12 DAYS and i feel much better...i have some w/d when I first wake up but it usually wears off during the day. I can't believe how good I actually feel after such a short period. I am so happy to be sober and not be on suboxone either. It was always just another nightmere for me. And I have not thought about relapse once. I really can't live that life anymore I have drug tests for work and I learned im just overall a better person off them. I dont want to lose another friend or my next girlfriend over them. I think so much differently now and feel so much more clear. I haven't felt like this in 4 years. I actually go to bed at night now, when for 4 years I always knotted out. I have burn multiple beds down and ruined hundreds of sheets from falling asleep with cigs. What kind of person is that? Im 23 years old and I can not let this disease run my life. I am too young and have too many goals to accomplish. Thanks for the comments everyone it means alot.
Congratulations on your 5 day to 8 day detox from 400 to 600 MG of Roxicet. My hat is off to you!
Keep up the good work. Like you said "I conquered my own demons" We are pulling for you to stay clean.
WOW I just read your story and it is great that you now have a good fondation to build the rest of your recovery on. I used the Thomas recipe my first attempt at quiting cold turkey and after 10 days relapsed for about two weeks, once i started trying again to get clean I used it off and on some. I think getting clean is 100% about wanting to be clean more than wanting to be high, however I think staying clean is 100% about the steps you take during your w/ds, rather or not you have become educated about this disease and its abilities to play tricks with your mind, rather or not you start some form of aftercare, cut your ties to connections, come clean to ones you can, find the joy of life simply as it is today, and accept things and problems as they are today!
yay day 12 for me and i feeeeel greeaaaat :O
Yea I am afraid of not feeling as "good" as I do now when I stop the thomas recipe. So ive decided to stay on it for a few more weeks or even longer minus the benzos. I would use melatonin I have used it for weeks and can skip nights no problem. TYPM = very bad at least buy the simply sleep version of it to take out the actemetaphen you don't need. But as long as its not an opiate I'm not scared.
Plz keep in mind with the benzos being in the thomas recipie thomas was an ADDICT who has pass on from drug addiction .
Dr. gave me ativan and I personally have no issues with it. I don't use it for sleep and I don't take it everyday.........not taking everyday is key in my opinion. Now I know I am addicted to tylenol pm, and I take clonodine at bedtime, which I can't sleep at all now without the clonodine........grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr doesn't seem to matter what it is for me to get addicted to it.
I experienced Post Withdrawal Euphoria........I'm not saying this is happening to you. Not trying to steal your thunder. You are early in your recovery, so Please Be Careful.
Congrats!!!
I wish you all the best.
Luv,
nauty..............
The Thomas Recipe is a combination of vitamins and minerals (in supplement form) that you can purchase at the health store. A benzo is also recommended to induce sleep and help with anxiety. For me, I used ativan .5 mg. 1mg morning and 1mg at night. You can find old posts on this site with the recipe by searching Thomas Recipe in the search bar. If you can any other questions on it I can help I just used it for the first time and am doing well. I highly recommend it. Goodluck
I never said that my detox was over. I said that I am feeling great and that I have only minor w/d symptoms. And the answer is yes. On a daily basis I used 20-30 30mg roxicets. I was also selling them to support my habit or else I could not have made it that far. I am not proud of what I did but its part of the addiction. I did ween myself down to around 150 mg (5 pills) a few days before which I also had severe w/d for. But for the 5 days after with no opiates I can not explain to you in words what I went through. I did not sleep for 5 days straight, did not eat or drink hardly anything, puking multiple times a day, severe depression, chills and aches, the worst anxiety ive ever had. My mom had to hold my legs down at night I was literally jumping up in my bed. I cried a few of the days just knowing that there was no turning back. And I kept a journal of the whole thing to read whenever I have cravings in future. I highly advise people do this it works well when u have a craving and u read your horror story you otherwise may have forgot or lessened in your mind. Like I told you guys I've been doing this for 4 years, and something this time just kicked in. I had my familys support and I was going to get through it if I died trying. The time went by so slow and there's nothing you can do about it esp if you cant even sleep. The ativan really helped slowing my mind down because many peoples w/d are worse when they are constantly saying "oh i cant do this anymore" "this is too hard" whens it gunna get better" I just went with the flow and kept positive. Ive never wanted anything so bad then to be sober and my old self again. Ive lost the girl I loved and many friends over this and I still hate myself for turning into the person I recently was. I am disgusted with the things that I did and I as much as I want to get high again outweigh it with the loss of my family, friends, and my job. Id rather shoot myself in the head with a gun right now than put a pill in my system. Im done. And I promise if you keep tabs on me you will see how serious I am. I saw 100's of lives destroyed over these things while i was at college. And i have to live with the fact that many of them got them ftom me. I had no idea what these things could do to someone until it was too late. 2 weeks later I moved 600 miles away with my family and am on track to success. I still do have mild w/d symptoms dont get me wrong but am still taking the Thomas Recipe for another few weeks at least. I really am telling you it helped me alot if you take it seriously, have a good attitude and support you can quit anything.
Hello and congratulations to you! Can you please tell me what the Thomas Recipe is? Thank you and keep up the progress!
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Can someone with the amount of time and the high amount of Roxi really detox in 5 days. I know what you mean by going to bed as a normal person. I honestly think I am missing something. Seems way too short too good to be right, what am I missing.
You could try some Zantac or Prilosec for your stomach. That is OTC stuff and it works. I take the generic stuff for my stomach but mine is just from being 120 yrs old!!!
haha I hear ya...the only other thing that bothers me in my stomach in the morning. I have a really bad stomach as it is and very sensitive so I'm not sure if its because of the massive amount of vitamins I eat first thing in the morning, the l tyrosine? or Just a continuation of opiate wd becuz im only on day 9. However, I feel sooo good for how long its been and I am telling you that the Thomas Recipe is doing it. I have quit so many times and I've never been able to feel this good off even suboxone. Hell, its almost 2 pm on any normal day I would have blown 5 30mg oxycodones by now. I dont want to ever see one of those again. I am 600 miles away from my connects and I dont have a thought in my mind about contacting any of them. I'm living in Charlotte now and have noticed that there really arent any painkillers around and its all dope. I just dont want to ever be somewhere or see someone using it for awhile. Although i feel like i could handle having it in front of me its just not good for my wandering mind right now.
Read all you can on PAWS and get educated on it. Stay positive in your thinking like you are and that will help.
Now that you arent on the pain meds anymore we start to feel things when we overdue it. I remember playing the wii after i cleaned up and i thought i was going to die the next day!!!
OK Thank you all for the info. One thing that is really bothering me is how sore I am. I have been working out and yesterday played frisbee with my friends for a few hours and today I can not move. My arms and chest feel torn and hurt so bad. I am not used to this and I am guessing my body is not producing natural pain relievers yet so this is why i am achy? I took ibuprofen but it hardly helped. Damn. But other than that I am now waking up in the morning without the first thing I think about being pills. I am very happy I have all your support. I will keep you guys updated as I reach PAWS. I am a little nervous about that but I think im in a good mind set. Thanks again
Always keep your Guard Up......this addiction is sly and cunning............sara
hi, I ve been reading, and i think you should really listen to the people posting about na/aa. I didnt want to be associated and hang out with those people either, untill i became one. I only had a drug problem until, i substituted drugs for alcohol. in fact , i hated the taste of it,but it got me to the mmm... place we all know so well. I go to meetings today to give what was so freely given to me. If you dont believe these posts, im afraid you will need aa/na again anyway. Im here to tell you, its not so bad hanging out with us. we insist on enjoying life, well, most of us anyway. And oh yeah, it doesnt matter how far you leave home, u still take your self with you. in other words, you can find drugs any ware u look 4 them . im am proud of you for the 8 almost 9 days though, good luck, and pray alot, i will. f
U rock..feeding our brain another opiate//often a stronger one than our doc..is not always conducive to recovery...few here would tell u to switch to hydro if u were an oxy user///nor vice versa//especially not when u r in the early stages of wanting cleandaom...but sub/which is 5-10 times stronger than hydro...drs/people will push on u on it a heartbeat
fact is our brain needs to be opiate free to heal. I do beleiev some need a maintenance drug like sub or methadone while they do the work they need to do on their inner sefl///aftercare and creating new coping mechanisms..i do know that sub is the drug people here and elsewhere often reccommend..having studied both both drug i c little difference in the long run..i have used both for up to amonth and had no wd...but the sub jolted me/felt like the first time i took a hydro///loved my sub so really bad karma..methadone which i used for pain for a month here and there, gave me no desire to abuse///if i took more i went to sleep...like many narc abusers//i was an nrg seeker!
to each our own...we r all different..i just really hate reading bout people r gonna be saved by sub! the only one wo can save us is US! our inner self
our own plan saves us..our own strength saves us..if we need a maintenence drug..like sub or methadone..then do the one that fits with u...sub is the new sposedly safe methadone and will be just another methadone as more and more become addicted to it...21 day cut off for sub addiction but have hard that argued this amt of time to be less
both r a bear to wd from due to the long half life of each drug..mg for mg sub is much stronger than methadone..hard to compare cos sub is a partial agonist..but in comparison charts 1mg of sub = 10-15 methadone
both are hardcore...much stronger than percs or hydros/if u become addicted,then the wd is way worse/or longer than most docs..the idea of choosing a maintenance narc is to give u time off the street while u do the work u need to do on coping mechanisms, triggers etc
Before considering one of these maintenance narcitc.be sure u have tried evryway out..u can not just skip wds./physical nor menal..as a rule we suffer for our istakes to some degree..and u know that is ok! we live and we learn
remember all of us in here have 1 big thing in common....we are and always will be addicts....but the good news is with hard work and the Grace of God we don't have to be a active addict,,I almost have 6 months clean....i was addcited to percs and morphine for 4 years and stopped c/t....may God Bless you and if i can help in any way please contact me...there are so many good people in here that truely care and want to help others....we need each other....brian
I'm an addict and I know I will never be totally free from my demons. Good for you on getting clean for the last time.
Oh by the way..i agree with avisg that many users tend to forget how tough that struggle was to get clean and decide to use becuz it wont be too much to get clean again. Well, for me this is why i went C/T this time agaisnt both my doctor, family, and friends. I wanted to feel the true pain and hell of this disease. I had always used subo and just fluffed around switching back and forth using subo as nothing more than a tool to take the edge of the next relapse. It mad it more easy for me to go on binges and jump back on subo and repeat. That is now not an option and I made a journal of every single day I went trough and specific details of those feelings and emotions. I have read them almost everyday and they always turn a craving into a nasty disgusted face. For me, I had to find the reason for my using and I was able to. And since working on that and becoming more informed about my actions and there consequences I really can say I feel very safe. And mostly, this wonderful website that I have recently taken a good part on. I love the people on here and always sign off in a good mood. Thanks for your concern.
Well the thing is I do not know anyone here and have zero connections for any drugs. The reason I only go twice a week is becuz I am a recent grad now working 50-60 weeks in the corporate world. There is no turning back for me. I would lose my family, my job, and my soul. I also live with my parents currently and have had the best support from them. I come from a family of very addictive personalities. For my family however it is alcohol. I drink 2-3 times a month at most. Don't enjoy it at all and only socially. I feel that my issue in the future it going to be how to fill that particular gap. And I am trying to make that gap exercise again. I used to go to the gym 2 times a day and was in the best shape of my life. I want to spend more time in the gym then NA meetings and hears why. I do believe that NA meetings are great and they certainly do help at the start but after while I find that it consumes your life. A life that I want nothing to do with ever again and I find myself spending the most of my free time with other addicts (no offense). I strongly believe it separating myself from that world altogether and by surrounding myself with positive people at work and family I will not run into any problems. For me this was the first time I told my family of my problem and I feel that is the reason I've done so well. You can't hide in a shadow feeling depressed and sick around people who have no idea what your going through physically and emotionally. Now that the rents are on board they have found many meetings for me to go to, different books, articles, and family friends with similar struggles. I don't have a single number of anyone with drugs and I changed my number. I have very friends here due to recently moving (3 weeks ago) and am making sure I chose the right ones. I also found a bottle of 20 OXY 20 mg and got the biggest smile on my face as I ran down the stairs almost falling down them and heaving those suckers in the toilet. To show them the respect theyve shown me over the last 4 years I also urinated on them. Flushing those was an awsome feeling and one that I have NEVER had before. I am not going back. If I ever did I might as well kill myself because my life would be over. But its JUST GETTING STARTED BABY>>>FREEDOM IS BLISS
I had this in my jornal
The “pink cloud” is best described as a period of time where the addict or alcoholic experiences a reprieve from the struggles associated with early recovery. These struggles are generally associated with the feelings of depression, anger, resentment, self pity and the realization of where their drug addiction or alcoholism has taken them.
Upon experiencing this phenomenon for the first time, the addict or alcoholic is understandably excited. They begin to believe they now “hold the key” to their recovery. This is where the seed for relapse is planted. They begin to believe more in themselves than in the process they have been following. Without the pain as a daily reminder, they tend to forget about what it took for them to embrace recovery. Denial rears its ugly head and they minimize how devastating their drug addiction and alcoholism really was and that they have a disease of drug addiction and alcoholism that requires attention on a daily basis. Relapse prevention becomes an afterthought as the person becomes defiant and rebellious regarding suggestions contrary to their desires. Without resorting to drugs or alcohol, the individual in recovery is one step away from relapse. Remember, relapse is not an event, it is a process