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HELP ME, anybody
Help!!!! What makes it easier to get thru day one to everyday after? I've been doing pills (vicodin percocet) for three years I wanna get clean because I hate waking up without it I hate even thinking about being without it of course when I have no money I'm without but I always find a way i never can get past day 2 and of course I got too stop and I have too want to which I do I'm just literally scares shirtless. (Excuse my language) its just the temptation of having it when its around or when its available also I just want to be able to have money extra money I work a full time job I pay my bills and but not only that its like a priority in my life... How do I stop and stay awayyy?!! I literally drive myself crazy and im up all night this is the only thing iv ever done but 3 yrs is along time....
And I also have told NOBODY For three yrs. Its hard because I'm fighting literally with myself
Drake, you just wrote my story. All the regular's stories. And several of the new people that just posted.
Addiction is a full-time job. Obsessing about pills, detoxing, trying to avoid detox, counting pills. It's hell.
Are you willing to cut your sources? You gotta cut that temptation. Including dr, dentist, etc.
Do you wanna stop now? Today?
Addiction is a full-time job. Obsessing about pills, detoxing, trying to avoid detox, counting pills. It's hell.
Are you willing to cut your sources? You gotta cut that temptation. Including dr, dentist, etc.
Do you wanna stop now? Today?
Yes I want to stop I'm just scared to be without it... I mean its a part of me it has been. How do I is the question
I remember that feeling. Scared to be with, scared to be w/o. How do you start? Jump.
Do you have access to pills right now? Do you have access to them period? Delete your dealer's ph #. Do you get em from a doctor? Cancel your script.
Look up the Thomas recipe on this site. Get the basics on there to aid in wds. We have to go thru wds even though they suck. How much do you take daily?
You will feel like sh!t for the first days but it slowly gets better. Can you imagine feeling fine w/o pills? This is how you start.
Do you have access to pills right now? Do you have access to them period? Delete your dealer's ph #. Do you get em from a doctor? Cancel your script.
Look up the Thomas recipe on this site. Get the basics on there to aid in wds. We have to go thru wds even though they suck. How much do you take daily?
You will feel like sh!t for the first days but it slowly gets better. Can you imagine feeling fine w/o pills? This is how you start.
Hi there, how are you doing right now? How long has it been since you took something?
Its been 24 hrs exactly! Its hard as hell. I can taste it And I don't have any now which is the worst part I feel like if i have them i feel secure but then obviously I take them and so how do you stop if you have them in reach and I can tell you i probably take 8 to 10 a day. Depending on the mg its so hard. :'( I already feel physically and mentally drained I cant sleep i have no energy. Its been three yrs and im not the person everyone thinks i am im the person that pills are makin me be im happy with it or so I think but when you look in the mirror and realize your someone you never wanted to be it *****. I havent ever told anyone because I don't trust noone I know there's always gonna be judgement and its something to hold over my head and that's the last thing I need from people I'm surrounded by. Its just so many battles within myself I don't know how to get thru
And a person I have talked to she told me that out of everything she's done, pills were the hardest to get off of I don't if that is true but I don't anything worse personally. Before these things I was just a normal person
I can hear your panic. Take a breath.
Again, are you willing to cut all your contacts so that you have no access to them? That is what we all do.
Believe it when we tell you you will have a life after opiates and will feel sane. You just have to do what is suggested.
Again, are you willing to cut all your contacts so that you have no access to them? That is what we all do.
Believe it when we tell you you will have a life after opiates and will feel sane. You just have to do what is suggested.
That sense of security is fake. I'm sure you know that. Being on pills all day, we are totally avoiding life. We don't even know how we feel or what we really want when on pills. You are an addict, that's why the thought of being w/o pills is terrifying.
Right now, you are in withdrawl. Just keep going. Your emotions are crazy right now and will be. Don't take that as anything but your brain in rebound. It will pass.
Good for you for getting off the insane merry go round. Withdrawls are sort of the price we have to pay for the instant high that drugs give us. If you do this, you never ever have to go thru this again.
Keep very close to here and keep posting and reading. More peeps will post later.
Right now, you are in withdrawl. Just keep going. Your emotions are crazy right now and will be. Don't take that as anything but your brain in rebound. It will pass.
Good for you for getting off the insane merry go round. Withdrawls are sort of the price we have to pay for the instant high that drugs give us. If you do this, you never ever have to go thru this again.
Keep very close to here and keep posting and reading. More peeps will post later.
Yeah I'd say i kinda am
Panicing! :( and yeah I can but its just when I really start feeling like crap when it becomes hard because im scared i dont nesacarilly do them to feel the high feeling like i use to i just do them because i do not want to face the wds and ya know because its been on a priority list for so long. Sounds so stupid I know I'm just fighting that I want to stop but then I always have a reason to go back and its because I dont know what its like to be without or I don't know just so much to deal with
Panicing! :( and yeah I can but its just when I really start feeling like crap when it becomes hard because im scared i dont nesacarilly do them to feel the high feeling like i use to i just do them because i do not want to face the wds and ya know because its been on a priority list for so long. Sounds so stupid I know I'm just fighting that I want to stop but then I always have a reason to go back and its because I dont know what its like to be without or I don't know just so much to deal with
Hey there, sweetie, your story is like a carbon copy of a million other addicts. I'm sorry that you're so scared but you should be though...........not from your detox but from what's going to happen in the future if you don't get a grip on this. I'm not trying to be cruel, I'm trying to be your smidge of reality. Honey, we've all been where you are right now but the longer you go on, the harder this is going to be. Believe me, I know.....41 years total I've been abusing some kind of substance.....almost 30 of them taking some sort of opiate. ......tried to stop a zillion times and each one of those times made a deal with the Big Cheese to do right by Him if He'd just help me out this one last time. ...addicts aren't great at keeping promises. Lol. Yikes, I can't believe how many chances I got. I guess we only run out when we ourselves expire.
You know the physical to expect with detox right?, it's just getting past the mental and physical energy....I get it!....oh man do I get it! I suffer from depression to begin with so I've been livin six feet from the edge for a year now. I'm 491 days clean. Every f*ckin day is a struggle, ......BUT...still better than sinking back into chemical slavery.
Aftercare is huge for success ...uber HUGE. You will hear this over and over....best advice ...you will come to know this. You cannot do this alone. Coming clean to those you trust will be key. Even if they're worst case scenario and they aren't supportive, at least you can stop carrying that lie and search out positive peeps of support.
You can't fight your addict brain alone right now. It's lying, telling you all kinds of things to convince you that you can't live happy without them. You do have a choice.....a little work for awhile now or a LOT of work for a long long time later.
This is a great site and you'll get some really awesome info and support, please stay with us and give it another try. Like they say here, "let's have a flushing party"! You can do this and you don't have to do it alone. Keep reading and posting and engaging. Peace and hugs. xo
You know the physical to expect with detox right?, it's just getting past the mental and physical energy....I get it!....oh man do I get it! I suffer from depression to begin with so I've been livin six feet from the edge for a year now. I'm 491 days clean. Every f*ckin day is a struggle, ......BUT...still better than sinking back into chemical slavery.
Aftercare is huge for success ...uber HUGE. You will hear this over and over....best advice ...you will come to know this. You cannot do this alone. Coming clean to those you trust will be key. Even if they're worst case scenario and they aren't supportive, at least you can stop carrying that lie and search out positive peeps of support.
You can't fight your addict brain alone right now. It's lying, telling you all kinds of things to convince you that you can't live happy without them. You do have a choice.....a little work for awhile now or a LOT of work for a long long time later.
This is a great site and you'll get some really awesome info and support, please stay with us and give it another try. Like they say here, "let's have a flushing party"! You can do this and you don't have to do it alone. Keep reading and posting and engaging. Peace and hugs. xo
Well I'm in my 20s and i am not trying to let this Catch up with me and my people find out when they find me dead or something I know what I need to do I literally just am so scared.. And the worst part is I know what its like to be around addicts and be the one having to worry and have resentment and close family members also so its terrible knowing I'm not doing what they are but then I look at myself and realize I'm nobody because I have the same problem they do... You would think me having that around all my life I wpuldn want to be someone like that but I didn't mean for it to happen
Hmmm, that's your 3rd post of you saying "but when it get rough I want them." Are you willing to cut your sources? Are you willing to do what you need to quit or are you just wanting to vent? Honestly, I can't tell.
Every single thing Spider wrote, I 1000% agree with.
Every single thing Spider wrote, I 1000% agree with.
I know I guess that's just another excuse I have to let go of right? I'm just not wanting to deal with what's about to come but like you said once I go thru this and make it thru it I'll never have to go thru it again so I have to keep that in mind because I've never let myself get passed day one but I CAN DO IT
From what I've seen everyone that gets placed/takes on opiods gets addicted. It is not a discrimitory drug. I was on it for 5 years and am now 35 days sober. I was alot like you; scared sh!tless of the withdrawals but no matter what you're going to go through this if you ever want to have a life back. By getting more meds all you're doing is putting off the inevitable or writing yourself off to an early grave.
W/d's suck. There is no way around that but the good news is they don't last and you won't die from it.
You're going to experience hot/cold flashes, sweats, insomnia, diarrhea, anxiety, and maybe some other symptoms. For one, baths are your new best friend. Take these often and with Epson Salt to draw out the toxins. Use Omioduim AD or Pepto for the diarrhea. You won't be sleeping much the first few days so find things to fill your time; a light hearted movie (no downers, it's killer with your emotions out of wack), books, music (helps alot with mind racing) btw; check out Macklemores songs Otherside ft. Fences and Starting Over. Little known fact; he was addicted to opiads as well and got clean. I don't generally like rap but I can appreciate someone who tries to make truthful songs out of all the garbage out there now adays. Lastly take a few days off work. Tell them you have the flu if need be.
Spider and Jif gave you some great pointers. I know it may seem like Jig is on you but he is right. You have to want to get off the meds and stay off. There is life after this, a much better one, you've just got to make it through. I promise you, there is light at the end of this tunnel.
Best of luck,
Chels
W/d's suck. There is no way around that but the good news is they don't last and you won't die from it.
You're going to experience hot/cold flashes, sweats, insomnia, diarrhea, anxiety, and maybe some other symptoms. For one, baths are your new best friend. Take these often and with Epson Salt to draw out the toxins. Use Omioduim AD or Pepto for the diarrhea. You won't be sleeping much the first few days so find things to fill your time; a light hearted movie (no downers, it's killer with your emotions out of wack), books, music (helps alot with mind racing) btw; check out Macklemores songs Otherside ft. Fences and Starting Over. Little known fact; he was addicted to opiads as well and got clean. I don't generally like rap but I can appreciate someone who tries to make truthful songs out of all the garbage out there now adays. Lastly take a few days off work. Tell them you have the flu if need be.
Spider and Jif gave you some great pointers. I know it may seem like Jig is on you but he is right. You have to want to get off the meds and stay off. There is life after this, a much better one, you've just got to make it through. I promise you, there is light at the end of this tunnel.
Best of luck,
Chels
Wow thank you allll !!! I'm truly blessed and so here I am day 1. Is there anyway to make wds easier?
Hi and Welcome! You have certainly come to the right place as there is tins of support, encouragement and wisdom here!!! I have only been clean for 3 weeks so my detox is still clear in my memory! I too was so scared to stop because of the withdrawals! I had it built up in my head so much that I couldnt stand it! I was one of the lucky ones and it wasnt nearly as bad as I had it built up in my head! It wasnt fun but not as bad as I imagined! I did use the Thomas recipe and that helped tons so try that out! And keep posting! It really helps!!!
There are several supplements. I think maybe someone already stated this (?) but look up the 'Thomas Recipe' on a google/bing search. It holds several helpful subs. It's kinda like the holy bible of this world. :P :). Also be sure to drink alot of fluids. Gatorade is preferred as it has electro lights to replenish you; dehydration is very real and not worth a the hospital/urgent care bill.
I suggest you start researching. In the very beginning I researched like crazy, thus how I ended up here. Lol. It lets you know what to expect.
I hope to see you in the future. There are several very informed, intelligent people here. They got me through a rough time and tolerated my crazy or my 'off the wall' times,
I suggest you start researching. In the very beginning I researched like crazy, thus how I ended up here. Lol. It lets you know what to expect.
I hope to see you in the future. There are several very informed, intelligent people here. They got me through a rough time and tolerated my crazy or my 'off the wall' times,
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