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Hi everyone can you help me get through this ?
Day 1 of CT from OC about 80mg's a day for several months///down to 40 mg on last 2 days. I know HELL ON EARTH is coming.
Can I post here to get support? How do I do this with support from this awesome community?
Hell is coming....argggh
I want to be clean so bad and be a better father to my young kids and a beter husband. Family has no idea. Told them the flu is coming! But I will need someone to talk to!
This is gonna suck isnt it? ARRGH!
Can I post here to get support? How do I do this with support from this awesome community?
Hell is coming....argggh
I want to be clean so bad and be a better father to my young kids and a beter husband. Family has no idea. Told them the flu is coming! But I will need someone to talk to!
This is gonna suck isnt it? ARRGH!
keep the faith Free!!!!!!!!! You r killin' it!!!!
I am in day 10 and I wish everyone could feel what I feel....I will never forget the first 5 days....never want to go through that again! But to arrive at where I am today made it all worth it.....
I'm proud of you Free....that must've been a hard phone call! Glad he didn't call me! hahaa
Clean
I am in day 10 and I wish everyone could feel what I feel....I will never forget the first 5 days....never want to go through that again! But to arrive at where I am today made it all worth it.....
I'm proud of you Free....that must've been a hard phone call! Glad he didn't call me! hahaa
Clean
my dealer just pinged me..and asked where I have been. hahahaha. I told him to **** off!!
just kidding...he is a good guy, actually. I told him I was done and he promised not to offer me any...even if I squirmed. Seeing that number did crazy things for me though...not inna good way. Must stay strong...I am sure he would give me 10 if I whined enough...or said "they are for a buddy"...yeah, right!
Anyway...doing good...1.5 hours shy of 96!!!!!!!!!! Good God, this is fun!!!
just kidding...he is a good guy, actually. I told him I was done and he promised not to offer me any...even if I squirmed. Seeing that number did crazy things for me though...not inna good way. Must stay strong...I am sure he would give me 10 if I whined enough...or said "they are for a buddy"...yeah, right!
Anyway...doing good...1.5 hours shy of 96!!!!!!!!!! Good God, this is fun!!!
Hey Ready....do you ever read your first or early posts above? Amazing isn't it?
Another funny observation....my wife bought new bedsheets a few days before I became "ill" with the flu. She washed them before putting them on the bed, but they still had a faint smell to them that I can't really describe. All I know is that the smell of them reminds me of the 4 days of withdrawl I spent in that bed and how miserable I was....I had to change them this weekend....wife was stunned! I've never changed the sheets before! Hahaha....
Best to you my friends...
Clean
Another funny observation....my wife bought new bedsheets a few days before I became "ill" with the flu. She washed them before putting them on the bed, but they still had a faint smell to them that I can't really describe. All I know is that the smell of them reminds me of the 4 days of withdrawl I spent in that bed and how miserable I was....I had to change them this weekend....wife was stunned! I've never changed the sheets before! Hahaha....
Best to you my friends...
Clean
That is actually what always drives me back...not the painful moments, but the joyful ones. When I am feeling my best, that is when I am most vulnerable. IT IS A CRAVING...just a different type. It seems like when you are ill...you have all the motivation in the world not to do it. When you feel good...you let your guard down and it jumps back in.
Just remember...those good little feelings all go away if you use.
Keep it up...right behind you all...
Freeee!!!!!!!!!
Just remember...those good little feelings all go away if you use.
Keep it up...right behind you all...
Freeee!!!!!!!!!
Mornin' friends!
Had a great evening last night! Left work a little early to go to worship rehearsal....working on the Christmas music now (which I love the season but not real fond of the music-not much of is has any POP....if you know what I mean....as a bass player, I need me some POP!-haha) Got home and had dinner then played Wii with my 5yo son....again, I will keep saying to you my friends (and those lurkers still debating if they really have a problem) I am finding peace and joy in the simplest things!!!!!! I am getting killed by my son in Wii and laughing like tomorrow will never come....11 days ago, I would probably tell him "not now, I'm busy" even though I'm not...
Put the 3 little ones to sleep at 830 then sat down and watched a movie with my missus...if you haven't seen "Australia"...do it! It is incredible! Plus it's fun experiencing all of those emotions that you forgot you had! This is a 3 hour epic, but worth the investment....
I have a question for my quit buddies....I don't really experience cravings for dope now, but sometimes my mind tells me that it would be fun...is that a craving? I thought a craving would be more physical than mental...maybe it's all mental? I don't get them often, mostly because I feel sooooo good...I saw some good advice about that too, say outloud the reasons that you quit.....remind yourself how good you feel outloud...that really worked for me....
Keep the faith friends.....
Clean
Had a great evening last night! Left work a little early to go to worship rehearsal....working on the Christmas music now (which I love the season but not real fond of the music-not much of is has any POP....if you know what I mean....as a bass player, I need me some POP!-haha) Got home and had dinner then played Wii with my 5yo son....again, I will keep saying to you my friends (and those lurkers still debating if they really have a problem) I am finding peace and joy in the simplest things!!!!!! I am getting killed by my son in Wii and laughing like tomorrow will never come....11 days ago, I would probably tell him "not now, I'm busy" even though I'm not...
Put the 3 little ones to sleep at 830 then sat down and watched a movie with my missus...if you haven't seen "Australia"...do it! It is incredible! Plus it's fun experiencing all of those emotions that you forgot you had! This is a 3 hour epic, but worth the investment....
I have a question for my quit buddies....I don't really experience cravings for dope now, but sometimes my mind tells me that it would be fun...is that a craving? I thought a craving would be more physical than mental...maybe it's all mental? I don't get them often, mostly because I feel sooooo good...I saw some good advice about that too, say outloud the reasons that you quit.....remind yourself how good you feel outloud...that really worked for me....
Keep the faith friends.....
Clean
So good to hear you are doing well! I just woke up, here is beautiful California! You are absolutely right, everyday get a little bit better! So happy for your sobriety today. I have cut down drastically to one as of yesterday, and it's so nice to wake up not feeling like the first thing you need is a fix. YAY to LIFE & FREEDOM from these EVIL PILLS !!!
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