Day 4 for me Yipee!!

[momofmm]

I can't believe I made it to day 4 already!  I'm still alive and kickin'.  Did sleep very well last night but I'm up.  Not out of bed yet but I'm up. Reading the posts on here is what keeps me going.  I am still getting a ton of support from my wonderful husband but I needed more than one person to tell me that I could do this.  I'm really afraid of the mental challenges that will come after the physical.  Everyone keeps saying that aftercare is a must.  I have 2 small daughters and it will be tough for me to go to a NA or AA meeting.  My husband works 16 hour days running his business and I don't have many friends or family around to help with the kiddos.  

My "friend" called me yesterday and I know exactly what they were calling for.  I looked at the number and wanted to answer so bad and head over just to get a "few" so I could have a little bit more energy and maybe get one good night of sleep.  But, I looked up and my daughter who was dancing like a maniac to a Disney movie and my other daughter in her swing just looking around and talking to herself and I said NO!  I ignored the phone call and went on about my business.  I know that they will call again today and I just pray that I can be strong again.  Please somebody out there tell me I can do this!!!  

[dominosarah]

I love this......"dont even send frickin smoke signals"  You did something really really great today by telling this person no more!!  Now that is some strength.......sara

[moonshyne777]

Way to go!!!! So glad you told them where to go. That must have made you feel so proud!!! Keep going, I'm right in the midst of it but its getting a little better.

[tellit2her]

good job on 4 days of good recovery, will pray that you will establish an aftercare plan, as the hard part comes up dealing with certain ways that you can use to stay clean down the road. Get yourself into therapy or talk to a great support system and have a plan real soon, you did it,, great work...

[momofmm]

Well, it happened, just like I said it would.  Another phone call from you know who.  I answered the phone and before they could say anything I said "I am done, don't call, don't write, don't even send freakin' smoke signals".  I was so pround of my self.  Now I know I can do this.  Thanks to all of you!!!

[momofmm]

I'm hanging in there.  I just got back from an hour walk with the girls.  The weather wasn't too bad out.  I mean living in Las Vegas it doesn't get all that bad unless it's 115 outside!!!  I don't know how I will be able to walk outside when the heat arrives.  Have to run a few errands after the girls wake up from nap time and then before I know it my husband will be home.  That makes me happy!  ; )  I'll keep posting if you guys and gals can handle the babbling......

Everybody hang in there!!!

[fuzzypeach27]

You go Momofmm

I had to do house work and look after kids. Go to shops every day. Funny thing was it was the thing that kept me going. Getting up and dressed in the morning made a real difference for me. I kinda let my son have the run of the house for a few days, but I think he enjoyed it. Drink plenty water.

Keep posting............

[moonshyne777]

Forget the house, let the dishes pile up, let the laundry go and just concentrate on the bare essentials. It's enough to try and take care of two little ones, dont overwhelm yourself right now. I'm sure hubby will understand and might even help out a bit but if not don't put yourself into a panic ok? it'll all work out. The main thing is to stay strong and pamper yourself as much as possible. When hubby gets home or kids go down for a nap have a nice long bath. I'm having a rough time right now but I know if I just hang in there I'll have my life back, so will you!!

[momofmm]

Thank you all for the pep talk.  I needed that today more than any other.  I am going to stay strong and I will be thankful when tomorrow arrives.  I know that I can get through this but man it's hard at times.  Trying to get everything done that I need to do as a Mom and a housewife is quite difficult.  I've been strong enough so far but you can tell something is going on by the way my house looks right now! LOL  My husband is very supportive but at the same time he works 16 hour days and the last thing he wants to do is come home and have to do the dishes, cook dinner, or do laundry.  How did you get through all of this and keep a house a home and take care of the kids?  Did anybody else have to do this on their own with no help?

[CRAZIEKYWOMAN]

It is day 4 for me too. I have been snorting 1-3 a day for about the same length of time you have. My first two days were hell. My lower back felt like I was in labor. Hadnt slept for 3 nights. All the normal symptoms, hot, cold, stomach problems. Yesterday I did find some xanax which made me have a good night sleep last night and my stomach and back problems are gone. I keep telling myself that everytime I crave them I will remember what it is like to go through the w/d and I will never do them again. I wish us both the best of luck with it.,STAY STRONG REMEMBER THE W/D.  : )

[dominosarah]

Next time the phone rings pick it up and tell that "friend" you have chosen life and to take a flying leap......Its very empowering to do that.  Congrats on day 4!!  Keep it going.....sara

[Calamity2]

Yes call now.   When day one arrives surrender.  You can not be in charge. HP has to . YOU would say never mind and she would be happy for the money.

[catlover8]

I feel like calling and telling them no more or doing something that solidifies that you will not be getting any more pills is essential. I haven't begun detoxing yet, but I look up to those who have. I know that even though the physical part has not happened yet, the mental part is already trying to creep in. I am afraid that if I have not already called my source and let her go, I would be calling her and saying nevermind. I want to come over and get some. But now, I can't, which helps me stick more to my choice.

[moonshyne777]

Tell that friend to lose your number!! I'm on day 2 and it's pretty bad. Like you I have 2 little ones, a one year old and a two year old ang getting to na will be a challenge for me to but somehow I have to find a way. Even if I can only get to one meeting a week is better then none. I'm so thankful to have my grandmother here helping me as I barely function at all right now. Shell be here til Friday then I'm on my own again. That's when the physical wd's will be gone but the hard part - staying clean will begin. I will do it, my babies need thier real mommy back , not a mother who is controlled by pills.  Way to go on 4 days and good for you for not answering but really you don't need that kind of tempation so I'd tell her or him to bug off for good.

[sweatinit]

Look at you on day 4!!! Awesome job! I remember that day all too well. i think that was the first day i posted. I had to answer the phone and say NO MORE, not today, not ever. I had to do that because it would be lurking. I promptly called my other connect and told the same thing. Hang in there and keep strong for you and your family!

[Calamity2]

I'm so sorry you are on day 4 I know it hurts so much.  That was my worst day. BUT I never have to do day 4 again!!  and YOU never have to do day 1,2,3 again YEAH!!  Look at all the cool girls on here today kicking it.  I have HOLY SPIRIT goose bumps !!  I"m feeling the power and I am calling upon the name of the LORD JESES to lift you babies up and hold you in His loving arms.  Surrender to him. CRY if you need to SHAKE and be grateful you're not in Haiti having the blocks falling on your or your babies heads. You dont have to fight to get out from a fallen building but you will have to fight not to answer that phone. Do you really need the ringer turned on?  If you do anser ask God to talk before you answer it. I love you    really really  (too much Shrek?)

[momofmm]

Thank you for the encouragment.  I'll take what I can get!  I've been loading up on the vitimans and drinking as much as I can hold.  I really hope I can ignore the phone call again today.  

[pharma9]

Good for you resisting.That was huge...and you did well.We love you as well and will be here to support you.Concentrating on the good things you have will make you more determined to succeed.Keep taking your vitamins and esp vitamin c and you will have the strength to fight.