Feeling rough

[Pat1956100]

Ugh why do I keep doing this to myself.  It just hit me like a brick.  Thought I was getting off easy but nope.
I'm hanging on tight.

[LeaAnn807]

Yeah, I had some family members who were ready to shoot someone......ME!  I never bought pills from a dealer, but there are a few docs my dad had a word with, eventhough the harshest were for me.  I was the one responsible for what I was doing.  The thing with dealers, most of the time if you don't have money in your hand, they won't leave drugs.  So don't offer them money, and I'm sure they'll happily sell them to someone else who wants to keep living like that.  

You're going to do fine.  Just keep the door locked! : )

[Pat1956100]

Yes Sara is batty and would bring her bat.  Can you imagine?? lol
Like in the Johnny Cash movie when the drug dealer arrived and they had shotguns out at him.  I would love that.
I do feel safe right now.  I hear noises but it's just my cats, I HOPE.
lol

[LeaAnn807]

Oh, yeah, Pat.  If someone comes to that door, slap them away!  Better yet, don't go near them.  I can't even imagine that kind of temptation when I was going through that.  I think I would have needed an armed guard at my door! LOL Sarah would work! :-)

Remember to take in a lot of fluids and lots of hot baths to stop the aches and warm you up!  I drank about a gallon of hot tea during WDs, and I usually don't drink any! It warmed me up when I had chills.

Good luck and keep coming on here.  That helped me more than ANYTHING!

I'll be cheering for you! : )

[Pat1956100]

Thanks bama
I always listen to Sara.  She doens't sugarcoat anything and you sure can't fool her.
I have me doors locked up tight and just feel safe right now.  Safe from anyone coming to my door and asking me if I want pills.
I dont' and don't even want to think about it.
I am doing it, this is my last time going through this crap.

[bama88]

Think of this as the best birthday present you can give yourself. Your fighting for freedom. Your freedom.  Come on pat. Were rooting for you. I've got my pom poms out. And cake is deserved. Go buy yourself one. Blow out those candles and make a wish. And listen to Sarah. Shes right. This is a journey. Not a destination

[Pat1956100]

lol, I don't think there will be any cake today :(
Just got a phone call from my son to wish me a Happy Bday and he was at the airport off to Mexico for a week.  A friend's wedding.  I got the "I'm sure I told you, I thought you new" thing.  
So no cake for me.  
The best part is that this will be my first birthday clean.  I know I am sick from detoxing and it's not pleasant but at least I am clean.  No pills today.
I can always have cake another time.
Maybe by next year I will be with my family and able to celebrate my birthday.