Please help

[Laura20]

I am sooo sad right now. Everything is crashing all around me. Its 1 problem after another.Not feeling good physically, bills piling up, husband with cancer, anniversary of parents deaths. Tried to stay busy today.I am trying so hard to stick to taper but I feel like I can't take much more. I am probably annoying you by writing but I just don't know what else to do.Please help me so I don't use this as a excuse to take more.

[worried878]

I think it is cool that u 2 are going ct tomorrow together...soetimes ct is the only way to get it done..good luck and will check on u laura...u 2 christine

[Laura20]

I will go through this with you. We can compare notes. We can do it together. Good luck. Talk to you tommorrow! Laura

[HenryS354]

I have to say I am worried about you.

I would stick to your taper if you can as attempting ct at such a stressful time in your life can be a train wreck....

Only you kow whats best for you, but please please reconsider this ct plan.

Keep posting and hang in there....

Henry

[avisg]

laura , is going threw the same thing too you two maybe able to help each other threw this

[avisg]

we will be here for you Christine

[christine2222]

No I kept my taper plan & tommm I am going to attempt ct. Today is better, Just wondering if pills are addding to depression. If anyone wants to check if I am still alive(LOL) would apperciate the support! Thanks for the positive thoughts . Could you please send some tommorow. I probably going to really need them. Thanks

[LateAugust]

I too am sorry for everything happening all at one time for you, seems life could spread those times out over the years so it isn't so overwhelming......  ahh  I am still looking for that magic wand.

Laura, it sounds like you did NOT stop your taper plan?  I hope you feel proud for staying so strong during a horrible time.  If you didn't change your taper plan  last night or today, what a huge step and commitment you have made to sobriety, and living your life with a healthy mind body and soul.

Please let us know if today is just a bit,  just one iota better for you.

I do understand your pain,  and am sending you only positive thoughts.

[Laura20]

Sorry you went through what you did. Yes life is really hard most of time. I really been thinking about everything you said. I know pills are not the answer. I am just being overwhelmed with everything right now.

[broknbck]

Hey, so you are tappering. that's great. i remember your posts about it, hhmmm maybe a few weeks ago? so you have come a long way.

try this site out. they have this product that is an almost instant cure for malaria. it was discovered a couple years ago by accident and since they have been finding more and more uses for it. the most recent being cancer.

i have used it successfully for a large skin infection and a tooth cavity.
i will have to send the file to you. seems that the site is moved or gone.

[LateAugust]

You are absolutely correct,  no one can understand what you are going thru at this time in your life.   Will swapping stories help you?  I had my first born die of cancer when she was 24, the absolute perfect child, I was proud of her living, and I am proud of her now.  Our second child died shortly after  at birth, I will never be the same,  when you bury two children, you bury a piece of your heart.   Now, our last daughter is an oxy addict,  and by her own hand, I watch what no parent should have to endure,  the loss of an other  child, of which I am fighting  as much as I did when Mindy, our oldest had cancer.    

I could tell you more of the  people I miss,  my father, I want him here so bad, because he was my calm, my idol with all of the answers.

That is not a choice for me, so  I go on and try to  be the very best of what I can be,  and not blame life's heartache as an excuse  to crawl in a corner.  I wish I could take a magic pill and make it all go away,  but how long does that last......... until the next pill?    And the next,  and another, until it destroys every aspect of your life?

I am glad you posted, and sincerely hope that you will not turn to drugs, even when life gives us  a reason to use.....because you will be hurt again,  and perhaps more than you hurt now,  unfortunately that is the cycle of life, even when it is backwards.

Your true choice is to stay strong and face reality as it is........         I hope dear you can and will run from the pills..........in  my heart I think you have that ability to stay focused on your sobriety.  That is the greatest thing you can do for all you love.  My best,  Jeanette

[Laura20]

No you don't understand. My parents physically & emotionly abused me for years. The only time I was any good to them is when they needed me. It was a nightmare the last 2 years.  I did everything for them. They were my parents but to see them suffer like that It just brings up so much stuff.Now having my husband having cancer & the bills coming in because of me due to me being on disability. Next week I return to work so hopefully things will get better. Just feeling too much right now. Just reaching out for help so I don't blow taper. Thanks

[redrodeo]

Gosh I am sorry. That tapering is very hard. Recently I did better just stopping and using Suboxone. Do you go to any 12 step meetings? I can't imagine going thru that stuff alone. Even family doesn't really help. I really wish you would go to some meetings. They really help me. Most of what an addict goes thru is spiritual. The God I have works thru people best. If I need a hug or words of encouragement its always thru people. If theres anything I can do send me a PM
     Red

[scaredmom330]

Laura,


remember to take it one day at a time, I know how sad the anniversary of my dad's death is but I try to remember something that will make me smile about my life w/ him...my thoughts and prayers are with you, be strong my friend


Karen

[lady67]

Laura,

I am so sorry you are having such a bad day.  I pray that you will be able to rest and remember that tomorrow is a new day.  This verse helps me when I am feeling down.

The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you.  Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.  Deuteronomy 31:8