To those of you who said you were hooked after the first pill,I know exactly what you mean. I have taken both plain and with codeine fioricet off and on over the past 30+ years. Guess which one I like best? Anyway, I never took that much until about 5 years ago when I found a very generous doctor. Now I have a very big problem. A year ago, I posted here and vicki you and someone else who I noticed no longer posts after she got off the drug, were both very kind and encouraging to me. However, I am back where I was a year ago--maybe even taking more. No one who knows me would believe I am in this situation. I have no one to tell. And, of course, I don't want to tell. I want the pills but I want off of them too.
P.S. Congratulations Vicki on making it 6 months!
i did the same thing with opiates, so i guess we're even. haha. never understood why people like them.
Day~ Oh...to be you!! Yes,it's strange but our brain chemistry is just different. My brain and Mayberry's are similar. Maybe we're related? LOL People either love this stuff or have no use for it. That's how we flew under the radar for so long. Even the doctor's thought it was no big deal. I don't know about Mayberry,but I exploited every doctor to the hilt because of their naivete'. No more for me! It's truly the devil if you're like us!
What's really funny is we tend to not like opiates! At least,that's my case. I've taken them for pain,know how they make you feel,but can just walk away like they're aspirin!
Anyway...there you have it! Another mystery of life...
Wishing the best of luck to you Wishiwerenormalagain (love that name by the way)
You all my find it as interesting to know as I did while reading this thread ... I thought huh ... Fioricet? That's that drug the dr. gave me that I thought was crap! I tried it several times and I eventually ended up throwing it out. It didn't help my headaches at all and did nothing for me any other way. Funny, you guys loved it?
Mayberry~ Perfectly stated,as usual!
LOVE is an understatement !!! Holy Sh!t,Batman!! I thought it was heaven on earth!!
Sick sick sick....
you need to see a therapist that specializes in anxiety issues, if you can find one. since anxiety/depression are the most common reasons we see them in the first place, it shouldn't be hard to find a good one. most importantly, if you find a doctor who wishes to treat any anxiety or depression issues they might find, you need to be very careful with any benzo's they might prescribe. they don't make you feel as good as barbiturates, but it would be all to easy to become just as addicted to them.
be proud of yourself! you've come a long long way...most people give up before they get to where you are. i know its tough but at least give yourself 5 minutes to just sit back and appreciate where you're at. the urges WILL eventually go away...the feeling terrible WILL eventually go away...you WILL eventually be very close to normal as long as you stick with this.
what will happen when you're done with the klonopin? i don't know. maybe you will feel better...maybe you'll feel a little worse for a while. either way, worrying about it will only make it much worse. don't worry about it...if it DOES get worse, know that its only temporary and that you've done everything you can to avoid the major withdrawal symptoms and the more minor symptoms will eventually pass. yes you will feel like you've been hit by a bus...but you kind of have, if only metaphorically. anyones drug of choice is kind of like a freightliner flying down the highway at 80mph and slamming into you. its something that most people DON'T recover from...so count yourself lucky that you've got this far...and use that as a motivation to finish the rest of the way.
as to what to expect....well vicki and i both LOVE LOVE LOVE this drug....but for her, things were slightly different when she quit taking it. for me, i felt a huge urge to have it for a couple years after i gave it up. i tried EVERYTHING to get it or anything like it....seconal...phenobarbital....ANYTHING...i did manage to get chloral hydrate during this time. eventually though the urges did pass and thats what you have to keep in mind. your brain will eventually recover for the most part. the problem? it only takes one slip and you're hooked again.....never make that slip. i went years clean. i only thought about them once every few weeks. i got to where i thought i could take them again and not get addicted....i was terribly wrong.
so anyway...best of luck. stay optimistic. just hope for the best. the worst is over...the taper is done. the taper is the worst part of all. its time to let the drug go and move on.