Going to my first AA meeting and getting closer to getting off this junk!

[suzieneedshelp]

The  AA person thinks I'm toxic.  That's why I feel so bad physocally and emotionally.  Has anyone ever been in this situation?  How long will it last if i slow downnw?  What can i take to help?  Does the Thomas formula help with being toxic?
If so, which elements?  
Thx and peace to all your lives!
Suzie
P.S. I was soo glad i could post!  Forgot to put on my questionaire that i wish we could post more every day!

[scoobiedoobiedoo]

Yes, someone mentioned that the Dr. got them addicted to vicoden.That would have been me and maybe the wording was off kilter.The pointIwas trying to make was after 3 or 4 scripts of vicoden, (which when you have REAL PAIN is a freakin godsend,I'm sure you know what it;s like to have pain??) I had to have it because it made the pain go away and let me tell you a slipped disc in your back is some evil ****.The doctor knew I had to have it I told him.And everytime I went into see him he would say"We just have t get you off these narcotics" And promptly write me a script for 180 more tabs.Who on gods green earth is gonna refuse that when you wakeup at night because your back and neck are throbbing with pain.???!!!Yes I suppose everyone is above all that,except for me??Yu and I both know what was ment by that statement.Iwould have not had the vicoden if it was not prescibed, I am not the kind of person who steals from work or panhandles on the street.So as another one who is so high and mighty runs their mouth without thinking....Think about it.

[Rdytoquit]

A doctor can write a script for vicodan, percodan, valum etc.. in about 30 sec. It takes the same doctor 15 to 20 min. of talking to explaine the reason for not giving the drug. Sometimes even a doctor will take the easy way out.., not to mention how much money can be made in 15 to 20 min.

[Patrice]

Someone mentioned their doctor getting them hooked on vicodins........Come on now, did the doctor shove them down your throat??? The first think I learned is As an adult, I am responsible for everything that happens to me..It is easy to blame, but you being an addict is no ones fault but your own...

[Chezz2]

Sorry to hear about the BS you are having to go through. Sounds like typical nasty divorce stuff.
But it still hurts just the same I know. Hopefully your ex will see the light someday and stop trying to hope you are doing bad and be happy that you have gotten clean and better. He might be jealous actually. And probably is.
I know if my wife was addicted to meds or something, would never get better when we were married, then got better after we seperated. I would be a little hurt too. Wondering why the heck she couldn't do it when we were together. So that is probably some it if.

Thanks for asking. So far it is a great day here. Sunny and nice, California. I am actually getting off the computer for the day and spending it with the wife. I spent a little to much time on it yesterday.

So have a good one too. Try and remember, staying clean is for YOU. That you are a lot better person now, and it is worth staying that way.
Chezz

[cheermom]

thanks so much for your response.  i did think it got lost in all the threads.  this is so frustrating!  legal aid says my income is "too high" which is such a joke as i just started working again and as most people am living paycheck to paycheck.  i will keep trying lawyers out of the phonebook.  most offer a free consultation but will not give any information of value until you pay a hefty $3000 retainer which obviously i do not have.  i have an appt with a DR this coming week and i'm determined not to leave until i have exhausted all avenues of trying to convince him to write the scripts for the testing!  ironic how they never had trouble writing scripts for percs but dont want to "get involved" when someone has cleaned up and needs help proving it.  i'm trying not to fold under all the pressure.  my children are the most important thing in my life and the guilt is unbearable whenever i allow myself to think about the person i was when i was using.  i'm going to NA this wk in hopes of trying to find some peace for myself.  thanks again for responding and i hope all is well with you.  hope to see you continue to post here.  much thanks.....

[cheermom]

my ex and i had a long discussion about the problem i'm having about 2 wks ago.  he said he would contact his lawyer since they wrote the agreement this way without specifying a specific dr who had agreed to do it.  he was having what i like to call "a nice wk" which is usually followed up by a not so nice wk. and once again i was right because this wk he was back to his nasty self and bingo yesterday there was a ltr from his lawyer waiting for me in my mailbox.  it stated that he had notified them that i hadnt been complying with the terms of the agreement and that i had stated i was having trouble finding someone to do it for me.  followed up with the names of the labs stated in the agreement.  well no kidding, i know which labs they want, i just need someone to write the script.  he called soon after and i told him about the ltr which obviously he knew about and that i dont like being threatened since it stated i would not get extra overnight with my son until i complied.  so he didnt really call them for help just to try to get to me once again.  he likes to be nice to my face and then hide behind his lawyer when something doesnt go his way.  i truly believe he would be happier if i was still using because then he would be "right".  i've suggested counseling together so we can learn to work together for our kids but he has refused.  i think it bothers him more than anything that i dont have anything to hide anymore.  funny, he has no concern for his daughters as they live with me full time and if he felt i was using youd think he'd want them out of here.  anyway enough time wasted on that.  i am calling his lawyer tomorrow to respond to the ltr and i'll see what they say.  i'm sure they will be no help as usual.  they of course are loyal to their client, which is actually his father, as he has pd all my ex's legal expenses, etc.  sometimes its almost harder to stay clean than not.  almost...but not quite.  thans for the suggestion. hope youre having a great day!