I want to ask for advice on Anger

[jenn1017]

Hi everyone, Happy ST. Pattys Day! Again I'm new to this forum and would like some advice. I want to know if anyone suffered anger towards themselves when they came to the realization they had addiction to their DOC? After the denial period, and realized what they had done to them selves, family, and friends? Did anyone out there really hate themselves and if they did do you get past it? I seem to be really hating on my self because I havn't went c/t! I read alot on the forum and alot of you have been really strong and did it. I'm still tapering and I feel like I'm a weak person. Like I should be able to just do it c/t!  I don't want to feel this way but I do. I just feel so weak and I'm really pissed. Some of you out there have went c/t off of oxys!! From what I hear, their one of the hardest pain meds to quit. I 'm on norcos and benzos so I feelin pretty ****** about my self. I can't help it, but I do.

[flmagi]

Pretty much, not a day goes by ,where I don't ask myself "what the hell have you done to your life?". We all go thru the anger thing.  It takes alot of strength to do the taper thing, most of us couldn't do it, thats why alot go cold turkey.
I don't know if your planning on quiting the Benzos, but just remember, Benzos CANNOT be done cold turkey, they MUST be tappered slowly, due to the possiblility of seizure, stroke or death.
Hang in there and be strong. We're here to help you, so keep posting.

[allaboutmary]

Yes many of us beat our selves up for getting into this situation. Your not alone there. This is a disease though so go easy on yourself . It happens to doctors, lawers,nurses, poloticians etc....Actually tapering take more guts than cold turkey . Many of us don't have the will power to taper. You should feel good about yourself.  Your doing great !  Keep posting .

[enemy48]

Hello Jenn,

The taper method didn't work for me, but does for some of us.

You need your own plan that you know that you can follow.

Yes, I HATED me.  I was all alone in this.  I was my enemy.  That's why I gave myself that name.

We're all weak.  You're not alone.  That's why we're with you sweetie.

Stay here with us.  Luv  & Hugzzz Jenn.