Fioricet with codeine addiction??

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Hi! I cant even believe I am asking this question.... this is the first time I am facing this head on.... Bear with me while i tell my story.

Over 10 years ago (when I was about 16) I had a dr prescribe me Fiorinal with codeine for my terrible migraines. I literally sat them on the shelf and noticed some friends would steal them and I knew they were a very wanted drug. I never took part in taking them. ONLY when I had a migraine.... Well when I was 21, I went through a terrible divorce with a 2 week old baby and a 2 year old. I called my mom one morning when I was struggling to go on with life.... she asked if I had any meds that I took (depression Im assuming...) I said no but I had some Fiorinal with codeine that made me feel happy when I took them. I only took them with migraines so didnt know the effect without the headache. She said to go take it and get the girls ready and go to work. Well after about 30 min of taking it, I was so euphoric that I could go on with life. I ended up going back to this dr and getting about 40 a month. I only needed one dose a day of 2 tabs and somethings a little more... Well a couple years later I lost insurance and this dr moved away....

I went years without this medication but longed for the euphoric feeling so bad. I caught myself thinking about it BUT this is the only med that took away my terrible migraines that sent me to the hospital many times.

Well I went to a new dr a year ago and asked for this med. He said and I quote "no dr will prescribe this. Its highly addictive" I went on and was pretty upset that he just "didnt understand." He gave me some Tylenol with codeine and sent me on my way. I came back a couple months later with the bottle of Tylenol and loaded the bottle up with all the Tylenol #3's that I had so he wouldnt think I took them too much. He looked in the bottle and asked if they worked. I said no... would really like the Fiorinal. He ended up giving me Fioricet with codeine which is pretty much the same thing. I only get 30 a month. Well the last dose he gave me, I took the whole bottle in like 8 days!!!!! I called back for more and was told to call back in 21 days.... I then found a new dr who gave me a script for 30 a month and 3 refills... I was shocked.... I had to go back to the other dr for a kidney pain I was having and he prescribed it to me too again since it has been 21 days!! I then take it to a different pharmacy and pay out of pocket to not allow my insurance co to catch on... So now I have 2 drs prescribing the same med. It made me happy to know I will get this med when I need it and I can take 2-4 a day without feeling like Im running out.... So now Im feeling the need for this med MORE! Help! How do I stop? I tried taking just 2 a day and it makes me a nervous wreck. My favorite thing about this med besides the euphoric feeling is the intense great feeling I have when I smoke a cigarette on it. I can smoke 5 in a row and be so happy.... I just hate when it wears off. I get SOOOO tired and irratable. :(

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I am here to stop quick! Is it possible to stop but only use for migraines again like they are intended for? I dont know what makes me feel so euphoric... Ive taken codeine before and liked the effects but not so much that I would actually go to 2 doctors! :( I am scared to tell my husband since I think he notices. Hes a LEO so I just dont want him to think im like those people. I am just a normal mom who just takes them for the happy feeling that ends up making me so so mad when the meds get out of my system.

[HappyDays2Come]

Hi and welcome to the forum! You're on your way down a dark/rocky/destructive path. If you get caught dr shopping (which is what you're doing) you could lose your kids, job, everything...it's time to stop. You're in the right place and many of us have done awful things to get pills, too, so I don't mean to scare you or make you feel guilty. I've been there and right now you're lucky because you haven't hit rock bottom...yet. When are you planning on stopping? When I quit cold turkey I was taking around 100mg of hydro, percocet, oxycodone (whatever I could get my hands on) a day. The first 48 hrs were bad but I could still be a mom/wife...I just had the worst case of the "flu." I'm almost 3 weeks clean now and my life is changing for the better. It's so worth a rough week (physically) to be where I'm at now. I'm more of a super mom, super employee, super wife now than when I was on pills (funny because I thought they were making me so "super"). You're in the right place and we can give you some tips to ease the w/ds. Let us know your plans and we're here to help and support you!