the half a pill thing..that amount? It's your habit trying to trick you). Don't fall for it. You know better & you're stronger.

Hang in there!

[devisatedandscared]

I honestly don't know how much it would set you back. I was taking 12 7.5 mg Norco daily. I went completely off, thought and still think I'm going to die...so weak I cant walk around the house. I finally broke and took a 50 mg tramadol which from what I hear is equivalent to a 5mg Norco. However much different in the way it works. I honestly don't feel much better. I too hope I haven't set myself back...id say take a bath...some Benadryl may help too. Please let me know how your doing..hugs

[pasquisha]

Totally what I needed to hear. Thank you. I know all that. But yes, my mind is being a jerk. ;)

*sigh* Going to go journal now.....

[EvolverU]

Pasquisha :))

I'm not sure if you're journaling on your own or here on MH but I just wanted to say:

Man, wer're Proud of you !! & Keep it up. We're with you.

[61chevy]

Hi,
Just wanted to send u a quick word of encouragement.  U definitely r not alone.  Post often n keep us informed.  U have lots of people, right here n right now, pulling for you.  You can do this!

This is probably an oldy....  But I read it often;
A teenage boy was struggling n talked to his grandfather.  He told him  "I feel as if I have two roaring Lions in my head.  One is fighting for me while the other wants to devour me.  I just don't know which one will win".  The wise man looked at his grandson n told him, "I know which one will win....the one you feed the most".  
Keep busy n keep feeding the Lion that wants what is best for you.  Stay focused on the outcome.  Like jifmoc said, "This too shall pass".

[luvdolphins58]

Well. I understand totally. U can do this!  U are doing this!! I honestly called mental hospital asked if they would take me. Honestly thought losing my mind. But didn't take me. I survived. I'm not even adict just was naive dependent listened to Dr. Anyway I passed alot of my time watching Joel Osteen speaking on God's help. Just a thought. I felt like I found hell. All I know that's as close to hell I ever want to get my whole life. U can do this. U r doing this.

[pasquisha]

Well I took an ativan...hopefully that will help me sleep.

Know what the hardest thing about this is for me?  I'm a very stable person. I'm the one who holds things together for everyone else. I'm a great stay at home mommy. I would do anything for them and my sweet husband.

But this addiction makes me feel "dirty". I feel like I need support from friends but that they'll look at me differently. I don't want anyone to know this dark secret that I'm fighting every second to fight. I feel very dark and like a failure.

The good news is that it's been almost 48 hours since I took any narcotics!!!!!

I'm really doing this! Sometimes I get excited when I realize how far I've come in just a week...

Journaled, listened to music,  and read. That was my night.

Your guys' support,  advice and encouragement helped me fight the craving this time. I hope every one of you knows how special you are for helping a complete stranger.