Well this is day 9 going into day 10 shortly here, but It seems like the sweats, are co idmeing back for some strange reason. They were gone. I thought my body had regulated itself temperature wise at least up unto yesterday. What is that about? My leggs are still messing up, my right one in particular. Im getting sooooooo tired of battling this. And yes, my crazy mind is really talking to me strong now, it is trying to convince me to go find just one pill, and try it, just to take the edge off. The thoughts are so strong, its craaaaazy! Im not going to act on it, but is sure is bothersome. I be soooooo glad when it stops talking to me so strongly tho. As far as my mood, its not stable yet. I do have some "Zyprexa" just didnt want to take it, been afraid that it might screw my brain up worst....What ya think??? Please tell me, but I am very very tempted to at least try one, I am desperate to get my mood stabalized, i am just wondering will this med really help, or just screw me up worst. Scared to take it, but considering trying it outta desperation to feel better mentally, with my mood. Please give me your advise, or opinion. Other that....Im just here. Hangin onto my 9 days of sobriety, praying that My old self finds herself her way back to me.
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