You got this!
The nice thing is they're just thoughts, I know it sounds so easy to say. I went through a couple of days like that too and it was even as bad as thinking "I could go take one from my husband." Instead, I would go light candles, sweep the floors, do dishes, and there were a couple of times where I couldn't find anything to do.... SO I just took a bath and listened to my favorite songs. Anything to get your mind going the other direction. -One day I took like 3 baths, and it helps with the body aches too.-
Get those pictures out, the ones of you on pills. I've got one of me hanging right here next to my computer. This is by far the worst place for me to sit, because it's where I always was when I was on them, I would just reach over to my drawer and grab one. I just don't have a choice since it's also where I make my living, SO.... I put the worst picture I could find right next to me. I look up and I'm like "oh no honey YOU are gone."
Do you have IM of some sort. I'm at this desk many hours a day, I would love to just talk back and forth.
Hang in there. You can and WILL kick the thoughts.
It will get better, This is a very hard process, ,but we can do it. I'm on day 7 ct vics 15-20 a day and I hear ya loud and clear. WE must hang in there.
Cravings absolutely suck. I agree about them being scary sometimes, they consumed me for awhile too and i would literally vomit sometimes because of the anxiety and instense cravings. Your just beginning the process of recovery and it's normal to want to use, but don't let these weak moments deter you, it's part of the process. Try to get busy, force yourself to take even a quick walk, it really can help. Posting is great too!
Cancelling that refill is one of the best things you could have done so congrats on that. I know it's hard, but I promise, the benefits to come are priceless. Stay strong, this too shall pass. Your doing great!:) Have you thought about finding some type of aftercare?
hey you just stay strong....do not obcess on this thought, i know its hard but you MUST move on...YOu already know that one will not be enough and before you know it you be sayin just a few today...a few more today...O'well i just stop takin em tomorrow...and BOOM you back in the viscious cycle....stay strong!!!