Hey all update feeling better

[joyagain]

Hi feeling better.  Hard to believe last week I was on the brink of suicide.  I am hopeful, scared, lifted up all at once.  My husband just wants me to get help and go through the program for diversion.  I am 4 weeks clean now and starting to understand my situation a little better.  I have considered all of your posts.  Even after posting the last thread, I went into a downward emotional tailspin when I thought my husband had had it with me.  I do have a ton of support from the nursing program, and they have given me no choice which is what I needed.  Life will be beautiful.  Thanks everyone...I hope I haven't lost any friends here.  Things are getting busy and expensive.  I have to leave town 3 times this week for this, and still maintain meetings everyday and potential urine drug screens on those days as well.  Please know that you have helped...... Joy

[joyagain]

Yes I will be very busy with the board of nursing, not to mention broke.  Anyway, I have my entry assessment tomorrow out of town, then have to drive real far out of town for another MD visit.  All the while I have to complete a lot of self assessments, and get into an intensive outpt rehab that is located one hour away as well.  I have been attending the AA/NA meetings.   Thanks for everything, and I will be in touch.

[el_em_en_oh]

Stay strong Sister.

Wherever you go, there are meetings... I promise you that.

Keep fighting the good fight, and it'll get better and better as the days pass. Before long, your thoughts of offing yourself will be a distant memory, and something you can thumb your nose at. I had the very same thoughts, and I now look into the past and laugh at how silly it all seemed. At the time... futility. Now... HOPE!

Congratulations on kicking it!!!

LMNO

[Jaybay]

Congrats!  I've been following your story and was really worried you were going to let life's pressure talk you into giving up.  You did it!  NOW you sound focused on building a new life instead of constantly worrying about how to make it like it used to be.  Good for you - you're on the right track now.  :-)

[MzHolly]

So glad you're feeling so much better about everything! 4 weeks clean, that's a big deal! Congrats!

[worried878]

Congrats!
If u told the nursing board,,,they will make sure u stay clean

But u have persisted, proceeded in spite of obstacles
You should be proud!

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