I hope this helps

[dellta]

Hey evryone its been a wile since ive been here that is do to work and kids,Im a single dad and just about 76 days ago i began the journey of getting clean, Im addicted to pain meds even just for me to say it and say it sober is a victory all on its own, Any way i quit c/t after years of perks/ oxy/ you name it after hurting my back in the milatary i not ever refused the meds for the simple fact i was using them for everything in my life from pain to coping with a ex wife that walked out on me and at that time our 6mo baby. I stopped taking the meds because i was chained i was owned by them and i had a great fear of being on the pills for the rest of my life it terrified me i was a addict with a 2yr old son and not much of a life at all except my only freind and refuge and destroyer "pills" So as i said i quit c/t and to be honest it was bad and even worse i had to take care of my son and no one knew of my addiction i was alone! The first 2 days not so bad but day 3 and 4 and 5 were unberable i wanted to die!!! and taking care of a 2yr old was pure hell. day 6 it was bad but i started to notice i was getting better then of cource coming on here was a life saver. day 7 bad as i said it was gettig better i just felt like i was waking up after years of being asleep then i started taking vitiams and doing all the stuff pepole here were saying to do be for you w/d and yep beleive me if you can tapper do it but the most important thing to do is start taking vitamans now hydrayte all you can and hold on for the jump but no matter how you do it the main point is that you do it and i can promise you on everything  it does get better the w/d go away then the work begins to stay clean i truly wanted to be free from the drugs but that is not enough you realy have to seek help anywere you can you would be suprised at how many pepole understand and trust me the more pepole you have behind you the greater your chances are of succes. Its been 76 days or so for me and i feel great i do have my moments thow where i want to use i truly im in pain but i was in more pain when i was using  its the hardest thing you can do and at the same time the most rewarding thing you can do im proud of myself but at the same time i know i can ffff this whole thing up and go back to day one and the w/d and sorrow and guilt all over again so all i can say is i dont know about tommorow but i can say im clean today.  I wish all of you that are quiting so much love and luck and just give yourself a chance and if you have to come on here a hundred times a day you will be welcomed with open arms and trust me everyone here truly does understand..  

[viclon]

Hi how did you detox with a child to care for. Did you go to NA. I only found this site and it is really valuable, somewhere to release our secrets.
Really impressive. Congratulations.

[dominosarah]

Congrats on 76 days!!!  Keep going with that positive attitude!!!  Nice to see you checking in again!!!      sara