Some of you know me from on here before, so now im really gonna dump the beans. I have close friends that have seen my behaviors, and a dear relative that is clean and sober after going to treatment. My problem is the booze and pills, i have a script for 10/325 norco, have back pain, (my last mri was not good this year, and now im scheduled to go to a Pain Managemnt Clinic next month), and i have found a beer helps the pills work faster and better. Now this has been going on for over 2 years, (the beer with pills), and when my script runs out, get sick, find some more pills. I have talked with my relative who thinks i should go to treatment to quit, I have been doing this and going to work. Well, i finally got nailed at work the other day, and was ordered to do a drug/alcohol test, i refused and walked out of a job ive have for two years. Now im really down in the dumps, but one thing, the door is open to go to treatment now. My husband has excellent insurance, and have already looked into it, they will pay for treatment. My husband is gone alot, and i am home alone drinking and taking pills, when he does come home he drinks quite heavily, so there is another roadblock, i cant go to treatment and come home to a heavy drinker....Ive been praying about this and ask for your prayers also, I went to treatment 20 years ago for cocaine addiction, and beat it, can i do this through his grace....Thanks everyone, im out on a limb.