Finally Free of my Demons : )~

[RoxiMan2009]

8 days ago I was a full blown addict consuming 400-600 mg of roxicet per day. I have tried to quick numerous times over the past 4 years and have also resulted in a relapse. The drug took full control of my life and I had hit rock bottom. Desperate for a solution I decided to go C/T (cold turkey) and go with the Thomas Recipe. (opiate detox recipe) and I must say that I have never done so well. I have tried countless times with suboxone but always found that I would fall back to opiates hurting from suboxone withdrawal. For someone with a tolerance as high as me would be on at least 16.mg on suboxone. I would take it for 30 days or so and then decide to get off and even with tappering down to 2.mg every other day I struggled with extreme w/d and would end up using again. Anyways, I went through the toughest 5 days of my life but I DO NOT regret them. I conquered my own demons 1v1 and I will NEVER GO BACK. I am feeling sooo great and other then minor w/d such as anxiety and some sleep issues I am on my way back to being the person I was 4 years ago. My new high is going to bed every night with a smile on my face knowing that each day forward I will feel better and better. This addiction I would not wish upon my worse enemy. If I die today and go to hell I imagine myself being right back where I was 8 days ago. I wish every one of you on here the best of luck with your battles and realize that we only have one life to live, and the life of an addict is not worth liven. Until our government and healthcare system realize the consequences of their actions more and more will become dependent on these drugs. For those of you that need them, that is ok..but doctors need to give more information on dependency in both a physical as well as mental aspect. This addiction is going to effect me for the rest of my life. I will always be an addict...one step away from the edge. But with family, support groups such as this and rehabilitation we can build up that wall. If anyone has any questions feel free to ask. Peace and love -Jay

[NautyOne]

Dr. gave me ativan and I personally have no issues with it.  I don't use it for sleep and I don't take it everyday.........not taking everyday is key in my opinion.  Now I know I am addicted to tylenol pm, and I take clonodine at bedtime, which I can't sleep at all now without the clonodine........grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr  doesn't seem to matter what it is for me to get addicted to it.

I experienced Post Withdrawal Euphoria........I'm not saying this is happening to you.  Not trying to steal your thunder.  You are early in your recovery, so Please Be Careful.

Congrats!!!  

I wish you all the best.

Luv,
nauty..............

[RoxiMan2009]

The Thomas Recipe is a combination of vitamins and minerals (in supplement form) that you can purchase at the health store. A benzo is also recommended to induce sleep and help with anxiety. For me, I used ativan .5 mg. 1mg morning and 1mg at night. You can find old posts on this site with the recipe by searching Thomas Recipe in the search bar. If you can any other questions on it I can help I just used it for the first time and am doing well. I highly recommend it. Goodluck

[RoxiMan2009]

I never said that my detox was over. I said that I am feeling great and that I have only minor w/d symptoms. And the answer is yes. On a daily basis I used 20-30 30mg roxicets. I was also selling them to support my habit or else I could not have made it that far. I am not proud of what I did but its part of the addiction. I did ween myself down to around 150 mg (5 pills) a few days before which I also had severe w/d for. But for the 5 days after with no opiates I can not explain to you in words what I went through. I did not sleep for 5 days straight, did not eat or drink hardly anything, puking multiple times a day, severe depression, chills and aches, the worst anxiety ive ever had. My mom had to hold my legs down at night I was literally jumping up in my bed. I cried a few of the days just knowing that there was no turning back. And I kept a journal of the whole thing to read whenever I have cravings in future. I highly advise people do this it works well when u have a craving and u read your horror story you otherwise may have forgot or lessened in your mind. Like I told you guys I've been doing this for 4 years, and something this time just kicked in. I had my familys support and I was going to get through it if I died trying. The time went by so slow and there's nothing you can do about it esp if you cant even sleep. The ativan really helped slowing my mind down because many peoples w/d are worse when they are constantly saying "oh i cant do this anymore" "this is too hard" whens it gunna get better"  I just went with the flow and kept positive. Ive never wanted anything so bad then to be sober and my old self again. Ive lost the girl I loved and many friends over this and I still hate myself for turning into the person I recently was. I am disgusted with the things that I did and I as much as I want to get high again outweigh it with the loss of my family, friends, and my job. Id rather shoot myself in the head with a gun right now than put a pill in my system. Im done. And I promise if you keep tabs on me you will see how serious I am. I saw 100's of lives destroyed over these things while i was at college. And i have to live with the fact that many of them got them ftom me. I had no idea what these things could do to someone until it was too late. 2 weeks later I moved 600 miles away with my family and am on track to success. I still do have mild w/d symptoms dont get me wrong but am still taking the Thomas Recipe for another few weeks at least. I really am telling you it helped me alot if you take it seriously, have a good attitude and support you can quit anything.

[missmetal]

Hello and congratulations to you!  Can you please tell me what the Thomas Recipe is?  Thank you and keep up the progress!

:-)

[buprenex]

Can someone with the amount of time and the high amount of Roxi really detox in 5 days. I know what you mean by going to bed as a normal person. I honestly think I am missing something. Seems way too short too good to be right, what am I missing.

[dominosarah]

You could try some Zantac or Prilosec for your stomach.  That is OTC stuff and it works.  I take the generic stuff for my stomach but mine is just from being 120 yrs old!!!