Getting thru my detox

[Mgirl77]

Hi - just wanted to update you on my methadone detox, this forum is a nice place to vent & get some answers.. im now on my 3rd day of 0 methadone after detoxing myself. i went on methadone for the same thing as some of u - thinking 'harm reduction'. i can't rag on it too bad b/c i'm a lot better now than i was before. before i was always hitting the streets to re-up, getting in trouble at work for taking long lunches to meet my dealer (who of course are always slow). then i got on clinic dose & would use & then have to raise my dose..vicious cycle. anyways it would have been a lifesaver if i had been able to do the 21 day detox they offer at the clinic. but its SO fast & SO hard. So i went on maintenece & been there ever since (3yrs). it really sucked when i was on 10mg, then 5mg - i detoxed from 25mg in 2 weeks. but i think im doing ok, just praying for strength & to not go back to my druggie way of thinking which def happens when im in WDs..  i kinda want to do a different drug (non-opiate) just to be high when going thru the WDs so i don't notice them. i know this is stupid but its just in my head.

[Mumma2many]

Then don't talk, just be in the room. 1 step at a time! But you are on the right track, just keep putting 1 foot in front of the other, 1 step at a time.

[Mgirl77]

thx - i know im kinda messing up its so hard i think its in my head mostly. can't wait to be normal & off everything & feel good again. i should go to meetings but im kinda a private person & like the web better, dunno if i wud even talk at a meeting anyways. ugh

[gnarly_1]

HI ....in order for your brain to heal you have to stop stimulating it with other drugs
weather it be weed alcohol or whatever any thing that causes artificial endorphins is going to be counter productive in getting your own brain to produce the natural endorphins our brains grow lazy as long as where putting drugs in to stimulate endorphins chemically it can laso postpone how long it takes to get better....I also agree with Sara you need some sort of recovery care especially with methadone because the withdrawal and post withdrawal last so long N/A would be a good choice it will help you with the mental mindscrew and also help you with the cravings to get high.....keep posting for support we all want to see you get well good luck and God bless......Gnarly    

[dominosarah]

Have you thought about recovery care at all?  Your comment about wanting to be high during the wd's isnt a healthy thing.  You will just keep repeating this vicious cycle.  Do you have anyone around you that is supportive?

[jrizzy303]

Thats great. You are very strong. Thats so get to hear. congrats on day 3. That may not seem long to some but I know how good it feels to be 3 days in. Keep up the good work.