My hair hurts

[Flowenb]

Feel so dang bad. Hurt
My hair hurts. Wished it was just over.
Trying to work. 10 am & can't get out of my truck.
I have to win. But can't stop crying  what the heck man   I don't know if I can do this
I want to jump so bad & can't. Makes me too sick.
But tapering feels like its killing me.

[hangetsu]

You're only prolonging the mental agony and would be better off going CT IMO. Maybe another day or two more to lower your dose a little more but it's going to eat at you the whole time you have pills. Better to get it over with and be done with it.

Good luck.

[Flowenb]

Just thought I would let y'all know that I'm feeling better and going to keep on working till I get today's scheduled game plan finished. Glad I'm on this job site alone today. Think I'm better to just keep working.
So far today 2.5 pills. That's a mile stone in itself.
Thanks for caring. Really, thanks.
I WILL WIN, with my family and yall

[krissy326]

hi...i just been clean 90 days from a 10 to 15 perc30 day habit...i have done opitates for 12 yrs and was always the party girl growin up. im 42 now. i tried to wheen self off for yrs saying this was the last batch and just would do em all by day endin. ther is nothin i have EVER been thru like having quit those stupid pills. i had go cold turky and if you can mayb take off wrk on a friday but not take any pills on thrus it will give you good 3 days to get over the very worst but if you can make it 2 wks you will honestly feel like a new person. i have lost jobs. i have lost my family. and if wasnt for my 16yr old son telling me how much he loves his moma more than anything i dont think i wuda made it...you will honestly get so depressed you wont want live or move but if you can just hold out 2 weeks you have made it out of worst part and accomplished not havin to get on another pill like the Dr always want u to do...Take hot baths and soak as long you can it really does help...i also would take nyquil or any flu meds and drink lots water and a vitamin because your body is stripped. i smoked pot and it took edge off some and now i clean from that 3 wks after smoking since 14yrs old. Friend, if there is anything i can help with just ask. im always here for encouragment or eager to recommend something to help pass each minute of your struggles...You can do this...i know you can!!! I am praying for you....Your Friend N Tennesse:)

[Shelly3577]

True. That's why I said it. A lot of people think its over once your symptoms are gone. That's not the case.

[mary577]

You have to fight the devil in your head no matter what method you use to get clean.  That is why so many people recommend counseling or NA.

[Shelly3577]

Good luck!! I, myself, quit for 6 days, but emotions and God-awful anxiety made me relapse. I couldn't work or be a mother in that shape. So, I'm back to tapering so I don't shock my system so much like I did with CT, because once the physical symptoms are over, you still have to fight the devil inside your head. I thought I had it made!

I wish you well whichever way you decide!!

[Life360_Dave]

Im on day 9 of tapering. When from 8 - 10mg to 2 3/4 per day. I think the trick is to have a ample supply on hand and REMEMBER that you will run out if you dont stick with it and WD is waiting. Im ok with tapering as am the kind of person that accepts things. I am now very acustomed to WD feeling at low levels.

[Flowenb]

Thank u both. I have to C/T or I'll never make it.
It's nice to know y'all care.
Michael

[Flowenb]

Thank u both. I have to C/T or I'll never make it.
It's nice to know y'all care.
Michael

[bama88]

Hey. You stole my saying. Lol. I remember a wickedly bad detox I went thru coming off of 360 mgs of oxies. The horror of the first five days.

But I promise it will get better. This will be a challange for you. But it will be ok. Remember you. Resetting your body's chemistry. Along with flushing it out.

What helped me the most is its ok not to be ok for awhile.

[stilltrying1965]

I never tappered i went c/t.We all have bad days some worse than others. Try and keep positive Keep fighting dont give up. Im sorry that you are having a bad day but tomorrow will be better.Get shot of those pills and go c/t you will feel bad for 4 or 5 days then it will ease just a thought Keep fighting you desserve better sending you lots of strengh and praying that you will get through today. Plz dont give up fighting. Do what you think is best for you tappering or c/t. Hope you feel better soon.........

[Flowenb]

Thank u Mary.
That's what the vacation is going to be. My jump.
I thought I may make it easier for C/T. But I can't get any work done. Gave my wife my stash Sunday. Stored up quite a bottle. Making sure I never ran out.
The family knows & r behind me all the way.
I just got to jump. There is no other way for me.
Take what I gotta take, get the work done & go for it all in.
Havent done this crying thing before.
I don't know. Thank y'all for making it. Thank yall for helping. Just stupid to listen to that doc. Suck it up.
Mary, GREAT JOB ON THE FLUSHING OF THAT PILL.

[mary577]

I'm all for CT, but if you have to work, perhaps you ought to get through that and then take some vacation time and do the CT and get it over with.   I know how a plumber has to move around and it is bad enough when you are in pain, but being in pain and sick at the same time.....that might be too much.

Many people can't taper as long as they have pills at hand.   If you decide to do CT, make up your mind and get rid of them....then take a the few days that it takes to feel miserable and stay at home.   I know you said your wife is very supportive, so as long as she understands what you are going through, that should be a help to you.   But trying to do plumbing work....especially in the summer when it is so hot and being sick and in pain.....that is too much and you will set yourself up for failure.  

[Flowenb]

Thank y'all. Very very much.
I had no idea that these pills would do this to me.
Opiates  yes.

[Flowenb]

Today is day 5 on tapering.
I own a plumbing co. I'm all that's left in this company. Setting up a jump. I'm not tapering good at all so I guess I should tell all. I took 6 yesterday. Today , so far 1. 1/2 @ a time.
I'm going on vacation, well that's my story. Must finish these jobs out.
Yes, I AM A BELIEVER IN CHRIST.
YES, I AM A PILL HEAD.
Back is messed up nice. Did what the Doc told me to do. 8 years later......
I have to jump. It's the only way for me.
Should I just take what I need to "feel normal" then jump. Hoping to jump within these two weeks

[IBKleen]

I agree that tapering is hard. I was never good at it and never completed a taper successfully with the pain medication. I always had to pull the band aid off quick, so to speak. If you can take some time off as suggested you can get this done in a shorter amount of time and a lot less suffering.

[SunnysideUP27]

Can you take some time off and then just jump? Tapering is hard and quite honestly not worth it in my opinion. Your going thru your normal withdrawals while tapering and when you take that 1/2 or 1 pill to taper you start all over again. Not the way to do it. Your on opiates i am assuming.

[ready4mylifeback]

i feel for u i am going through the same thing... (not tapering tho) i quit 3 days ago on day 2 i relapsed and got 10 pills i think that was the defining moment for me that i REALLY DO want to quit.. they did NOTHING for me expect make me feel worse:( now i am back at day 1 and prob pretty much went through those 2 days of hell for nothing because i am starting over today.. i don't know if u believe in God and i am not pushing anythign on u but He will really help u i was bawling uncontroallably yesterday before relapse and my husband prayed over the phoen w me and i immediately stopped crying and felt better it wasnt until i was in town and was really weak went to the dr got 10 pills.. like i said that is what will keep me from doing it again.. they really do NOTHING for u i felt 100 times worse i didn't enjoy the feeling and got even more depressed... u CAN do this,, i was clean for over 3 yrs and it was the BEST part of my life it is only a week or so of feeling bad i struggle REALLY bad too but i just keep telling myself those pills are LIARS.. they r the DEVIL...i am tired of being a slave to them just think about in a week when u r feeling better.. and u don't have to count pills, lie, make plans around weather u will have pills or not.. u will have A LOT more energy ur natural energy and u really r A LOT happier there is NOTHING better than a TRUE laugh life is really great w out them it is just that week u have to get through.. what day r u on? i am pulling for u and know i am going through it too u CAN do this do NOT give intot hem u will only feel worse