You can do this. Pain killers make depression and anxiety much worse even when we use. At least for me. Not when youre high but your mind isnt the same while you take um. If you can taper, it will make wd hell easier. Ive done it both ways. WDs seem to last about 3 or 4 days and the first 2 were physical. Be prepared for days 3 and 4. You will more than likely be depressed and the anxiety is tough. Just know its only because of the drug. I worried about everything big time. Looking back now I cant remember one thing is was sooooooooo worried about. I got very irritable as well. Everyone here knows exactly what your going through. Ive quit many times and know wds well. You do have to bite the bullet. You can do it though. We all had to pay the price. You got this. Time will pass quickly and youll look back go what was I thinking! Stay strong and positive. Being a slave to pills is no way to live. Im glad very soon, you wont be a slave to pills anymore. NA meetings have really helped me out alot. You may wanna try to at least go to one. You got this!
Thank you so much for the encouraging words...I just need support and i have none so I appreciate very much you getting back to me with words of encouragement...I know it won't be easy...but I don't want to be a slave any more....would rather deal with the pain in other ways..Thank you...Anj
Hi Anj, I saw that you replied to my post earlier and I thank you for that. We can do it. I think you may be right that living with the pain may be easier than dealing with the anxiety these pills bring. I'm not sure what Soma is? I'm in Canada and I don't think we have that here. Glad you were able to drop the morphine and fentanyl ...see? already you are stronger than you thought.
We can do this!
good luck hun
Thanks for the words of encouragement....I went of Fentanyl and Morphine Cold Turkey a week ago...I was on the lowest dosage for both...for 8 days now...Now all I have left is to get off the Oxycodone and Somas (A strong Muscle Relaxer)...They no longer work and I hate having to keep on increasing the dosage..though I'm on a fairly small dose now..I tried to go CT and the Emotional pain was far worse then the physical...Crying..feeling like jumping out of my skin, sweating immensely, anxiety, sleeplessness...you name it...So I'm going to taper..Maybe I tried to much too soon..FibroMissa..please let me know how you are doing..Please know you are not alone
I went off Vicodin 10 days ago. I've gone off of it before and each time is different. I believe it's all in how you believe in yourself. That said, you're still gonna have some pain, both mental and physical. I too believe the mental is far worse than the physical.
Something that will help though is Clonidine. If you look around here, you'll see people talk about this drug allot for w/d's. It's originally a high blood pressure drug. The first few days you take it, it will basically knock you out, which is good, but then that ends but it helps you with sweats and chills.
Personally I found that Seroquel helps too, but it's a heavy drug. It's used for bi-polar (which I have) and Schizophrenia, but for me it seemed to work better with the Clonidine.
Just so you guys know, w/d's do typically last up to 4 or 5 days, but I've they can last up to 21 days. It depends on what drug(s) your taking, what dosage and for how long. For some reason after 10 days off Vics, I still seem to be having both physical and mental w/d. The physical is almost completely gone and it's not that bad at all now.
My cravings are about 50% I'd say now...that is to say that if I had them right in front of me right now, I think their's a fair chance I would take them. I've still got two refills left for Vics, but I've got to call the pharmacy and tell them to cancel the order, or else on March 5th, I could get a refill for 60 pills, which would be a real shame after so many days, to restart it. No....I burned my bridges before, now I have to do it again....at least I've got much fewer bridges this time around. That's what you have to do to stay clean, burn your bridges!
I got back on for a stupid reason.....kidney stone and I thought I could handle Vicodin for a few days because I wasn't even craving it. I'd been off of them for over a year and a half. I won't make that mistake again. When I went to the hospital, I wasn't seeking it, but I didn't turn it down because, as I said, I thought I could handle it. Now I see I never can.
The only time I'll go on opiates again, is if I've got seriously wicked pain that nothing else will help and a narcotic is the last resort. They can be very evil, but they can really help people too! I was taking them to help with the bi-polar, and they do for a little while, but then the help starts fading, you need more to feel that way. You guys know this though.
Just remember, the cravings will eventually go away! Sure, once in a blue moon, you might have a craving, but I can say that after, I don't know....a month or two my cravings all but completely went away and then by 3 or 4 months, I didn't have any at all! I didn't even think about Vicodin and if it was brought up, it didn't bother me.
Just don't make the same mistake I did and think you can control it! The only control you have is to never take it again, unless of course you have no other option, but chances are that's not the case for most of us. Then there are those who do have physical pain, but the con of opiates outweigh the benefit!