Going to my first AA meeting and getting closer to getting off this junk!

[suzieneedshelp]

The  AA person thinks I'm toxic.  That's why I feel so bad physocally and emotionally.  Has anyone ever been in this situation?  How long will it last if i slow downnw?  What can i take to help?  Does the Thomas formula help with being toxic?
If so, which elements?  
Thx and peace to all your lives!
Suzie
P.S. I was soo glad i could post!  Forgot to put on my questionaire that i wish we could post more every day!

[Sugarbeens]

I don't post too often, but, read everyday.  Please, seek help. You are a good person.  After reading your posts over and over I see that you are one of the really intelligent ones, who, is seeking a way out of the pain.  Are you suicidal??  It sounds like it.  Do you need help?  You hold so much back, I can feel it.  You have been through so much, much more than I have.  When I am feeling sorry for myself, I think about you.  To have lost your child.  How you must hurt!!  Reach out to someone you can really trust.  We need you here on this forum as a support, someone we can learn from.  Don't look for that storm, look for an inner strength I know you have.  You don't have to stop these addictions all at once.  What would make you happier??  Find your son , I think that will be a first step.  The songs you talk about and the feelings you get from them, you are a emotional, hurting, caring, loving person.  You gave that at one time, but, because of pain you have given up.  Please don't.  From this day forward, be yourself, and find yourself.  Are you covering it up with drugs/alchohol.  Of all the people I see here, I know you can stop!  We all can if we reach inside.  Love to all, Butterbean

[koalabear]

I am not going to bash you for your posts, but I've been here for awhile, seeing people come and go, and what you are doing here is not the norm.

Your abusive outbursts are really offensive.  You even had the nerve to slam on Mrs. Rat.  The people your negativity is pointed toward is unjust.  These people are trying to help you, that is the nature of this forum.  You've created an image of yourself that is less than desirable, and I'm afraid you will be isolated.

Your medical condition obviously is above and beyond addiction.  I am strongly urging you to seek medical attention.  Your posts have a lot of violence and nonsense attached to them.  The seizures that you are having seem to be affecting you.

Please, for your own sake and safety, see a professional soon.  Seek the help you need, and refrain from the uncalled for language you speak.  It is for your own safety.  I really care about what is happening to you.  Your posts have taken a huge turn for the worse and you were not like this when you first came here.

I hope to see you well soon.

Koala

[puma]

You came for me,,,,like a thief in the night
You ended my, my life and releived my my plight........

Thank you, (Typhoon I need you so badly!!!!!!!)

This is our time of year as you now so do your thing baby!!!!
I eagerly await your eyewall and arrival!!!!

Chatahan.......wildcat


You don't have to be as strong as STY-Kim, no one upping here!!

[puma]

Skubee,

Thank you, you are correct, why remain on God's green earth?

I don't plan to, just waiting for that right typhoon, maybe forming now as we speak, over the Marshall Islands. One can only hope and pray. It's windy tonight, I can feel the energy building in the air!!!!!

Chatahan..........wildcat

[MethMan]

Like the recycle hippy in the Simpsons says, "Simply, man!"
Two simple words that mean a lot (to me at least).
If I were you and were not getting any help with the drug testing, I'd take matters into my own hands.
To have 8 clean tests in a year to get your kids back, why don't you just do a full spectrum test every 3 weeks?
If you provided MORE tests than they were asking for and all of them came up clean, then what could they say?
Sure, they could say, well...it wasn't random.  But, my rebuttal would be, No, they were not random, they were sequencial over a years time and if I were NOT clean, it surely would have shown up in at least ONE of the tests.
What would their arguement be at that point? I don't see one that would be anything other than baseless.

Just my idea... that's all.  Where is your attorney on this one?

God bless to all,
Mike

[scoobiedoobiedoo]

Yes,you people have every right in the world to be suspcious of me, or anyone as far as that goes. I could be lieing to you, but I;m not, I could be anybody and so could you.All this slinging of bullcrap....pity, where is the empathy??It takes a really big person to accept with open arms and no questions, but anyone can sling poo.......This is truly the most bizarre support group I have been to by far.Why is everyone so angry?Did;nt have yor wheaties? We are ALL ADDICTS. And I don't BLAME ANYONE BUT MYSELF.I spent far too many days watching the clock to see when it was time for the next dose of Vicoden.And then promptly denying I had a problem.I like Vicoden.I am suffering with pain because I know I cannot have it again or it will staRT all over again,and I cannot do that, too weak.And to tell you the truth I honestly felt as if someone else was shoving them down my throat, because most days were a blurr.I will be the first one to admit any of my wrongs in my life, so don;t judge.You have not right, youa re not perfect, neither am I.I am a person with feelings, a life, a career, a family, a relationship and a drug addiction.I like you wish I never had come accross my drug of choice.Treat others as you wish to be treated.