Being honest is great....I don't go to meetings, but i do see a addiction specialist....She helps me alot, and so does this forum...It is whatever works for you.
good luck
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I hated AA for almost a year - I was angry sitting in the seat, listening to others - I thought I was in bumber sticker hell - with all of their sayings etc., people talking about being grateful alcoholics. I didn't talk to anyone - I don't even think I took my coat off for the first 6 months. I wasn't like them, I didn't related - it was horrible.
But I kept going - because I did not know what else to do - I wanted to say sober - and this was all I had - I knew I could not do it alone - tried it many times, and failed miserably.
And bit by bit my anger settled, I started to know and like a few people, and instead of being so damn determined not to fit in - I found myself understanding some of what they were saying.
Don't get me wrong - I take what works for me from AA, and I leave the rest - I do not think I have to buy into the whole package for it to work for me. The people and the support mean the most to me, and I work the steps the best way I can - that fits my style.
It took me at least a year of forcing myself to go. I tried a bunch of different meetings, and found a few with people I liked and respected - and now it is a big part of my sobriety. I am not sure where I would be if I had not stuck it out.
There are definatley counsellors, maybe day programs at an addictions centre or hospital - but the reason I stuck with AA - it was free, and others were going through the same thing as me.
Good luck -keep looking - it is really important to find support that works for you.
If you hated AA, what about NA, I know its the same general idea, but some say they prefer one over the other. Not sure, I personally haven't went to either. I was just trying to help a little.
There are also addiction specialists...you can find then in your county mental health system and they charge per income..some of the bigger cities have a whole practice devoted to this type of stuff but not here in my southern city