Having a really rough time :(

[Sweetness91]

I'm so afraid I'm going to relapse! Of course that may be a little hard w/o "resources" if you know what I mean...but I've read how our addict brains find ways to get ahold of opiates. I've been having so much facial and mouth pain for a few weeks and its just getting to be too much.  The Ibuprofen and Tylenol are tearing up my stomach...bad. I asked my doctor for an NSAID I could just take once a day instead of eating 16-20 ibuprofen and he wouldn't even consider it! And when I asked him to do bloodwork to check a couple things along with my stomach (I am 39 and haven't  had bloodwork done except for my hospital stay 4 yrs ago)  he told me to take Pepcid twice a day and come back in two months and we would "talk" about bloodwork then! WTH!! It's not like I asked him to do a bunch of testing AND PAY for it! Geez. Then he proceeded to tell me to continue taking the ibuprofen but make sure to eat with it. Ummm HELLO?? I can't freakin hardly eat because it feel like someone is shoving a toothpick up my damn nose...God he's an idiot.  Sorry guys....I'm just so frustrated today! I'm so tired of broth, pudding and Mac n Cheese...so I tend to eat nothing and I'm starving on top of it all. Lol. Grrrr!

So....has anyone had this type of pain and been successful at treating it? If so...HOW did you treat it? I'm at a loss on what to do...I have an appt for X-rays today to check the pins n screws in my face but that isn't going to help my pain right now and I DONT wanna turn to opiates. I've done so good and I really really dont want to mess that up :( HELP???!!!!

[Sweetness91]

Gnarly, I feel like I've already backslid just because I picked up the prescription :( I put it away because I don't even want the temptation in front of me...I've just never had this kind of pain in my mouth and nose. I guess you don't realize how little things like swallowing spit causes you to push your tongue up against the roof of your mouth...ohhh man, when I do that it literally feels like the inside of my nose is getting stabbed...which I guess in a way it is, because every time I touch the roof of my mouth, the oprater is getting pushed into my sinus cavity. I'm kinda glad to know what it is now though...and VERY glad it wasn't the pins or screws had shifted! No surgery!! Yay!

[Sweetness91]

Vickie...your problems are not small compared to mine! Sleeping (or not, I should say) is a big deal!! Everyone has to have sleep! And if I get to the point that I just have to have something but can't force myself to take the T-3's, I will go to urgent care or something and see if they can give me Toradol...because obviously, my idiot doctor isn't going to give me an NSAID! Lol! Seriously though...how crazy is that!!?? He makes me feel like I'm this terrible person. I went to him when I was tapering off the methadone...in withdrawals of course, and he gave me Clonidine, which I'm very thankful for, but I think he now judges me because he said I should never have been on methadone to begin with. I think I really am going to find another doctor. I already drive 45 minutes to my family dentist, I may as well go to the same town for my doctor right? Lol. My current doctor is only 15 minutes away but that's no use if he doesn't help me when I need it!

And did you get any rest today? I sure hope so woman!!

[VICourageous]

I know about the mac n cheese, pudding ect. My mom had half her tongue cut off because of cancer and she get soooo Darn fustrated not being able to eat. OHHHH I feel for you.
vickie

[gnarly_1]

Hey Girl.....wow this is the first time you mentioned relapse......I can see your in pain and thats one of my triggers to....you just cant pick up ....it will set you back if you do and with methadone you Positively dont want to move backwards....please seelk out aftercare like your life depends on it because it does keep posting for support and remember a relapse stars days ahead of time in our minds......your winning this thing keep up the good work....................Gnarly

[VICourageous]

YOU poor thing. The BLESSING will come. You make my sleep post look like a walk in the park and my pain issues. YOU are a TUFF cookie.That Dr sounds like a idiot!!!!pardon me. Like someone said he is not hearing you! OMG we know what is like to come off of the methedone and the others!!! SO what do we do??? We did not ask to become addicts. Some say 50% is the gene ???I ask myself if I got in a situation bad enough and needed something for the pain could I use the pain pills if I give them to my sponsor?? Well even if someone hands them out to me and I need more I will find them..SO It is a tuff situation. I am going to look into the Toradol or the other one too! Just curious. Just hang in keep us posted and if you can not sleep I will follow you around the post in the early am. I am going to check out the hot stuff they suggested. Isn't this a great place to be (Medhelp) I get so much info and its nice to travel around the world.
I will Pray for you.
God Bless girlfriend
vickie

[Sweetness91]

Actually, clean in ks, it's not really worrisome to me that I will take too many...I never really abused my medicine before, or even ran out or get it from others. And I did a successful methadone taper all by myself...WITHOUT a doctors help because I think he just wanted me to stay on it forever! And when I did my taper, I kept the pills locked in my fire safe, which kinda made them a pain to get to...so I think that helped me a little. And that's where the Tylenol 3's are right now because I don't even wanna look at them. Grrr.  I kinda wish if all this did have to happen, that it could've at least happened 6-8 months ago while I was still on the methadone. Lol. I'm DEFINITELY being tested!