Good morning friends Day 4!

[nessyness]

Well let me say waking up and reading All of your posts from the night before had me smiling. God I love you guys! I never knew you could bond with people through a website....boy was i wrong! I feel ok right now im gonna try some lytrosine for energy and walk my neice up to the park to get me going for the day. I slept good last night the rls yeaterday kicked my arse so once i took the melatonin i was out like a light. I swear that stuff is a miracle. Im gonna try sleep without it tonight though. I go back to work tommorow im a little nervous, but one step at a time. I hear you matt on the whole relationship thing. I want to be in a more healthy place before i try and find my Knight in shining armour:) I wanna learn to love me first its been a long time since i have. well im gonna go try a small breakfast and get out for a bit. If you guys are still not sleeping go out and get the hylands and melatonin it helped me so much...........xoxoxox Nessa

[TakingAction]

Keep at it girl.  Sending you and ness love and support.  Quit drooling over them vampires.  They are dead you know.  LOL

Matt

[peaceinknowing]

HAHAHAHA!

[Belle2304]

By the way, robert pattinson is soooo beautiful..... :)

[Belle2304]

hey guys.... day 3 today, and still clean. last night was crazy i was super depressed while i was posting but that quickly went away when my friends stopped by. sometimes it helps to just 'hang out' she didnt even know i was detoxing i never said anything. i guess i didnt want to either almost like i was embarressed to tell her. only a few people in my life really know whats going on with me right now. i couldnt even tell my mom. i was scarred to let her down again i guess since ive already been in this situation before. so other than the select few that know im doing the whole suffer in silance thing right now. did you guys ever feel embarressed to tell people?

But its a brand new day today and im going to make the best of it! hope all is well with everyone.....nessa thanks again for the meds yesterday! hope your first day back at work goes well for you!

[nessyness]

Belle isnt using just in the throws of second day withdrawls. Its pretty rough right now for her. I keep telling her to push through.     Lady Gaga wait till you see her outfit Omg! Its crazy but crazy good! and Robert Pattison uhhhh I die! loves him.... Ok enough of all that haha  Nessa

[TakingAction]

Thanks Nessa.

Is belle using or just feeling bad?  She is lucky to have you.  It really helps to take the focus off ourselves for a bit.  You are so right about how we thought very little about everyone else in or lives while using.  It's not that we need to make up for lost time, but more that we forgot how good and natural it feels to share and give back whenever possible.

My computer keeps going down and it's freaking me out!  Don't know what I would do.

I too am getting ready for the MTV awards.  Can't wait to see Lady Gaga.  Everyone is saying she is gonna be the talk of the night!  And I think the hot vamps from Twilight are gonna be there.  Good times!

Catch you later.  Send Belle my love.

Matt

[salsinator]

Matt - check your inbox.

[nessyness]

My thread is our thread you have never hijaked it. I think you are to be commended for what you did it took strength and yes risk to yourself. By the way belle is doing bad today she cant get on the computer to post i took her some stuff that helped me. Im having her update me via tex... so i can help.  It feels good to give back and not just be concerned about myself wich is what i did while using..........love ya matt stay strong hon....Nessa

[IBKleen]

Nessy...so glad to hear you are hooking up with meetings!

TakingAction: Since you basically hijacked the thread I will address you here. To be real honest...that was a bad move. You don't have the time or the tools to help someone else get clean and you are fooling yourself if you think you do. The disease of addiction is cunning, baffling and powerful and the mental part of it is just kicking in for you right now, or will be real soon.

You said he is living in poverty. So he needs the money? Is he really a friend who would say no if you offered to buy some? Keep hanging with him and I promise you will use before he gets clean.  

The reason why you are doing so good is the "pink cloud" effect. I hate to burst that cloud for ya but best you know up front.

I can't say it enough...Aftercare, Aftercare, Aftercare!

[corey411]

Congratulations on day 4 Nessa. That was always the day when I felt better too. Going to NA or AA is a great idea. You can start out by going to a speaker meeting so you don't have to talk. If you go to a discussion meeting many people will say "I pass" or "I'm just going to listen" You will feel good after you go. Keep posting. Corey

[nessyness]

Yeah hes straight.. Didnt you know! Haha Kidding earlier he was on and doing good.. Oh and why havent you excepted my friend request!!! Do it now! ..Hugs Nessa

[nessyness]

I know I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop. Hopefully if it does its Prada lol! I felt amazing earlier. I still feel good however but for awhile i felt weirdly high but not the drug induced kind, unless the multi vitamis did it haha! I will be dilligently looking for the (.)(.) traps... When they come up i will post or call a friend. Na or AA is something im considering im a little scared i get a little shy around new people. Or maybe that was drug induced paranoia. Anyways im gonna enjoy watching the MTV music awards tonight sorry no football for me lol!   Love you guys!   Nessa

[TakingAction]

Hey girl.  Glad to see you managed to shake off that anxiety and do some positive things today.  I don't think you have mismanaged a single obstacle so far.  You just keep bobin and weavin'!

To the left, to the right...

Oh and what's with Brian?  I sure hope he's still straight.


Matt

[TakingAction]

Hope everyone is doing well today.  It seems like that is the case, at least in this thread.

I hate to jinx us, but how the hell are we all doing so good?  What happened to the sheer misery that brought us together in the first place?  I am scared that this could be the calm before the storm for some of us.  

Time for a public servie announcement from your resident happy homo-  
The risk of relapse becomes much higher once we finish the initial detox!  Let us all proceed with caution and a realistic view of how vulnerable we really are.  If we get caught up in "feeling so much better already", we run a huge risk of becoming complacent and downplaying the consequence of "just one more."

I am so grateful for all of the support here, and I think we are all headed for huge success.  But I let us never forget the lack of self control that landed us here in the first place.

And that was me venting!  I am just feeling so good that I am waiting for the other shoe to drop.

RealityCheck.  You wanna go, cuz I'll cut a *****!  Lol.  Of course I count you amongst my homies round here!  Glad to have met such amazing people such as yourself!

Take care all.  Matt

[Reality_Check]

We feel the same way Nessy

[nessyness]

Thank so much for the support! Today im feeling alive for the first time in a loong time..because of support from people like you and my 2 new best friends Brian and Matt.;)  I know there will be pitfall and when there are i will reach out for help rather than fall in the damn hole again........Nessa

[Dopamine0780]

Good for you nessyness, I give you credit, the week I quit I was on vaca for work, planned it that way and I know the epic lack of motivation that comes from wd's, especially the first week.  Keep it up and you should be feeling better real soon!!!

[Reality_Check]

oh and hey Matt add me as a friend or I'm driving to Baltimore from west coast just to kick u in the squash! heh hope you all are ok this morning. Great deal you did for your friend. AWESOME! Proud of you, all of you

[nessyness]

Well im gonna shower and make myself look pretty today...and get out for a bit minus the panick attack haha!     Love you guys!

[salsinator]

Hi All,

Just wanted to make a comment on cravings - I read your post Matt about cravings you had yesterday and it made me realize that in my 100 days of sobriety, I have not really experienced a craving at all.  I know that is strange and that I could be the exception to the rule - guess I am lucky.  

I also wanted to take this time to do a little bragging - I am so proud of myself.  I am in the medical device business - head up marketing for my company.  I was in San Francisco a week ago for a hand surgery show and when we travel to meetings like this, we will often entertain surgeons and sales people.  This means dinners, drinking, and sometimes hitting the bar afterwards.  I was so proud of myself, it would have been so easy to drink, but I maintained with little difficulty. My entire staff knows that I am in recovery and they all totally support me.  In situations where people were drinking, I would have a non-alcoholic beer or something else.  I don't need the alcohol to fit in or have fun.  I am so thankful for the support and I have found that when I share with others that I am in recovery - the respect that I get and even congratulations are wonderful.

Thanks for letting me share.

Ness - try hitting the enter key - that should give you a new paragraph.

[Reality_Check]

I am up myself now, groggy!  Hell, haven't even got out of bed yet. Well grabbed coffee to just lay back down to wake up. You sound better today than yesterday already believe it or not girl. Keep mind occupied, stay busy, stay here, do whatever floats the sobriety boat, even for a second. As you can see all of us buddies are here promptly when we get up - being in PST it's just 8am for me. Format, we dont care if u spell backwards here.....we're here! Stay positive and welcome to the huge day 4 start. The sun rirses another day, right?

[TakingAction]

I dont know whats up with the format you got going on there.  Try adding a double space in there.  But who cares, nobody noticed till you said something!

[dominosarah]

Congrats on day 4 nessy!!  Keep moving forward like you are doing and stay positive.  

It is a beautiful day in Minnesota....The sun is shining and the birds are singing.   sara

[TakingAction]

That sounded like the start of a panic attack.  Just your mind responding to all the stress of this situation.  They are terrifying when they are happening.  But they will not hurt you.  Its a fact.  Remember that.

If it happens again, immediately take a walk and breathe very deeply.  Concentrate only on your breathe.  It usually stops it in it's tracks.

Don't stress, ur good!

<Matt