GUYS I NEED SOME SUPPORT HERE!!!

[phiaNorcoqueen]

well as many of you know i am 77 day clean from norco 10/325 15 a day habit..

  well i have been given norco's today and didn't realize it until the dude was gone, that he slipped them into his grand daughters bag to give to me.. Well after he left his grand daughter said here this is for you.. And i was like oh ok and i opened up a little baggie and it had a bunch of norco's in it.. And this dude know's nothing about me .. I didn't tell him about my problem with them or that i was ever on them..  So here i am with all these norco's and can't seem to flush them.. yes i want to take them but i know the outcome in all of that.. Guys i'm not sure i may lose the fight with this one but i don't know what to do!!  i will be okay i'm sure .. But still kinda scared with this..  my mind is all confused and already trying to make excuses to use.. And that scares me.. i don't think i will take them but i don't want to put anything passed myself ..  i know i am my own worsed enemy..  Guys please help i just need some mental support.. i'm super freaked out here..  

thanx
Sophia

[jennj320]

I just came upon this forum and was going to post my own, but wanted to tell you how proud I am that you flushed the pills. That was the hardest part for me, but I did it while I had a friend on the phone with me and he walked me through it. One day at a time! You can do this!

[kyle505]

I just came upon your post - mild panic when I started reading what had happened and then very happy to learn that you flushed the pills. It's been a while, and you may not remember, but you were a great help to me when I started my detox journey. We are about two weeks apart in recovery; your posts helped me get through some tough times. Meaning, you are not a weak person; you've accomplished something that is close to impossible for most. Congratulate yourself. And stay away from people offering strange gifts!

[Bkitty]

Im soooo proud of you!!! I was thinking about you yesterday while I was at work wondering what you did!! Yeah!! You are doing awsome!~Bkitty

[phiaNorcoqueen]

i know, i was really thinking who in the heck does crap like that??  it really didn't make any since for them to be there .. But i don't put anything passed anyone anymore..  (people are crazy )

[dominosarah]

I am really proud of you for flushing those pills.  When they are in our presence they call our name.  It is very scary for me to think about a 6 yr old child running around with pills in her backpack.  The what if's are haunting.

[IwillDoThis]

I'm so proud of you for flushing those little suckers!  How great do you feel?  I know it seems like a stupid thing but the symbolic flushing can really empower you and it is amazing how one little act can make you feel so strong.  Every day we make a choice - a choice to ask for help or not, a choice to love ourselves or return to darkness.  You made a great choice for yourself yesterday!  

[forgottensick]

This is only my 1st day of cutting down. I look forward to being at 77 days. How you handled this situation inspires me to keep going no matter what because if you can do what you did, then so can I. You are a lot stronger and in control than you think. YOU have control of YOUR life. I`m proud of you.

[phiaNorcoqueen]

it is extremely empowering.. i'm not gonna lie it was hard *** hell.. And i never thought in a million years that i would be able to do it.. But i did and i feel like i can move mountains...

[Littlelegs2003]

Well done!! That took guts :-) Glad you feel better. Must be kinda empowering... Am very impressed.

[phiaNorcoqueen]

hahhah  Northeast made me flushem' hahaha.. naw i flushed them really, and it actually makes me feel hella better and like a huge weight has been lifted off me..

[Sarah11212]

And so...,,
Where are we at with the pills now?

[phiaNorcoqueen]

yes it is a weird situation the little girl is 6 and she comes down almost everyday to play with my little girls and when she handed me her bag with her snacks and things in it and in a little bag was the pills.. so freaking weird i know..

[dominosarah]

These were given to you by this persons granddaughter?  How old is this child?  When you realize that the romance is over with these you will flush them.  They are very deadly to us.  You will feel so much better when they are gone.

[phiaNorcoqueen]

thank you everyone for your concerns and kind words .. they really do mean alot to me, and i can't say i have flushed them yet but i will and that is a promise i made to a special someone .. and i intend on keeping that promise ..  so yeah my head is still spinning from all the **** i've gone through today.. But i have to say it is getting a little better

[Littlelegs2003]

77 days - wow. I can't even imagine that far! BUt, you proved that any one of us can be tempted - no-one is secure. You are so strong, honey. Posting instead of just giving in shows amazing strength. I hope you flushed them - but I know I'd have trouble doing it too. Stay strong - we're here, no matter what. You are not alone in this.

[NorthEast213]

Things are never as bad as they seem......  Stay strong.  You have every reason to beat this... Just remember what they are.

All the best.

Sean

[perco13]

Also thank you for your kind words. I only speak how I feel. It's such a sensitive subject for me. like every1 here ive been through so much with these pills. and although I physically don't know anybody here I do feel a close connection with everyone on this site. Were all going through the same thing and we basically all feel the same way. It's comforting to know that I'm not alone. Your subject was perfect "I need support here" i think we're all here because we need support. So keep ur head up. Were all in this together. 77 days will soon be 777 days and so on. Support is why were all here. It's easy to know the right thing but so hard to do. Only time will make it easier. You should never feel weak. The most powerful people in the world couldn't beat this alone. From actors to musicians to CEOs they all needed support. And good for u for acknowledging the fact that you need support to. Your awesome! All the best - anytime u need to talk u can message me

[notme42long]

New friend please tell me there r already gone down the sewer

[perco13]

Truth is we help each other. So THANK YOU for listening and allowing me to help. U can't imagine the strength it gives me knowing that I was able to help you through this. It reinforces and motivates me to continue to stay away from these devils. We all have our ups and downs - it's hard to be strong all the time - that's y it's so important to have people you can turn to when your feeling vulnerable. Nobody can beat this alone. We all need outside reinforcement at times. Addiction takes over our mind to the point where we aren't thinking rationally. That's why we come here. The bigger network we have the better chances we have of beating this thing. You did the right thing by coming here. You definitely are strong, u proved it by being 77 days clean but we are all stronger when were together. And if you continue to talk about it whenever you have a craving drop a post . Whenever you feel weak drop a post. You will be 1000x more likely to beat this. There are people here that will remind you why you chose to be sober. Together we can beat anything. My heart goes out to you and everyone on this site. We can all learn from each other. Stay strong! Your doing great!

[IwillDoThis]

Sweetie - coming on here being honest about what you wanted to do and asking for help was the strongest thing, part of you is fighting the other part that doesn't want to move ahead.  Struggles like this either make us grow or we retreat to old behaviors.  You made a stride tonight - thats no small thing.

When we get in this weakened state we get really good at beating ourselves up, not realizing the strength we have inside.

So give yourself the credit you deserve!!!!

[phiaNorcoqueen]

thanks Sean, for all of your help and support.. you are an awesome person and friend..

[NorthEast213]

You are not weak Sophia.  You came on here instead of using.  That is strength...  If you haven't already flush them and be done.

Sent you a message.

Stay strong

Sean

[phiaNorcoqueen]

i honestly don't feel all that strong.. i really dont .. i feel like this weak willed tiny person and it is eating at me now..  

[IwillDoThis]

be proud of the test you've just faced, you are so much stronger than you give yourself credit for!!!!!