I am on day 1 again after many many relapses. I'm so sick & tired of this. I HAVE 2 do it right this time but I don't know how, I have a feeling of hopelessness I started counseling last week and I go 2 AA on wed. Nites it does help a little, I was going 2 try suboxone but now I kinda think its a bad idea, I don't want 2 become hooked on it. How do some of u guys do it? What can help me not cave this time? I normally make it like 10-30 days then cave everytime. Its always the no sleep & depression that just linges on after W/D is over. I have only kept on taking the hydros 2 feel normal they have stoped making me happy a long time ago. Hope this time I go all the way just scared of the unknown.
Jessica